nervousandanxious

nervousandanxious

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Apr 29, 2020
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I am so tired of living life. It is extremely difficult , it only gets worse as you get older. Does anyone ever reflect on how easy their childhood was, high school, college years? Once you graduate college it's like they say "Good luck finding a job" and give you a useless degree -- well, for me at least. I got a degree in sociology and it is completely worthless unless I take out student loans and get more education, which is not something I want to do. The game of life requires you to find a high-paying job, to have enough money to pay your bills, have kids to pass on your genes, and then what? Life is tough 90% of the time, I feel like. If you can't get a good paying job then what happens? You either end up homeless or contemplating life itself because how hard living is. I have failed at a number of jobs and I'm just ready to give up. My prime years are over. We are getting older every day and I feel like I will lose my good looks yet, then what? Guys won't hit on me anymore, I'll have nothing going for me except my shitty personality. I can't deal with how hard life is in general. To achieve the "American Dream" is the goal of most. That is a very tough thing to do though, for a lot of people who are failing at jobs or having trouble finding a job they like. The job they have may become so miserable that they do not wish to even exist anymore for how hard & not fun it is. For me, I have a mild foot disability that makes it super hard to stand for more than 5 hours at most, so I am stuck with part time jobs or a job sitting down, which is only like a receptionist or office job. I don't like working in general. Maybe I'm lazy but I just feel like I am not equipped for the real world of work. Life is a cruel place with not many happy moments occur (to me at least). I can't go on like this, so this is why I am ready to "catch the bus." Do you guys ever feel like there is no real point in life? We get older and older, closer to death, things only get harder as we age it seems. I wish I can be more optimistic and look at the bright side but when the world is so full of negativity, it is hard to be positive. I only wish to experience true love and maybe pregnancy before I die. I don't really want to bring another person into the world though for the fear that he or she might suffer. I just wish I can give another child a better life, but I wouldn't even be able to financially provide for them. It's a pretty shitty feeling ;-; So for you guys: what seems to be the point of life for you? What is holding you back from really committing suicide? It is best to wait in my opinion and to keep trying but eventually we all reach our breaking point.
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

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I relate so much to this.
Life is pointless and hard, and pointlessly hard.
 
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popo

popo

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Jul 12, 2018
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The point of life is to find your own purpose in life. IK it sounds stupid but it is what it is.
 
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dysfunctional

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The point of it is to enjoy your work, relationships, and activities. Unfortunately for me this is no longer possible due to mental illness.
 
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kappa

kappa

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Apr 2, 2019
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You make your own point in life. That was a hard reality to face when I realized that.
 
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nervousandanxious

nervousandanxious

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You make your own point in life. That was a hard reality to face when I realized that.
But how do we do that? I guess by creating our own goals and dreams. . .The main point is to reproduce and pass on our genes!
 
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kappa

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Apr 2, 2019
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But how do we do that? I guess by creating our own goals and dreams. . .The main point is to reproduce and pass on our genes!
Gross- I would get angry seeing young people with kids. Highly doubt that's what they really wanted. Why are you making more of you?

Yes I suppose create your own dreams, but I doubt many of us on here are doing that.
 
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Susannah

Susannah

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Jul 2, 2018
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Gross- I would get angry seeing young people with kids. Highly doubt that's what they really wanted. Why are you making more of you?

Yes I suppose create your own dreams, but I doubt many of us on here are doing that.
I have a kid (teenager), and I remember how depressing life became after a few years. His father and I broke up, and we both had struggles coping with being single parents, act friendly towards each other for our kid's sake. But today, 13y later we're good friends, and our boy is a good- hearted kid with a future. So my reason to live is to follow- up on my boy, prepare him for the future, love and support him.

I also try to appreciate when good things happens, in the moment.
Lots of loveS
 
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KLUF

KLUF

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LIfe has no point, purpose, meaning. Universe is just a procedurally generated environment, and we live because simulated particles happened to allign in a way that they created us and our consciousness.

There are 3 ways out of it:
  1. FInding your own purpose in life, set goals and pursue them
  2. Carrying on without purpose, with average job, life etc. until dying of old age
  3. Finding a method to CTB that fits you the most
I wish you the best on whatever path you choose :hug:
 
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Bct

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Apr 20, 2020
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Life is pointless, except if you make one. At this point, I don't see the benefits in having a point. I also feel I'm not equipped for this life, struggling with jobs & relationships.
 
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Realityisawful

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Apr 25, 2019
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And if you do have a purpose but can't fulfill it, you can either choose to live for other people, or end your life. Some people don't have the energy to sustain a life of pure altruism, because they keep being reminded of what they missed out on due to seeing others have what you want.
 
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Notwinnernotawin

Notwinnernotawin

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Apr 4, 2020
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The point of life is to suffer I guess.
 
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SpottedPanda

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I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
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I feel like there'd appear to be a point to life if I had a wife, a fulfilling job, and kids. Even being a productive member of society might offer some meaning.

As things stand, there is little significance or usefulness to my existence.
 
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Bruces

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May 11, 2020
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Yes I agree I can only see life as a pointless cycle of monotonous drivel now
 
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itsamadworld

itsamadworld

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Mar 15, 2020
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I have learned to accept the fact that life sucks, and that most of us come into the world feeling alone, cold, naked, and wet......and we shall leave this world in a similar fashion as i found out working in hospice.......

I know if i brought a child into the world, that child could suffer from a myriad of problems- Not to mention the world is just getting worse.....Like the OP mentioned, and I agree, the job situation in the USA is getting much worse....I had many horrible experiences at jobs.....I had several bosses- even for their own mistakes- get right up in my face to where i could smell their nasty breath, and feel their spit hit my face, and scream in my face like disgusting, psycho lunatics.."....I just got to the point where I just walked right out, didn't even give them a dang notice! Otherwise, I might get charged for murder or assault if i stay....

....As far as putting another slave into the system, i couldn't do that to someone. This country ruins people- and then they wonder why the birth rates are plunging...they just don't ruin us, they Destroys us......I always felt that if i had a child, it would make me the biggest hypocrite of all times, because i always wished that I had not been born.....
 
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Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

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I can relate to most of your post except pregnancy and looks... those things I don't give a crap about at all, especially pregnancy. But I'm like that, I *hate* working and school. I probably have a real phobia of work, I should find out what it's called. It's a very strong phobia, I even take misery in other people's work lives. You ever hear about that saying "everyone hates Mondays and loves Fridays" it's because of work. Most people hate it. And this is why alcohol and coffee are such beloved things in society. They are coping mechanisms to cope with the horrors of going to work every fucking day, early in the morning. I physically can't even do it anymore I'm physically ill now. But there's no way I can survive on disability or welfare. Most people are just trying to survive, a lot of them have kids and just want their kids to do better. Life is a big joke, and there's way too many people in the world.
 
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nervousandanxious

nervousandanxious

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I can relate to most of your post except pregnancy and looks... those things I don't give a crap about at all, especially pregnancy. But I'm like that, I *hate* working and school. I probably have a real phobia of work, I should find out what it's called. It's a very strong phobia, I even take misery in other people's work lives. You ever hear about that saying "everyone hates Mondays and loves Fridays" it's because of work. Most people hate it. And this is why alcohol and coffee are such beloved things in society. They are coping mechanisms to cope with the horrors of going to work every fucking day, early in the morning. I physically can't even do it anymore I'm physically ill now. But there's no way I can survive on disability or welfare. Most people are just trying to survive, a lot of them have kids and just want their kids to do better. Life is a big joke, and there's way too many people in the world.
Very true. . .Work is not a fun place to be but it's like we're forced to find jobs and do work because there's hardly any way around living and being successful if we don't have money to pay the bills. That's why so many people are homeless -- they couldn't find work or make it in the real world and I fear this will happen to me because my mother can/will only pay for my stuff for so long. She will eventually cut me off and then I will not have money to survive. This is what I am frightened of. Plus, life is only getting harder & harder. It's just not worth suffering anymore. Things aren't getting any better and I'm losing hope ;-;
I have learned to accept the fact that life sucks, and that most of us come into the world feeling alone, cold, naked, and wet......and we shall leave this world in a similar fashion as i found out working in hospice.......

I know if i brought a child into the world, that child could suffer from a myriad of problems- Not to mention the world is just getting worse.....Like the OP mentioned, and I agree, the job situation in the USA is getting much worse....I had many horrible experiences at jobs.....I had several bosses- even for their own mistakes- get right up in my face to where i could smell their nasty breath, and feel their spit hit my face, and scream in my face like disgusting, psycho lunatics.."....I just got to the point where I just walked right out, didn't even give them a dang notice! Otherwise, I might get charged for murder or assault if i stay....

....As far as putting another slave into the system, i couldn't do that to someone. This country ruins people- and then they wonder why the birth rates are plunging...they just don't ruin us, they Destroys us......I always felt that if i had a child, it would make me the biggest hypocrite of all times, because i always wished that I had not been born.....
Oh wow, that's descriptive with the boss things. I don't like having a boss either, that's why I'm not a fan of work. I'd rather be self-employed (which I actually am-- I do webcamming but the money just isn't enough to live off of unless I did it full time). Aww don't say you wish you weren't born! That's really pessimistic :(
 
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The Dark Chaos

The Dark Chaos

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Life is a lie.
 
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