What else keeps you in this life? Write what, why, etc.

[Moon25]

Hello everyone!
What else keeps you in this life? Write what, why, etc.
I'll write about myself. I save up for cremation and for a hotel room, for that I still have to work for a year. But I have problems with work, most likely it could take more than a year.
Sorry for the mistakes, I am writing via google translator.

 

[Ren Elsie Jewelria]

Hello there,
Reading European comic books and drawing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am still alive as it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier I would already be gone. Society denies us a right to die and takes away the peaceful methods. There is the fear of failure and the fact that we are programmed to survive. I believe I will eventually reach the point of desperation and then I will be able to leave this world.
I do not enjoy anything and there is no reason to carry on. I just do things to distract myself to pass the time. It is like I have already died.

 

[bea1974]

I am still alive as it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier I would already be gone. Society denies us a right to die and takes away the peaceful methods. There is the fear of failure and the fact that we are programmed to survive. I believe I will eventually reach the point of desperation and then I will be able to leave this world.
I do not enjoy anything and there is no reason to carry on. I just do things to distract myself to pass the time. It is like I have already died.

This. Very much this. Strong relate.

 

[Blue_mist]

Hello everyone!
What else keeps you in this life? Write what, why, etc.
I'll write about myself. I save up for cremation and for a hotel room, for that I still have to work for a year. But I have problems with work, most likely it could take more than a year.
Sorry for the mistakes, I am writing via google translator.

Waiting for euthanasia to be available for mentally ill in Canada by early 2023

 

[ChaseBees]

My debit card has detected fraud, so I cant order SN. Otherwise, spending time with my boyfriend

 

[bea1974]

Trying to somehow get the money together to buy some N. Am on a very low income so...

 

[DrunkMeeseeks]

I have SN, but no weighing machine/measuring cup and i'm still searching the anti-emetic to purchase on the darknet. Apart from that, nothing is keeping me from killing myself.

 

[bea1974]

It's all so fuking hard, expensive, complicated. It shouldn't be this way.

 

[Hotsackage]

Mom

 

[AtMostOkay]

My two children. That's it. I'm so damned tired.

 

[mpnf]

Fears and hopes. A mix of both.

 

[stygal]

Somehow I still look forward to movies/shows being released.
I sometimes like small stuff like going on a walk or listening to music.
I also like laughing and comedy and communicating with people who truly get me.
But all of that is just temporary and won't fill too much time before it also gets "old" but it's okay - I just go with the flow and whenever I'm ready I'll ctb.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Fear of death.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Fear of the afterlife which I cant ever get rid of because of indoctrination

 

[AtMostOkay]

Fear of the afterlife which I cant ever get rid of because of indoctrination

I, too, had to overcome indoctrination, having been raised in a cult with my father at the healm. Free to talk, any time xo

 

[ClownMe]

My dog, that's literally it.

 

[meetapple]

The permanence of death.

 

[phoenixx]

I was planning on ctb within the next year or so but after thinking a lot, I decided to put my plans on hold. I'm still here mainly for my mother, we are very close. I realised if I go now, it would destroy her. I can't do that do her. She's the main reason I'm still alive right now.

 

[Darkover]

i'm waiting for the artificial Intelligence revolution and the inevitable takeover of AI to wipe us all out

 

[Seaghost]

Not enough money for N.
Done wrong with BBQ so I'm scared to do it wrong again.

There's a small chance on the horizon to get a ticket at dignitas.

 

[xLosthopex]

My dogs, my eating disorder, music, watching YouTube videos, Netflix, SS, holding out for a miracle… but mostly SI

 

[RedundantRecord]

My main motivator is planning the most preferable timing for ceasing to be. A sunk cost and endurable present time renders it too abrupt not to pick an opportunity to finish myself carefully. While there is distractions for as long as I continue that also keep me continuing to some extent, I will eventually put things in order as I desire above all else.

 

[idiot_dad]

Other people that need me are the only things keeping me around. My wife, my kids, people in my neighborhood. I know that is unsustainable, so I'm trying to find something different. I wish there was something I could get excited about.

 

[Ash]

My dog, that's literally it.

Same. I don't have family or friends who know them to take my two and although I think one would easily adapt to a new home, the other would find it extremely difficult.

 

[LivvenDe]

Mom, siblings, husband & cats

 

[S like Siren]

SI ruined my perfect suicide attempt in June ... from then on I don't even know what I'm waiting for ... I sleep, watch videos or music on youtube, watch movies on TV ... I'm alone all the time and I do spend the days one after the other doing nothing

 

[medjooled11]

The permanence of death.

Interesting ...

 

[lonerclown666]

nothing just the wondering of what will happen after i go

 

[Chockles]

Absolutely nothing. I'm completely bed ridden in physical agony. I'm online 22hrs a day mainly on here. I cany sleep. Rarely eat much now. I listen to music but no longer enjoy it. I need to find way to ctb soon.