Baby don't hurt me don't hurt me no more 
Joked aside as I'm approaching my time contemplating I have never know love I was brought to this earth by a mistake nobody in my family knew what to do with me as my real dad tried to kill my mom and she wanted to party more as a young mom so I was often tossed around without parents so I knew I was brought up by obligation and with my grandma passing who actually loved me my family show thier ugly side then comes my love life I was a troubled preteen who loved someone much older than me(basically pedo)but she took advantage of that and when I met her again much later in life recently she told me she never loved me that tore me apart she was keeping me sane and at that point I genuinely felt happy but after the breakup I just couldn't feel genuine joy/happiness anymore got betrayed by a close friend for almost a decade over money so honestly I'm left with nothing
Joked aside as I'm approaching my time contemplating I have never know love I was brought to this earth by a mistake nobody in my family knew what to do with me as my real dad tried to kill my mom and she wanted to party more as a young mom so I was often tossed around without parents so I knew I was brought up by obligation and with my grandma passing who actually loved me my family show thier ugly side then comes my love life I was a troubled preteen who loved someone much older than me(basically pedo)but she took advantage of that and when I met her again much later in life recently she told me she never loved me that tore me apart she was keeping me sane and at that point I genuinely felt happy but after the breakup I just couldn't feel genuine joy/happiness anymore got betrayed by a close friend for almost a decade over money so honestly I'm left with nothing
