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xXSarac3nSlay3rXx

xXSarac3nSlay3rXx

“Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.”
Mar 3, 2019
248
Has anybody tried shrooms? Apparently scientists themself regard them as effective.
I'd like to try them. Problem is, I live in the US, so they're illegal. I don't have any hookups from which to obtain them illegally either: fuck me.
-tried exercising

-tried talking to a shrink

-tried talking with close friends and parents

-tried taking meds (abilify, seroquel, lamictal, etc.)

-tried legal recreational drugs (kratom, DXM)

-looking to try ctb; they say that'll solve my problems for an eternity
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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May 31, 2018
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-looking to try ctb; they say that'll solve my problems for an eternity

Love this! Infinitely better than the tired, vapid, "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."
 
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Nifi

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Mar 7, 2019
32
Reading carl jung helped me to see more value in life (still felt suicidal at times but it was bearable). Went to a therapist and she send me to a doc and he put me on sertraline. Now i'm basically lobotomized and castrated (PSSD). So yeah i've tried some things but now i'm already killed by an antidepressant.
 
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GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
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Hi, ( if there is already a thread about this same exact subject, please redirect me )

what have you tried ? and why do you think you failed?

In my case, I have read tons and tons of eastern philosophical books (Lao tzu, Buddha, osho) and western too ( diogenes the dog, Nietzsche) and some religious books (sufism in islam) and some philosophical poetry also.

I tried meditation, yoga, antidepressants, aromatherapy, therapeutic art. I went to therapy for about a year.

I tried positive thinking/focus to create my reality (it was 5 years ago, when I was stupid) (it's not that I think it's impossible to change my reality, it's just that I no longer wish for anything at all since everything comes back to the same thing… me)

I did find a lot of answer by reading all these books and trying all these things, but more than anything, they made me realize how absurd this society is, in fact it left me even more suicidal.
I know something you haven't tried yet that I have tried and benefited me quite a bit, psychedelics. You can buy them from Dream Marketplace with bitcoins. Personally I recommend 2C-B and 4-aco-dmt. But shrooms and LSD can be just as good. Do you know anything about psychedelics?
 
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AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
Tried to work things with my wife, but it was too late. I tried being living and it kinda seem pointless
 
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Aug 15, 2018
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Hi, ( if there is already a thread about this same exact subject, please redirect me )

what have you tried ? and why do you think you failed?

In my case, I have read tons and tons of eastern philosophical books (Lao tzu, Buddha, osho) and western too ( diogenes the dog, Nietzsche) and some religious books (sufism in islam) and some philosophical poetry also.

I tried meditation, yoga, antidepressants, aromatherapy, therapeutic art. I went to therapy for about a year.

I tried positive thinking/focus to create my reality (it was 5 years ago, when I was stupid) (it's not that I think it's impossible to change my reality, it's just that I no longer wish for anything at all since everything comes back to the same thing… me)

I did find a lot of answer by reading all these books and trying all these things, but more than anything, they made me realize how absurd this society is, in fact it left me even more suicidal.
A lawyer...
 
sunny cat

sunny cat

punpun feels just fine today
Feb 27, 2019
15
tried therapy, which helped a little but now i can't see my therapist anymore. been on wellbutrin and lexapro for two years now, which kept me from developing full-blown agoraphobia but that isn't working at all for me now. tried self medicating with various drugs, which helped a lot sometimes but life made those revelations and positive outlooks pointless.

really feels like there's nothing i can do that won't just be made void eventually. life sucks
 
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Psilo

Arcanist
Dec 29, 2018
482
I'd like to try them. Problem is, I live in the US, so they're illegal. I don't have any hookups from which to obtain them illegally either: fuck me.
Have considered trying to find some in the wild? It depends where exactly your from in the states but I know the world most potent psychoactive mushroom (Ps. Azurescens) grows abundantly in the North West of the states.

You guys in the states are so lucky!!!
Where I live their also illegal.

Magic shrooms grow almost all over the world, you just have to know how to find them.
 
xXSarac3nSlay3rXx

xXSarac3nSlay3rXx

“Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.”
Mar 3, 2019
248
I live on the east coast of the US. I don't know, maybe I ought to try foraging.
 
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PeacePlease

PeacePlease

A wandering body without a heart
Feb 26, 2019
49
are you talking about illegal drug or medication?

if it's medication, this is really scary. I hear so many people saying that they life has been destroyed because of anxiety/depression medications and this makes me really angry. If this is true, then pharmacies are making money off of our suffering while being aware of the dangers
My brain was destroyed by antidepressants
 
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Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
I always was a suicide and I recently caused a depressive event in my life. So first I looked a therapist but she was totally resilient in talk about suicide so I start to be here. I read a book about meditation and buddhism too.