Venting what is the point of telling me not to do it

[gardenoflonely]

idek what the point is of trying to talk me out of something and then not helping at all with the situation. i hate to be that person but if i say on social media media or a forum or text msg etc that i plan on ctb literally what could possibly be the point in saying "please don't" and then not doing anything.

like is it just ok to accept that there's not something you can say easily that would take away thoughts like these...feels like nobody actually cares but they "have to" say something because they feel like scrolling past or ignoring it would make them a bad person, not because they actually care about me feeling better. idk im just sick of this and really drunk lol i know nobody is coming to save me though
fr let parents tell it on social media there were no signs wtf everyone sucks honestly lol i don't even feel bad anymore
why is it so selfish to not want to hurt anymore.

bandage me if you care so much then

 

[bl33ding_heart]

All of my friends have acted the same way in the past when I talked about wanting to commit suicide. And in all honesty a part of me wanted them to actually put in the effort and try to be there for me. Because I very much needed it. And that's what friends do, and that's what I did for them. But they couldn't say anything more than, "it will get better" or "you're so young you have so much life ahead of you".

 

[gardenoflonely]

All of my friends have acted the same way in the past when I talked about wanting to commit suicide. And in all honesty a part of me wanted them to actually put in the effort and try to be there for me. Because I very much needed it. And that's what friends do, and that's what I did for them. But they couldn't say anything more than, "it will get better" or "you're so young you have so much life ahead of you".

seriously, i just want someone to say "why" you know. like yes i can get better but why do i have to go through all of this to get to it. nobody in my entire life has answered it. i will die whether it's by my hand or naturally. let me have control of something for once. i'm young too but ive seen more than enough of this is all life is. ive done so much for others, sorta like you mentioned. but nobody is willing to the same for me. i'm tired of complaining about something that won't change.