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awayoutn

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May 18, 2022
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Hi, so exactly happens after taking SN, I know heart rate increase, oxygen level decreases. But because of lack of oxygen , do you pass out first? Is there a possibility of getting a heart attack from lack of oxygen before passing out ? Also I hear blood thickens like mud, so could heart attack occur from thick blood not moving easily Thru heart? Mentally knowing everything I think we'll help me stay calm
 
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absolute

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May 7, 2022
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I believe it robs your blood of oxygen and you fall asleep. But I am no expert Just what i think.
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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This is what I'm worried the most about
 
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NothingElseMatters

NothingElseMatters

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Mar 30, 2020
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you get dizzy, sleepy, fall asleep then die
 
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YourNeighbor

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Jul 22, 2021
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By many accounts here, you get 30+ minutes of vomiting, nausea, and other mild to major discomfort to contemplate your demise while the poison gets to work.
 
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SofterSoftest

SofterSoftest

Student
Dec 30, 2021
186
What you are triggering when you take SN is a condition called methemoglobinemia. You can look up the symptoms of this condition online (for example: https://www.healthline.com/health/methemoglobinemia). It doesn't look like heart attacks are recognized as a symptom of methemoglobinemia, but everything else that folks have reported on this forum (e.g., nausea, dizziness, fatigue, drowsiness, tachycardia, etc.) are all very common symptoms. Of course, it is impossible to guarantee what it will feel like, which is why I'm reluctant about SN -- but it does seem like it would be more peaceful than many other methods.
 
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Seeking_Peace

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May 18, 2022
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Has anyone thought of staying up a couple days before doing the deed? Probably just stay asleep and not need a sleep aid.
 
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Judy Garland

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Mar 23, 2022
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Well one thing that freaks me out is that one person kept waking up (she was being saved) and heard her brain snapping and popping like sliced ham on a skillet. So there's that. SN is my method and I was planning to die soon...but now I'm afraid. I'm afraid of waking up and not being able to move, feeling trapped in my body as it dies. I just want to take the SN then pass out and die.
A lot of people report passing out rather quickly. Some report that they had thrown up briefly prior to passing out. I'm afraid. I'm scared. And I just want to die.
 
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CandyCane

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Mar 11, 2022
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It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
 
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As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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Well one thing that freaks me out is that one person kept waking up (she was being saved) and heard her brain snapping and popping like sliced ham on a skillet. So there's that. SN is my method and I was planning to die soon...but now I'm afraid. I'm afraid of waking up and not being able to move, feeling trapped in my body as it dies. I just want to take the SN then pass out and die.
A lot of people report passing out rather quickly. Some report that they had thrown up briefly prior to passing out. I'm afraid. I'm scared. And I just want to die.
She was being kept awake because they had her on Oxygen.
 
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Hq633910

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May 30, 2022
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I died once. Not in the literal sense. But I once took 7 grams of mushrooms. And I experienced ego death. It literally felt like I died. There was no such thing as time. I wasn't a person anymore. I was in another dimension. I cried 4 hours straight while experiencing this. I definitely recommend you try this before deciding on how to CTB. Listening to hippie sabotage and the shrooms brought me back from really wanting to ctb for a bit. It might be time to take some more.
 
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Shu

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I died once. Not in the literal sense. But I once took 7 grams of mushrooms. And I experienced ego death. It literally felt like I died. There was no such thing as time. I wasn't a person anymore. I was in another dimension. I cried 4 hours straight while experiencing this. I definitely recommend you try this before deciding on how to CTB. Listening to hippie sabotage and the shrooms brought me back from really wanting to ctb for a bit. It might be time to take some more.
Been there before.. I second this recommendation..
 
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Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
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It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
Because if you don't have Nembutal, it's harder to get anything else (like Gas etc.). This is an easier to find method. Plus, there is some peace to it too. (Though naturally some discomfort, there are reports where people just fell asleep and passed out).
 
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hankbank3928

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Dec 30, 2021
186
It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
What methods do you think are better than SN?
 
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awayoutn

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May 18, 2022
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I died once. Not in the literal sense. But I once took 7 grams of mushrooms. And I experienced ego death. It literally felt like I died. There was no such thing as time. I wasn't a person anymore. I was in another dimension. I cried 4 hours straight while experiencing this. I definitely recommend you try this before deciding on how to CTB. Listening to hippie sabotage and the shrooms brought me back from really wanting to ctb for a bit. It might be time to take some more.
Would you describe ego death as away of getting over SI?
 
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Hq633910

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May 30, 2022
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Would you describe ego death as away of getting over SI?
Not sure I'd say getting over it. But there was joy the next day and a few weeks after. Macro dosing and micro dosing are real things ppl try before final attempts. I will also mention some anti depressants to affect the dosage of shrooms. Always start at 1gram and work your way up every 30 min. On an empty stomach. I was good for about 3 months before my SI came back.
 
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Sm42

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Mar 3, 2022
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Well one thing that freaks me out is that one person kept waking up (she was being saved) and heard her brain snapping and popping like sliced ham on a skillet. So there's that. SN is my method and I was planning to die soon...but now I'm afraid. I'm afraid of waking up and not being able to move, feeling trapped in my body as it dies. I just want to take the SN then pass out and die.
A lot of people report passing out rather quickly. Some report that they had thrown up briefly prior to passing out. I'm afraid. I'm scared. And I just want to die.
I feel exactly the same
 
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Lebensunwertes

Lebensunwertes

Du bist auf dich allein gestellt
May 26, 2022
141
It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
Good thing I'm not the only one that finds the whole sodium nitrite praise ridiculous. I already seen posts where people offered this method as some sort of a miracle suicide pill. It's easy to just rely on theory when you don't actually use the method yourself.
 
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Foresight

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Good thing I'm not the only one that finds the whole sodium nitrite praise ridiculous. I already seen posts where people offered this method as some sort of a miracle suicide pill. It's easy to just rely on theory when you don't actually use the method yourself.
I think the forum is in general cautious about it. That's why it's constantly talked about and the topic of reducing discomfort is continous.

I've seen many reports of it being 1. not the worst tasting thing to have to gulp down and 2. not the worst ride. Any real level of pain is rarely reported. Nausea varies greatly. The time lapse is almost always long, sometimes shockingly if you really want a quick pass out. It has pros and cons.

I still don't like it. I turn into a literal infant when I vomit. It triggers my inner child or some shit, and I have a severe blood/cardiovascular phobia. It's not my thing but I've seen better suited people who were saved due to SI or accidental discovery report decently comfortable declines. I definitely get why people use it if they prefer a poison over a more violent suicide.
 
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I need peace

I need peace

The past is never dead, it's not even past.
Mar 28, 2022
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When I took it I felt nauseous and had a little headache but passed out soon, I had taken benzos so idk if that interferes. But when I woke up the doctors said my blood had become thick and my oxygen saturation was low, I was intubated for a few days to try and recover the whole oxygen situation
 
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May 1, 2022
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It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
Ppeh rates it 7/10 in terms of peacefulness. It was my go to method for a while until I discovered SA, which you need less of and it works faster. I saw a video of a girl who took SN and documented the experience in a video call….it seemed fairly peaceful though toward the end she showed her hands and her fingers were starting to turn blue…..that kind of shit would probably put my SI into overdrive, which is why for me, SA is probably a better choice….plus it's more readily available.
I was pretty up and down, these days I'm more up than down thankfully but if I need an express ticket out of this shit world, SA is how I'll go.
 
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The Abyss

Why're we still here, just to suffer?
Dec 19, 2019
260
It's poisoning yourself, which is a horrifying experience in general. I don't get why anyone uses this method.
What alternatives would you recommend aside from guns due to availability?
 
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Jun 20, 2018
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Ppeh rates it 7/10 in terms of peacefulness. It was my go to method for a while until I discovered SA, which you need less of and it works faster. I saw a video of a girl who took SN and documented the experience in a video call….it seemed fairly peaceful though toward the end she showed her hands and her fingers were starting to turn blue…..that kind of shit would probably put my SI into overdrive, which is why for me, SA is probably a better choice….plus it's more readily available.
I was pretty up and down, these days I'm more up than down thankfully but if I need an express ticket out of this shit world, SA is how I'll go.
Where can you find SA?
 
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Judy Garland

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Mar 23, 2022
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Carbon Monoxide? The helium mask? Nembutal.?They're faster poisoning I think.
It is also very hard to get those things compared to Sodium Nitrite. Plus you have to buy regulators (for helium), and find a 100% pure tank of helium, which is harder to find. Better make sure that mask fits and doesn't slip...which you have to buy still. Nembutal....forget it. You have to pay about $500 and over (I've read that people have paid $1,000 and over for it) and take a chance that it will come in the mail...sometimes it gets seized by customs...oh well, you don't get your money back. Not to mention the scammers. Carbon Monoxide can't be done with just a car and garage anymore. Cars are made to expel less carbon monoxide today, so using a car is rather difficult. I don't understand why you think Sodium Nitrite is a bad method. It's my method so I've done a lot of reading and research (not just on these forums, but science websites etc). Do I think it's absolutely perfect? No. I wish I could afford Nembutal. Am I scared of the process of dying with Sodium Nitrite. Absolutely. I'm afraid that I'm going to be trapped in some horrible dream where darkness gnaws at my flesh, or I'm thrown into a field of thorns. I'm afraid that I'll feel paralyzed in my body, that in between passing out, I'll wake up blind hearing my brain crackle and sizzle but won't be able to move. Yes, I'm even afraid of getting a little nauseated. I hope that I die peacefully and that I'll be right at Home in Heaven. Sodium Nitrite is the only thing I have. I tried Engine Coolant (Anti-Freeze) when I was 17 years old, that was awful, so I'm at least sure that Nitrite will be better than that. I've wanted to die a very long time. And I've tried in my teens, 20s and 30s and I will try again....hopefully I will make it this time (With SN).
 
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MyStateKilledMe

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Cars are made to expel less carbon monoxide today, so using a car is rather difficult.
That's because cars have catalytic converters, which turn carbon monoxide (CO) into carbon dioxide (CO2). You can still use the car method if you cut off the tailpipe right in front of the catalytic converter. But one huge caveat: when the exhaust bypasses the catalytic converter, it also bypasses the muffler; so the sound of your car running in your garage is going to be LOUD. (Unless you're a skilled welder, and can remove the converter and weld in a simple metal pipe.) Which can easily end very, very badly. Your neighbors might hear the car, break into your garage (or have the cops do the same), and "save" you.

The only way the car method can be reliable is if you have an insulated garage, and live far out in the countryside with no neighbors for at least a mile (1.6 km). Otherwise, just forget about it!
 
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CandyCane

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Mar 11, 2022
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It is also very hard to get those things compared to Sodium Nitrite. Plus you have to buy regulators (for helium), and find a 100% pure tank of helium, which is harder to find. Better make sure that mask fits and doesn't slip...which you have to buy still. Nembutal....forget it. You have to pay about $500 and over (I've read that people have paid $1,000 and over for it) and take a chance that it will come in the mail...sometimes it gets seized by customs...oh well, you don't get your money back. Not to mention the scammers. Carbon Monoxide can't be done with just a car and garage anymore. Cars are made to expel less carbon monoxide today, so using a car is rather difficult. I don't understand why you think Sodium Nitrite is a bad method. It's my method so I've done a lot of reading and research (not just on these forums, but science websites etc). Do I think it's absolutely perfect? No. I wish I could afford Nembutal. Am I scared of the process of dying with Sodium Nitrite. Absolutely. I'm afraid that I'm going to be trapped in some horrible dream where darkness gnaws at my flesh, or I'm thrown into a field of thorns. I'm afraid that I'll feel paralyzed in my body, that in between passing out, I'll wake up blind hearing my brain crackle and sizzle but won't be able to move. Yes, I'm even afraid of getting a little nauseated. I hope that I die peacefully and that I'll be right at Home in Heaven. Sodium Nitrite is the only thing I have. I tried Engine Coolant (Anti-Freeze) when I was 17 years old, that was awful, so I'm at least sure that Nitrite will be better than that. I've wanted to die a very long time. And I've tried in my teens, 20s and 30s and I will try again....hopefully I will make it this time (With SN).

I don't consider SN peaceful or an option. I get the other options are harder, but that doesn't make SN peaceful.
 

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