What haunts you??

[StarDust]

What brought you to this point in your life?

We all have ghost and memories that keeps us up at night (especially me) some of you know why. What there a moment time time that just made you fall? Or a series of events? Or a choice that haunts you still? Share if you like.

 

[GoneSeptember2018]

A choice I made in 2016 that fucked up everything. Losing my best mates and ex.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

not have sex with this uber hot marine back when i was navy pre transition

 

[Mr2004]

It goes all the way back to the year of my username

 

[wezel]

One decision a number of years ago, from then on continually downwards despite never giving up to get back on track.

 

[Miss clefable]

The past the present and the future

 

[Tiburcio]

This is absolutely not my fault.

 

[mattwitt]

I quit my last job back in Nov 2017. I worked there for just about 11 years and I seriously suffer from PTSD from that place. It's like everyday all day long I can't stop thinking about that place, the people, and all the crap I had to put up with. I'm burned out physically, mentally, and emotionally like beyond repair !

 

[FadedMemory]

The entire period of high school, but I really effed up in june this year and lost everything and everyone in a month.

 

[stellabelle]

Rape, unfortunately.

 

[SamK]

rape here too

 

[Final Escape]

My many abortions and basically traumatizing the shit out of myself. It's difficult to talk about all of it. I think about my years and years in the strip club. I think about my disaster relationships and how I feel like my life passed me by but I failed to create an acceptable life. I mean like where I'm not stupidly suffering, because the problems just compounded over time.

 

[Kyrok]

Mistakes I made: the most recent being a very public fit of anger that will forever injur my career.

 

[SiArc]

To not sound cliché but my mother. Some health issues that did not actually prevent me from doing my dream job but the titles of the surgeries did, a rape, my absolute anxiety and depression, not ever even partially fitting, and the weirdest of them all: my brother not succeeding...

 

[lost illusions]

Not being able to understand my past and failure to learn from it

 

[15dec]

All the pain and problems I cause, my suicide will be less painful than me being here for decades to come

 

[Johnnythefox]

A wide range of events spanning my lifetime, missed opportunities owing to anxiety, abuse, betrayal, lies, depression, possibly undiagnosed autism. The feeling I'm past my best before date, and probably a lot more that I can't be bothered to type.

The ghost from my childhood is particularly gruesome, he likes to creep up on me when I least expect it and beat me down.
The marriage ghost is just as bad, he chases me around the room screeching what should have been, but how I'm too fucked up to even have got that right.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

A lifetime of wrong decisions, regrets and flashbacks to my abusive past.

 

[Smilla]

A lifetime of wrong decisions, regrets and flashbacks to my abusive past.

This.

 

[Smilla]

To not sound cliché but my mother. Some health issues that did not actually prevent me from doing my dream job but the titles of the surgeries did, a rape, my absolute anxiety and depression, not ever even partially fitting, and the weirdest of them all: my brother not succeeding...

Your brother not succeeding, in suicide? Sorry, I'm not trying to be daft, just want to clarify.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

My past in general and the realization of that nothing is going to ever change for the better.

 

[Aesthler]

Just overall feeling worthless and like I'm a burden and that is like to change things for the better but it feels impossible sometimes.

 

[Jen Erik]

Childhood trauma caused primarily by harmful, neglectful parenting.

But, really, perhaps I was predestined to ctb: I was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck.

 

[LoNatural]

Nihilism, anhedonia, laziness, depression, lack of sex

 

[SiArc]

Your brother not succeeding, in suicide? Sorry, I'm not trying to be daft, just want to clarify.

No, him not succeeding in life. He has so much potential but my mother has him wound so tightly around her finger. I feel responsible though I know I am not for him never getting out there. Me taking and doing the things he should have first. Like I said, weird and hard to explain.

 

[Jane Doe]

My husband. Literally.

 

[Smilla]

No, him not succeeding in life. He has so much potential but my mother has him wound so tightly around her finger. I feel responsible though I know I am not for him never getting out there. Me taking and doing the things he should have first. Like I said, weird and hard to explain.

I don't think it's weird to be sad for a sibling—they after all are our closest relatives and to witness their pain is difficult at best.

 

[Redt2go]

My past

 

[Hunter]

The voices of people I know who ctb

The people who told me I wasn't good enough

The people who left me to die and said I deserved it

2017

A lot of shit

 

[Dead Meat]

LIFE