clicktokill
swan
- Nov 14, 2023
- 20
what will happen to my secrets when i die i lie a lot it's rlly bad but im always thinking about how the truth would come out when i die
How godforsakenly ugly and unfortunate looking I am of a woman. It's destroyed every aspect of the rest of my life so that I have none. I live in crippling disgust and conscious awareness of my horrible physical form, trapped beneath thoughts of how inferior I really am.
thedevilwithin
anima vestra
- Oct 4, 2023
- 149
this one hit me deep. i just want to say i'm sorry. i'm hideous myself. i know no woman would ever be with me and i don't blame them. it hurts.. really fucking bad, but what can i do?
iam decent looking but i still have nobody as well.. doesnt matter if you got the good looks here this place is dark and evil and twisted
Slow_Farewell
Warlock
- Dec 19, 2023
- 710
I'm constantly thinking of the mistake the forces me to ctb. Also I am wondering about the experience of dying, what will I feel/experience when I am unconscious. Will there be pain although my method is supposed to be painless? What will it feel like when my brains is slowly dying and the neurons are firing.
I can relate to that. The truth about me should never come out.
FailerQt.
Crazy bish
- Mar 17, 2023
- 87
I think so much about the man that I love. 8 years ago I could have chosen differently and we could have been together. I was a coward, and I walked away and ended up marrying someone else and having kids with him.
My life on paper is totally good and my kids are wonderful. My husband is also an amazing man and human. But I carry this regret and this pain and shame and I feel like an absolute fucking loser that I am in my early thirties and still not over someone, and that I know that this causes my husband pain. I don't even know what my ex represents for me anymore but I haven't stopped regretting it.
My life on paper is totally good and my kids are wonderful. My husband is also an amazing man and human. But I carry this regret and this pain and shame and I feel like an absolute fucking loser that I am in my early thirties and still not over someone, and that I know that this causes my husband pain. I don't even know what my ex represents for me anymore but I haven't stopped regretting it.
new2blue
Student
- Dec 11, 2023
- 115
Her. My family. Death. The world is shrinking to me. I do not care about movies, entertainment, world wonders, politics, the weather, a career. I am ready to rest. So, all that matters to me is enjoying as much of her as possible. Seeing my family busy themselves with living, spending time with them. But always and unflinchingly, it always comes back to wanting to rest forever.
enslavedinbody
beggar
- Dec 16, 2023
- 7
most of the time i could just be mindlessly thinking of ways to cbt with random items around me and what the reactions of the people im around me would be like (if there are any)
How much of a failure I am. How I seemed to have everything to succeed and yet I screwed up so badly that no matter what I do now there is no way to salvage it. I also compare myself with others around me all the time and think how they were able to achieve the things they have and I didn't, whether because they had an unfair advantage or leg-up in comparison or because they worked harder than me to achieve what they want. Anyway it always makes me feel like shit and regret all I've done so far, and making me realise that ctb is the only way to "fix" things as they are now beyond repair.
AInilam
Student
- Dec 17, 2023
- 173
IWishToDie
I check notifications once per week
- Dec 31, 2023
- 480
Yes, me too. Sometimes I try to think I don't want it to end like this. But that's as far as I get.
I feel your words.
Tokugawa_Yoshinobu
Arcanist
- Sep 10, 2023
- 424
