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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,452
Pretty much everything? Hope that's not asking too much . Well if it wasn't I wouldn't be here, would I?
 
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Theman

Student
Mar 15, 2020
160
I want to find true love and improve my health
 
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rebelsue

Hope Addict
Dec 12, 2019
172
I would have to change, but it's been almost a couple of decades, with its 'ups' and downs. I know I won't change. I can't get a job, I can't have stable relationships with anyone, I'm selfish, arrogant, insecure, a bipolar shitshow.

I'm just tired of being me.
My reason, as well.
 
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Genetics

Genetics

Member
Apr 8, 2020
92
I believe (almost) every person wants to cbt because they have some kind of problem in their life. I dont believe people want to die, we simply dont want to live the life we are living. We are not build to die.

let me go first. I want to die because I am about to lose mine house and I will be put in huge debt and be homeless. This is too much for me. I cant see a way out. I have still a chance to win a lawsuit that prevents it. For me, this will solve not to cbt.

You think there is a solution for you? You can share any crazy solution.

Maybe this is a stupid post, idk.
Nothing. For me it's not like that. I am ready to die, I don't want to die, I'm just ready now. I'm finished doing what I need to do. So then the question isn't to live or not but it's becomes under who's control do I die. Do I wait it out and as my husband loves to say "try to live as long as you possibly can no matter what" and die like my mom? Wasted away, difficulty breathing? Do I take control of the last bastion of control I can take? I prefer to finish up on my terms. Maybe that will change, who knows. If so, it's probably because I've found something else that needs doing first. I've got time, I've waited this long.
 
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Smashingairwaves

Smashingairwaves

misery factory
Nov 15, 2018
193
I need money to fix all my health problems.

Also because I'm tired of being poor
 
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itsamadworld

itsamadworld

i wanna die somewhere like up there
Mar 15, 2020
410
I need a break before I break...I'm just so tired of the system...and people...I just don't want to take care of anyone or anything...I wanna be outside, in the woods...I need peace....I am so glad for this Covid 19 crap!! I just want it all to stop...yet both my jobs im needed....I wish my industry would have closed !....I want the system to completely crash! I am sick of the overwhelming of the modern world!
 
Shinbu

Shinbu

Shiki
Nov 23, 2019
478
If i'm given a different reality to live in where we never age past our prime, and we never get hungry, also without diseases, and viruses. The only death that's possible in this reality would be a painless one, and we can live indefinitely if we want. None of this isn't even possible. So in short nothing can change my mind.
 
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angel_like_demon

angel_like_demon

Be gay. Do crimes.
Mar 31, 2020
16
Only if I get a time machine, but that's impossible, at least right now...
 
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billyoudont

billyoudont

New Member
Feb 19, 2020
4
I would need to find something (or someone) to give me fulfillment - a light to brighten the dark, dreary tunnel of my life in the foreseeable future
 
Tiktok

Tiktok

Member
Feb 21, 2020
30
I have to have good friends, a stable job, a good relationship
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
The past, the present and my entire future.
 
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thewhitedove29

thewhitedove29

Member
Apr 1, 2020
10
getting financially stable, which i had an actual shot at.
and getting back together with my ex, which there is a tiny chance of but there's so much shit going on right now.
those are the two.
 

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