Story what happens if you take 40g of paracetamol - Story

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October 11th 2022 - That was the day I took 40g of paracetamol (40x 1g pills)
Info: I was 173cm/5 feet 8 inches and 50kg/110lbs

But first of all: I want you to tell to NOT ctb with this method. I it extremely painful and not fast
(But if you have been informing you for a while about good and bad methods you probably know this)
I already knew it is extremely painful but didn't care cuz "I deserve torture" and "It won't be that bad" ... yeah... in fact... it was more than just bad


On 10/11/22 6pm I took 40g of paracetamol. (I planned to take 60g paracetamol, 60g Ibuprofen and 40g Aspirin - don't ask why I was so stupid)
after the first 10 pills (10g) I already felt uncomfortable. (I took all the pills at the same time btw). But I continued. When I took 40g, I was feeling very unwell and nauseous and had to stop cuz I didn't want to vomit and everything was just wasted time.
Then I tried to distract me and played video games. But I still wasn't feeling well.
After max. 30mins I needed to lay down and tried to sleep. Next thing I can remember is vomiting several times over night. I can't describe that feeling but it was wayyyyy worse than everything I've ever experienced. Believe me, I've been through extremely bad things (physically and mentally pain etc.) If you haven't experienced it yourself, you can't even imagine a little bit how it felt. But since I desperately wannted to die I tried to swallow as much of my vomit as I can so I don't loose my progress and survive. But there was still much vomit on the floor and my bed. It was like white fluid or smth. Then I remeber laying in bed next day at 9am with the worst pain I've ever felt (Thats when I saw my vomit).
It was almost impossible for me to walk. I managed to do a few steps to get outside of the house and the ambulance was called. (15h after I took the pills)
I was rushed to the hospital (in Schwerin - a town in Germany) but I don't remember that. They placed a central venous catheter (CVC, or zentraler Venenkatheter-ZVK in german).
"A central venous catheter is a thin, flexible tube that is inserted into a vein, usually below the right collarbone, and guided (threaded) into a large vein above the right side of the heart called the superior vena cava. It is used to give intravenous fluids, blood transfusions, chemotherapy, and other drugs." - google. The last thing I know about this day is that I was flown to a better hospital (in Hanover - also in Germany) at 12am in a helicopter (15h or smth after I came into the hospital) and vomited again while we were flying. Idk what happend between that time

The first week after my attempt I spend in the intensive care unit (ICU) in Hanover since in the first week the doctors didn't know if I would survive, need a liver transplant or have orangan (especialy brain) damage.
I don't know much about the time there but I still remeber a few things.
I was in very severe pain. I couldn't move much. I was only able to change from left to right when I'm lying but it was very hard. When the doctors held me so I wouldn't fall back while sitting, I felt very dizzy and not good. But they needed to do that to wash me a little bit cuz I was far away from doing it myself obviously.
They also did something to "wash my blood" every day via CVC. The doctors showed me what the blood looked like that was in my body - It was a dark brown to black fluid. The doctors also said something about liver values of 9000. I think they meant the AST and ALT values or smth.

context: If liver enzyme levels are extremely high (e.g., AST and ALT above 10,000 U/L), it indicates massive cell death.
Normal values for these enzymes are approximately 10–50 U/L.
ALT and AST are enzymes released from liver cells into the bloodstream when they are damaged or destroyed. Levels in the thousands suggest that a significant portion of liver cells has been destroyed.

They said if my values increase even slightly, it's over. But for some reason they stopped rising when they were at the highest limit. But they didn't go down either. They also didn't know how I was able to survive this. But I unfortunately did. Apparently I was almost about to die but it didn't feel like that.

Thats all I can say about the first week after the attempt. I really don't know much about that time.
The next 2 weeks I spend in the hospital in Schwerin in the ICU. I remember a lot of cables on/in my body. Especially the ones leading in my CVC. I can't imagine what I was looking like in Hanover lol. And there were so much things on that pole thing that were flowing in my body.
In the last days I got a little physiotherapy so I can walk a little bit after 3 weeks of just lying. And then they allowed me to shower for the first time!! That was so good but also sooo exhausting. I had to take multiple breaks and sit down. But at least I could wash my hair after 2 weeks. They haven't had the opportunity to wash my hair in Schwerin unfortunately but at least in Hanover they could wash my hair.

After a total of 3 weeks in the ICU i was sent to a psychiatry obviously...
The psychiatry was right next to that hospital so I was brought there in a wheelchair cuz walking was still very exhausting.
I also had to be careful since my organs haven't fully recovered and they regulary examined my blood values.

I noticed that sometimes out of the blue I couldn't think or talk anymore. I wasn't able to form words or sentences for max. half a minute.
That happend a few times a day 4 weeks after the attempt. But now 2 years later, I have it like max. 2 times a month. Most time even less. And it is much less severe than back then.


I managed to get out after just a few months at least... So I could start working on ctb methods again.
And I swore to myself that the next time will be the last. I practised more and informed me much more since then.
Thankfully I found this site from reddit and I am so happy to finally talk to people who are pro choice and don't judge you!!
Thank you so much!
Please don't hesitate to ask me if you have questions.
love u <3


Sorry for my lack of english vocab and repeating words too much maybe. Hope it is still easy to read :)

 

[kitia973]

I od'ed on 20g paracetamol before; not a pleasant experience. I hope things are better for you now.

 

[neenie]

omg that was so painful to read I'm not gonna lie.... I hope you're feeling better now! May I ask what method you want to use to try to catch the bus a second time?

 

[ThatRussianDude]

But there is an antidote - acetylcyateine.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful to me, I find it so cruel how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[maniac116]

That's a really bad idea!!
Liver damage is nothing to play with.
OD on anything is terribly unreliable & high chance of damage & further suffering.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I have overdosed on 50g and I'm ok now. Had stomach issues for years afterwards though (severe pain when drinking acidic drinks such as spirited alcohol drinks etc). I had the antidote though.

I have overdosed on painkillers many times, mainly paracetamol, but I haven't for over a decade, because I learned my lesson. I'm surprised my liver and other organs are perfect.

I was in excruciating pain, I could barely move. Each time I threw up it felt like my insides were on fire, and I couldn't drink water. The sheer agony was un fucking real, and there was absolutely nothing anyone could do, except hope the antidote worked, and of course, it did.

I couldn't take any form of medication for a long time afterwards, because anything in tablet form reminded me of it, and it would cause pain and make me gag.

My liver has taken a huge battering with all these pills, and luckily I am in perfect health.

Painkillers don't tend to work to kill yourself with, they tend to mess your organs up first. And it's an excruciating pain, as you know. Definitely not worth it. Glad there's no damage

In the UK they won't give you a transplant if you have a history of this or if the reason you need it is because you did that, understandably, because you may try it again.

Those that have overdosed on painkillers tend to die a long time later, because of organ failure, and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do for them, and they always regret it, because things have improved at that point. There's plenty out there - in the UK at least.

Many on here ask about paracetamol overdoses and I try to find them all, and explain what will happen if they attempt it, but unfortunately it is asked way too often and I can't respond to every single one.

Glad you're ok now

 

[heyy]

I od'ed on 20g paracetamol before; not a pleasant experience. I hope things are better for you now.

tysm <3
I hope the same for you!

omg that was so painful to read I'm not gonna lie.... I hope you're feeling better now! May I ask what method you want to use to try to catch the bus a second time?

well... it's not the second time I will try. Even before 2022 I tried some things.

But for the final time I am thinking of a gas that prevents u from having enough O2 but also you don't feel like you are suffocating. Like Helium or Carbon monoxide or smth. But I also am thinking of the night night or partial hanging method cuz I already have a rope and it is way to unrealistic for me to go out of the house to get that gas. Unfortunately I can't buy it online either cuz someone will noitce :/

I have overdosed on 50g and I'm ok now. Had stomach issues for years afterwards though (severe pain when drinking acidic drinks such as spirited alcohol drinks etc). I had the antidote though.

I have overdosed on painkillers many times, mainly paracetamol, but I haven't for over a decade, because I learned my lesson. I'm surprised my liver and other organs are perfect.

I was in excruciating pain, I could barely move. Each time I threw up it felt like my insides were on fire, and I couldn't drink water. The sheer agony was un fucking real, and there was absolutely nothing anyone could do, except hope the antidote worked, and of course, it did.

I couldn't take any form of medication for a long time afterwards, because anything in tablet form reminded me of it, and it would cause pain and make me gag.

My liver has taken a huge battering with all these pills, and luckily I am in perfect health.

Painkillers don't tend to work to kill yourself with, they tend to mess your organs up first. And it's an excruciating pain, as you know. Definitely not worth it. Glad there's no damage

In the UK they won't give you a transplant if you have a history of this or if the reason you need it is because you did that, understandably, because you may try it again.

Those that have overdosed on painkillers tend to die a long time later, because of organ failure, and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do for them, and they always regret it, because things have improved at that point. There's plenty out there - in the UK at least.

Many on here ask about paracetamol overdoses and I try to find them all, and explain what will happen if they attempt it, but unfortunately it is asked way too often and I can't respond to every single one.

Glad you're ok now

Oh yeah that describes it very well!
That makes me remember how I always threw up in the ICU when I had to take so much meds by mouth. I had to take them several times cuz I vomited every time.
This was soooo painfull and disgusting.

ly <3

That's a really bad idea!!
Liver damage is nothing to play with.
OD on anything is terribly unreliable & high chance of damage & further suffering.

Yes!
You are absolutely right! I really do not recommend it.
That's why I wannted to share a part of that story

<3

 

[sunsetting]

Holy shit that sounds horrible. Most I had of it was 6 pills at once and it was just me trying to alleviate a migraine and I was dizzy for hours (heard some people get high on paracetamol just for the sensation) and I'm never using it as a painkiller again. I'm glad you're feeling better not

 

[NeverHis]

As someone who has been down a similar route, it really isn't pleasant. I'm glad you managed to get away from it mostly unharmed, not everyone is that lucky, and they need dialysis for the rest of their life, which sadly will be longer than they thought,.

But sadly, this is what people try, when there's no safe way out like in Switzerland or BeNeLux.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

As someone who has been down a similar route, it really isn't pleasant. I'm glad you managed to get away from it mostly unharmed, not everyone is that lucky, and they need dialysis for the rest of their life, which sadly will be longer than they thought,.

But sadly, this is what people try, when there's no safe way out like in Switzerland or BeNeLux.

Messed up isn't it. Especially when it's 16p a box. Wtf. Well, it was when I was regularly overdosing on it as a young lass 12 years ago. Not sure what it costs now. 16p for a poison. Personally, I think it should be banned. It's so dangerous and it's easily done..

I am gagging - I still have the psychological issue when speaking about/thinking about paracetamol. I guess that'll never go.

 

[Romanticize]

That's a really bad idea!!
Liver damage is nothing to play with.
OD on anything is terribly unreliable & high chance of damage & further suffering.

No, I have to disagree strongly. ODing on CNS depressants like N (barbiturates) or opioids (fentanyl, heroin, morphine, oxycodone) especially with benzodiazepines mixed in, are the most peaceful and entirely painless methods.

However, ODing got bad reputation because people do it without much thought or on wrong substances. Every other substance is very bad, paracetamol is one of the worst. When i saw the topic title, I already knew how horrible that must've been.
Thank you OP for your report, and no, no one "deserves to suffer".

 

[maniac116]

No, I have to disagree strongly. ODing on CNS depressants like N (barbiturates) or opioids (fentanyl, heroin, morphine, oxycodone) especially with benzodiazepines mixed in, are the most peaceful and entirely painless methods.

However, ODing got bad reputation because people do it without much thought or on wrong substances. Every other substance is very bad, paracetamol is one of the worst. When i saw the topic title, I already knew how horrible that must've been.
Thank you OP for your report, and no, no one "deserves to suffer".

Paracetamol is not a CNS depressant though.
Its an over the counter pain med that is also a liver toxin.
OTC drugs have a miserably low success rate, between 2-6%.

 

[Romanticize]

Paracetamol is not a CNS depressant though.
Its an over the counter pain med that is also a liver toxin.
OTC drugs have a miserably low success rate, between 2-6%.

yes, exactly!! This is why I don't like when someone refers to "OD" in general. Because people try OD without proper research, on bad substance and bad dosage. Without synergy effect of mixing the drugs.

OD on one substance is completely different than OD on other.

This should only be attempted with cns depressants. Any other class, like cardiac medications, antidepressants, anticholinergics, etc. is a bad idea.

And paracetamol is a terrible idea. There is a reason those drugs are OTC. One should never attempt a Ctb unless he has a source to the strongest opioids.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

tysm <3
I hope the same for you!

well... it's not the second time I will try. Even before 2022 I tried some things.

But for the final time I am thinking of a gas that prevents u from having enough O2 but also you don't feel like you are suffocating. Like Helium or Carbon monoxide or smth. But I also am thinking of the night night or partial hanging method cuz I already have a rope and it is way to unrealistic for me to go out of the house to get that gas. Unfortunately I can't buy it online either cuz someone will noitce :/

Oh yeah that describes it very well!
That makes me remember how I always threw up in the ICU when I had to take so much meds by mouth. I had to take them several times cuz I vomited every time.
This was soooo painfull and disgusting.

ly <3

Yes!
You are absolutely right! I really do not recommend it.
That's why I wannted to share a part of that story

<3

Isn't it strange how certain attempts stay with you for life. I forget sometimes about this, until I see these posts, then I start to gag LOL. Hey, at least we can tell others to prevent them from making the same mistake, right? Got to look at it like that a bit, but it's still very new for you, it's only been two years for you! That's not long.

Hope you're doing ok today at least

 

[maniac116]

yes, exactly!! This is why I don't like when someone refers to "OD" in general. Because people try OD without proper research, on bad substance and bad dosage. Without synergy effect of mixing the drugs.

OD on one substance is completely different than OD on other.

This should only be attempted with cns depressants. Any other class, like cardiac medications, antidepressants, anticholinergics, etc. is a bad idea.

And paracetamol is a terrible idea. There is a reason those drugs are OTC. One should never attempt a Ctb unless he has a source to the strongest opioids.

Sorry, I misunderstood what you were saying.
I agree

 

[heyy]

Isn't it strange how certain attempts stay with you for life. I forget sometimes about this, until I see these posts, then I start to gag LOL. Hey, at least we can tell others to prevent them from making the same mistake, right? Got to look at it like that a bit, but it's still very new for you, it's only been two years for you! That's not long.

Hope you're doing ok today at least

yeah I have the hope that these "symptoms" are only temporary and not permanent. But they don't bother me anyway so it's fine
<3 :)