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tannhausers

tannhausers

ГолоГный.
Apr 23, 2026
31
1 day, I guess

I REALLY hate being dirty. If I haven't showered, I can feel the dirt, sweat, and everything else, and it really bugs me.
Update: I just remembered that I didn't wash for about five days while I was in the hospital—and that's even though I did wash genitalia area every day (at least I tried to wash up as best I could). And it was HORRIBLE; I felt disgusting because of it, plus I was weighed down by the whole hospital atmosphere and the discomfort of not being at home and sharing a ward with other people.
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

Widower
Aug 5, 2024
371
3 days. I was catatonic, albeit briefly, from a psychotic episode. One of the most terrifying moments of my life.
 
DrowningWithin

DrowningWithin

All I wanted
Jan 23, 2025
20
Lwk like a whole summer, I would wash my hair in the sink because I couldn't take care of myself.

Even now it's hard to shower because it's so much effort. I shower like literally once every 1-2 weeks.

My hair is fried so it hardly gets oily. It comes as a shock since online I portray myself as some sort of "pretty girl", which I clearly don't act like one.
 
SilentSiren

SilentSiren

Member
May 6, 2026
7
Longest I have gone is about 2 months. That was during one of my more acute depressive episodes and losing my favorite person just made it worse. I didn't have the energy or will to even get out of bed, let alone shower. At my baseline, I shower 2-3 times a week.
 
U

usernameless

Member
May 15, 2026
18
I don't care to keep track of these things but probably like 2 weeks.
 
AnxiousLife

AnxiousLife

scared of people
Jan 13, 2025
60
Maybe a month. Now I shower every 2 weeks probably, my depression and ocd (fear of contamination, thoughts of something may happen while i'm showering and similar thoughts) make it challenging to take care of myself
 
enne

enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
88
i think it was about two months or more.. i'm still in a fog about it all. my main issue now is idfk where my clothes went. no clean clothes? why bathe? house is dirty. everything is dirty. washer/dryer constantly broken. all broken all dirty.
filthy.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,875
I'm going on a little more than 2 weeks now... nowhere near my record, though.
 
extremelyugly

extremelyugly

Member
May 6, 2026
32
I can't not shower. I think I have trauma from one time I used to smell apparently 9 years ago. It was hell when I went to college because of it, and I showered everyday, so maybe it was either me sweating (because of extreme anxiety), or my clothes. Disgusting anyways, but the point is: maximum was only 48 hours.
 
Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,875
Days since last shower... reset to 0 this evening as I did a bunch of yard work and needed to shower.
 
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