What holds you here?

[Z-A]

What the title says.

I'm personally scared of all the available methods to me as of currently. Hence why I'm still here. I just keep hoping that I'll die young, by an accident or natural causes. But I also don't want to keep growing older and decay till old age where suffering will become even worse.

If I had access to buy a gun or drugs like pentobarbital (N), I would've committed already. Unfortunately, lack of peaceful methods keeps me trapped in this torturous cycle.

 

[Unknown21]

SI

 

[falling_snow]

I still have my beloved little sister(14F). At leat she has our dog, she will be great company. But I'm very afraid of leaving her with my parents. I feel like I have to protect her, she doesn't understand or is able to fight back against my parents. She's still a teenager. I don't want to ruin her teens because of me.

Also, I can't get most methods for now, but anyways, I'm not looking to ctb anytime soon, at least not this year.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that there isn't the option to die in a peaceful, guaranteed way, and as well as that I'd also fear trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering as a result. I'm tired of this hellish pro-suffering world where we cannot just die in peace, I despise how suicide is pretty much illegal even know existence is completely undesirable in every way possible, it's evil to me how there is the absence of peaceful, guaranteed ways to die for all.

 

[Malaria]

All of the above.

 

[$crim]

my fiance and pets. hes told me that if i ever pass on he'll go on a downward spiral and eventually die as well, so for both of our sake im trying my best

 

[divinemistress36]

What the title says.

I'm personally scared of all the available methods to me as of currently. Hence why I'm still here. I just keep hoping that I'll die young, by an accident or natural causes. But I also don't want to keep growing older and decay till old age where suffering will become even worse.

If I had access to buy a gun or drugs like pentobarbital (N), I would've committed already. Unfortunately, lack of peaceful methods keeps me trapped in this torturous cycle.

I feel this so much

 

[theboy]

family, not to defeat the SI and the method

 

[Rev346]

Kids. Apparently CTB can really mess them up and I'm the family breadwinner.

 

[sserafim]

SI, no peaceful methods, and fear, risk and consequences of failure. I would hate to fail and be left with permanent damage

 

[Bannana]

I promised I would stay for him, and he would stay for me
We broke up a few months ago now but I can't bear to die and make him think it is his fault
He can never know
I don;t want to hurt him

 

[Dliena]

SI and family in my case.

 

[UKscotty]

SI mostly.

I am very lucky that here in the UK we have access to all peaceful methods, except guns but I'm sure someone could even get one how out of control gun crime is.

 

[unabletocope]

Trying to figure it out

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

What the title says.

I'm personally scared of all the available methods to me as of currently. Hence why I'm still here. I just keep hoping that I'll die young, by an accident or natural causes. But I also don't want to keep growing older and decay till old age where suffering will become even worse.

If I had access to buy a gun or drugs like pentobarbital (N), I would've committed already. Unfortunately, lack of peaceful methods keeps me trapped in this torturous cycle.

The absence of a peaceful and reliable method is what holds me here. All available methods feel like gambles. And they are the sort of gamble that if you mess up you end up in a worse position than you're already in. That's why I want to join Exit when I'm 50. I'm hoping that having in person discussion and observations will help me feel more confident in effecting my death.

If I had Nembutal I'd take it. If I could drive I'd hire a very old car and a garage and try and do it that way. But I don't….and everything else just seems dodgy. I don't want to get it wrong. Living in a vegetive state scares me more than this current life I already endure.

 

[deathslament]

not having a peaceful method

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Loved ones, fear of failure, SI, there's still hope left.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

My cats mostly

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No peaceful methods as well as SI as well as me just reacting extremely to the smallest amount of stress and pressure. I don't have any hobbies and I don't care about the impact that my death would have on others

 

[Hotsackage]

Have niece same age, so I get you

 

[Uninfluential_Karma]

Nothing really but I'm scared of the consequences of failing to CTB.

 

[Aether333]

Kids. I don't want to mess them up with this so I'm trying to hang on for as long as I can. The days when it's really bleak I'm afraid I'll do it at the wrong time. But still hoping for a natural disaster or accident to happen.

 

[Manfrotto99]

SI and nothing else, pathetic excuse really

 

[Imagined_Euphoria]

Currently its that I can finally communicate with some like-minded people here, never had that opportunity before.

But besides that? I don't even know why I'm still alive tbh.