What I wish…

[emgrl]

I wish I could have people with me while I CTB. Not in a morbid way. Almost like a little farewell party, where everyone knows what will happen, so no one would intervene. I wouldn't feel scared, nor alone. I feel like SI would be lowered, too. I just really wish all of this wasn't so hard…

 

[lionetta12]

I wish I could have people with me while I CTB. Not in a morbid way. Almost like a little farewell party, where everyone knows what will happen, so no one would intervene. I wouldn't feel scared, nor alone. I feel like SI would be lowered, too. I just really wish all of this wasn't so hard…

I've really wished for this too. It feels sad and unfair that people who are able access euthanasia, get to have their good bye parties and family and friends around to support them before and during the CTB. While if someone suicidal without access to euthanasia wants the same, you're looked upon as crazy and will be hospitalized if you even mention this wish.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I agree. Even if we are able to access quality methods , being able to do it openly and in the presence of loved ones as is done with accepted euthanasia would be a dream.

 

[emgrl]

I've really wished for this too. It feels sad and unfair that people who are able access euthanasia, get to have their good bye parties and family and friends around to support them before and during the CTB. While if someone suicidal without access to euthanasia wants the same, you're looked upon as crazy and will be hospitalized if you even mention this wish.

Exactly… I just don't think anyone should have to struggle. It's unfair for anyone to ask someone to live such a life for their own, selfish reasons. I know for myself, nothing is going to get better. No amount of medication nor therapy will help me. I wish to CTB in peace, that seems like the most difficult thing to do at this point.

I agree. Even if we are able to access quality metgods , being able to do it openly and in the presence of loved ones as is done with accepted euthanasia would be a dream.

Right? It would be so much easier if ending your own life wasn't so stigmatized.

 

[Rounded Agony]

I'm seeing this more and more as I spend time on this site, and it worries me that it'll be a problem. I had recently revamped my plan to be executed (what a turn of phrase, ha) in the middle of nowhere or at least alone as, given my situation and access to methods, it would be easiest. But now I'm not sure I'd be able to pull it off. I'm already fiercely alone so the idea of that condition being my final one doesn't sit well. Ugh.

Funny, thinking more about it, I wonder for how many others just having compassionate company would assuage the desire to exit. When I imagine being surrounded by good company (though at this point I don't even know who that would be), I imagine myself with the will to live a little longer out of more than just sheer biological drive and fear of dying.

How sad our world can be.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. I wish that we lived in a world where suicide is not so stigmatised and we can be open about our wishes to die and have our decision respected and then just be able to exit peacefully. Suicidal people have already suffered enough so they shouldnt have to worry about someone potentially interfering with their method plans. Suicide should be accepted in society, as after all we will all die eventually someday so I see nothing wrong with someone deciding to exit when the time is right for them, rather than it being out of their control.