What else keeps you in this life? Write what, why, etc.

[pipa]

My parents

 

[Hurt]

What I'm studying. Music and movies. But these things are just a distraction from my shitty life. It doesnt change anything. I dont care about my family since they have been treating me like shit lately.

 

[Scribble Fan]

Playing music on my synthesizer. When I write something I like it almost feels like I'm worth something.

 

[Idontmatter]

My husband is keeping me alive right know. I know I've said that a couple of times. I know loosing me would destroy him so the guilt is strong with that. My suicidal thoughts are constant now and that's literally all I think about now. Ive ordered sn so once I'm ready I can leave and not struggle with this anymore. My plan will have to work, or life will be much worse if it doesn't. I'll never have my head clear so this is my only option.

 

[Antigonish]

Somehow I still look forward to movies/shows being released.
I sometimes like small stuff like going on a walk or listening to music.
I also like laughing and comedy and communicating with people who truly get me.
But all of that is just temporary and won't fill too much time before it also gets "old" but it's okay - I just go with the flow and whenever I'm ready I'll ctb.

You took the feeling right out of my soul. When I was younger I was determined to end it right then and there. After each failed attempt I appreciated something more. Like finding a little color in a world of grey.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Family.
I have a nice family who didn't do me anything wrong, and I can't really imagine the sorrow I would leave them with.
But that's only for now, I am pretty fixated on ctb-ing, I already have SN, who knows how long I will last until I am able to ignore the family reason and do it anyways.

 

[jc58]

My husband, elderly mother & 4-legged babies. I'm also afraid my attempt will fail, like it has in the past. I don't know how much longer I can exist like this, though.

 

[Brayu]

I can't get anything efficient and painless (the most efficient I can get is caffeine in pills)... Not to mention that I don't have a place and I care about how people would look afterwards (yes I have empathy, even with those who hurt me, but especially with those who have been betting on me for a long time though).

Some movies coming out hold me a bit too.

 

[existtosuffer]

Waiting for stuff to arrive

 

[Wojaczek]

Hope, i think
I just wish that things might get better, but i know my brain and i know that im unable to change
Im basically living a hopeless existance

 

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