What is the closest you have got?

[ab2south]

I was on a ventilator after snorting a gram of heroin and swallowing 500mg of RC Benzos

 

[Valsalva]

• Age 22: while very drunk and despondent and experimenting with partial for the first time. I was surprised by how fast I lost consciousness, didn't necessarily intend to die that night. Got close (faded vision, sound in ears, body spinning or pulsating)
  Which position did you use for partial?
• Age 23: during my brother's college graduation ceremony, I put a date in my calendar. I had already learned the knots and bought better rope and a door anchor
• Age 24: I was on a day trip for work and couldn't stop visualizing putting my shotgun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. I knew I would do it in my car and picked a nice nature preserve about 45 mins away
• Age 25: more partial practice come too close to the line. All the weird feelings... then I had a very hard time standing up and getting my balance. Wasn't sure if I'd be able to get the noose off but I did

I haven't attempted yet, just assembled my methods and made sure I knew how to use them effectively

Which position did you use for partial?

 

[nerve]

Can you tell us how it felt? The taste? Any throat or stomach pain? Did you feel nauseous?

It was salt water so it tasted pretty terrible but I was more surprised by the amount 50ml is. I had to add a little more to get everything to dissolve so it took 2 proper gulps to get it all down.

My throat burned a lot, and for longer than I expected! Gargling water helped. I've heard of people having a little piece of dark chocolate to mitigate this and that makes sense too.

This was without any fasting, but I did get nauseous and throw up. It wasn't much worse than food poisoning or a regular stomach flu. Like definitely painful but nothing extraordinary

I really can't say how similar this is to actually ingesting SN, but it sure matched up to a lot of the accounts we've heard so far.

 

[Justinian]

It was salt water so it tasted pretty terrible but I was more surprised by the amount 50ml is. I had to add a little more to get everything to dissolve so it took 2 proper gulps to get it all down.

My throat burned a lot, and for longer than I expected! Gargling water helped. I've heard of people having a little piece of dark chocolate to mitigate this and that makes sense too.

Thanks for your answer, I did try measuring 25 g of salt and 50 mL of water. It was definitely a lot of salt to dissolve in that much water!

What you said about throat burn, nausea, etc are consistent with other reports in the forum, hopefully SN won't be much worse.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

Several cowardly, half-arsed non-attempts. I drove to beachy head and I sat near the edge for a few hours before it got cold. I stood on the railing of a motorway bridge knowing that I wouldn't jump. I bought SN and metoclopramide but never did anything with them.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

One foot off a bridge, next time its 2 fucking feet! Not making that mistake again!

 

[Luchs]

To attempt or completion?

Yesterday. Me and two friends had a birthday party, because we couldn't celebrate before, due to corona. We had a lot of alcohol, I'm not really used to it and had half a bottle of 40% whisky. After the party I accompanied them to the train station and on the way there I, in my drunken stupor, didn't notice the present they got me slip out from under my arm, where I tucked it. Somehow this little moment of failure brought all of my past moments of embarassment, all of my fuck ups and everything crashing down on me. The rest of the night until I got picked up I was just emptily staring into nothingness, berating myself, being exposed to all of my pent up self hate. I was waiting for a train or truck to pass by. I was ready and determined to end it all. But no train came, so I just went home. I didn't cry, I was dead inside.

 

[Partial-Elf]

Which position did you use for partial?

On the neck, I've had the most luck with Just under the Adam's apple. Position of the body was to drop about six inches frown from standing upright. Gotta drop FAST

 

[soda_pressed]

Not very far. Tried partial but all that happened was feeling dizzy

 

[BridgeJumper]

Spending enough time in the river to get uncoscious.

 

[Kain10th]

Standing on the edge of a cliff.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Wrapping and tying a resistance band around my neck. Got lightheaded.

 

[OuijaUK]

Took what I thought would be an overdose of some anti depressants I was on, passed out and woke up having been sick.
Tried the night night method using a belt, got a pulsating headache, felt like my head was going to explode. I know I blacked out but either the belt came loose or the si kicked in, but I woke up. That was at the beginning of the year, nearly every day I still have a weird pulsing feeling in my head now

 

[Tripz7]

Closest ive gotten was with partial. Legs out front. I passed out and woke to painful convulsions. Body was shaking like being electrocuted. Took everything i had to stand up.

 

[theSuiCiDalCupCaKe]

I took as much paracetamol as I could find, which was two packs so 32. I heard that this would work quicker with alcohol so I took them with some alcohol used to do shots. I passed out on my bed (probs from the intoxication) and woke up to my sister having found me a few hours later.
Anyways I didn't get very close, the doctor said it would be a long painful death, and would've taken around 3 days to be successful. I didn't really do the research properly, it was one of those impulsive decisions to OD.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Hm....I dont think I ever have
I have certainly planned out what I would do/want to do, but I have never had the guts to actually do it

Oh wait, there was that oe time I was 17

I had just gotten some time away from my abusive mom. I was at the beach with my aunt who openly berated me for wearing an underwear under my beach suit. From here, we went into the water and intentionally tried to run into the water to drown myself since I couldn't swim. Sometimes I wish I succeeded