nervousandanxious
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- Apr 29, 2020
- 35
I am so tired of living life. It is extremely difficult , it only gets worse as you get older. Does anyone ever reflect on how easy their childhood was, high school, college years? Once you graduate college it's like they say "Good luck finding a job" and give you a useless degree -- well, for me at least. I got a degree in sociology and it is completely worthless unless I take out student loans and get more education, which is not something I want to do. The game of life requires you to find a high-paying job, to have enough money to pay your bills, have kids to pass on your genes, and then what? Life is tough 90% of the time, I feel like. If you can't get a good paying job then what happens? You either end up homeless or contemplating life itself because how hard living is. I have failed at a number of jobs and I'm just ready to give up. My prime years are over. We are getting older every day and I feel like I will lose my good looks yet, then what? Guys won't hit on me anymore, I'll have nothing going for me except my shitty personality. I can't deal with how hard life is in general. To achieve the "American Dream" is the goal of most. That is a very tough thing to do though, for a lot of people who are failing at jobs or having trouble finding a job they like. The job they have may become so miserable that they do not wish to even exist anymore for how hard & not fun it is. For me, I have a mild foot disability that makes it super hard to stand for more than 5 hours at most, so I am stuck with part time jobs or a job sitting down, which is only like a receptionist or office job. I don't like working in general. Maybe I'm lazy but I just feel like I am not equipped for the real world of work. Life is a cruel place with not many happy moments occur (to me at least). I can't go on like this, so this is why I am ready to "catch the bus." Do you guys ever feel like there is no real point in life? We get older and older, closer to death, things only get harder as we age it seems. I wish I can be more optimistic and look at the bright side but when the world is so full of negativity, it is hard to be positive. I only wish to experience true love and maybe pregnancy before I die. I don't really want to bring another person into the world though for the fear that he or she might suffer. I just wish I can give another child a better life, but I wouldn't even be able to financially provide for them. It's a pretty shitty feeling So for you guys: what seems to be the point of life for you? What is holding you back from really committing suicide? It is best to wait in my opinion and to keep trying but eventually we all reach our breaking point.
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