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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
People often say (and it's wrong) that people will just up and forget. What happens is people stop talking about it, but they don't forget. I can recall almost every suicide told to me about acquaintances and strangers, and it affects me still.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
Could trigger depression in my friend (
I genuinely hope it will pass
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
I'm still here because it would literally ruin lives. It's a hard pill to swallow, but such is life.
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
I'm still here because it would literally ruin lives. It's a hard pill to swallow, but such is life.
My death would ruin lives too, but it can't be helped. I can't continue to be a living martyr. I was abused as a child and suffer from many psych problems. Anyone who looks down on me or hates me after my death is a piece of shit.
 
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Deleted member 23374

deministrator
Nov 1, 2020
648
The "kids" will be confused, for that i weep but, c'est la vie.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
My death would ruin lives too, but it can't be helped. I can't continue to be a living martyr. I was abused as a child and suffer from many psych problems. Anyone who looks down on me or hates me after my death is a piece of shit.
The way I look at it death is part of life and every adult in your life should be able to adapt. You could go for a walk tomorrow and get hit by a car or something. I honestly don't care how it would affect any adult in my life, but it is by my doing that the children are here and as such I owe it to them to hold out until it is no longer possible. If you don't have literal responsibilities to others then there's no reason to feel bad at all. People should have treated you better in your life.
 
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AMG44

Member
Sep 12, 2020
49
I'm still here because it would literally ruin lives. It's a hard pill to swallow, but such is life.

This is the exact reason I keep postponing. It sucks, but I just can't bring myself to ruin lives
 
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jrums

Student
Apr 14, 2019
134
Gonna ruin immediate family lives. But I can't live with the brain damage these pills have done to me. I deserve peace.
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
I know it'll have a pretty big impact on my family, any death of a family member would, but hopefully they can get past it knowing that it was either this or years of dragged out pain and suffering full of stressful tests and medications with lists of side effects that were never going to change anything. My mum and stepdad will also be secretly relieved that they don't have to look after me anymore, and my brother will enjoy the attention just like he did when my grandad died.

Another thing I'm worried about is that my ex is 100% guaranteed to fake feeling guilty for my death to gain sympathy and attention when he finds out, and he'll probably use it to drag someone else into the same torture he put me through. The whole "damaged soul" thing is what he uses to seek out vulnerable people and get them under his control. I feel pretty bad for giving him more fuel for that.
 
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foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
I think my death will cause a ripple, people will be sad especially my family but they'll move on. I haven't spoken to another human outside of buying things in at least a month. They seem fine without me in their lives right now so I'd hope it would be the same sometime after my death. They'll be sad but it won't be much different then present outside of the fact they won't be able to speak with me anymore. No big loss.
 
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Dizzylady80

Dizzylady80

Experienced
Nov 5, 2020
226
I'm worried my death will cause my ex to commit suicide. I'm pretty sure it will. I'm also pretty sure it'll cause my best friend to relapse in several ways, which has a very good chance of killing them. My dad also might commit suicide as he's already suicidal, which shouldn't upset me but it does anyways. It'll ruin the lives of many people who care deeply about me. It fucking sucks
 
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Thatdude

Life is temporary, death is permanent
Sep 26, 2019
482
I suspect my parents will get said, my sister will use it as a weapon against my parents because she is an ass that blames them for everything, my grandparents will be sad but say I went to hell, most of my extended family won't give a shit or use it as a way to get attention, and most of my extended family will use it against my parents because my extended family are worthless shits

So it would ruin my parents lives, but that's about all. I do feel bad about that.
 
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fatmanatee

Member
May 21, 2020
16
Somebody would have to throw the stuff in my apartment in the trash and my cats would probably get euthanized.
 
LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
Hi, new here. I'm still here because I don't want to cause others pain. Recent times have shown me that actually although it will sadden a few from my life, they will all move on fine.
But my bro... he probably won't notice me gone but I don't know... he has a significant intellectual disability.
I'm the way I am due to our childhood. I don't want to abandon him too.
 
Deleted member 94

Deleted member 94

Wizard
Mar 24, 2018
696
My family has already moved on. They treat me like I'm already dead. Looking at them seems like they won't lose any sleep over it.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
Lot's of fingerpointing, lol.
 
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LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
My family has already moved on. They treat my like I'm already dead. Looking at them seems like they won't lose any sleep over it.

I stopped contacting my folks regularly end of last year, they live 5 min away, they've not made any effort to see how I am despite knowing the severity of my instability. I suspect when I CTB they'll be relieved to an extent
 
Deleted member 94

Deleted member 94

Wizard
Mar 24, 2018
696
I stopped contacting my folks regularly end of last year, they live 5 min away, they've not made any effort to see how I am despite knowing the severity of my instability. I suspect when I CTB they'll be relieved to an extent
My relatives will likely throw a kitty party.
 
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Nyxtus

Member
Nov 14, 2020
53
My family will be devastated, my best friend will be crushed (heard him cry deeply for the first time in our 9 year friendship) and my ex will blame herself for it for the rest of her life, and she already has struggled with depression and suicidal tendencies her entire life.

All of this has been the only things keeping me hanging on for another day. I feel so fucking guilty but I only have so much in me.
 
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Jack

Member
Jul 22, 2018
84
I think some people would be sad but I don't think anyone would kill themselves in response. I don't really have any friends anymore and don't talk to family. I'm already out of their lives. They'll think "well we saw this coming" when they hear about.
I think if I was somehow resurrected a week later, or more realistically went missing, was presumed dead, and then turned up alive after funeral, people that know me wouldn't start spending tone with me / cherishing my presence. I'd still be the same piece of shit.
 
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Deleted member 23774

Member
Nov 14, 2020
78
Unfortunately my death won't cause a ripple effect at all. Yeah, my family will care and a few friends, but that's it. I haven't made a difference in anyone's lives. It won't matter that I'm gone.
 
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Deleted member 23586

Deleted member 23586

Hope ur final midnight feels like the hug you need
Nov 8, 2020
207
Sad that I'm gone, Angry at all the people who abused me that led me to this point, angry at society, Sad that they couldn't do more*, happy I'm at peace, One (technically 2) less mouths to feed and gaining more financially.

It'll fuck bubby up. I know it will. The main reason why I stay is him. Can't do that to him...atleast I try to. But maybe one day I'll be able to just go regardless.
 
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Gsz1982

Member
Nov 18, 2020
32
I just feel by CTB I'm not exactly missing out on living forever I'm missing out on unbearable suffering.
 
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rabbithole

rabbithole

Experienced
Oct 26, 2020
271
I was told by both my parents that neither of them would live through it. So I don't know what to do. I'm so stuck. Also I was told by my sister she would spit on my grave if I ctb and would hate me forever.
 
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LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
Unfortunately my death won't cause a ripple effect at all. Yeah, my family will care and a few friends, but that's it. I haven't made a difference in anyone's lives. It won't matter that I'm gone.
I'm sure you've made a difference, just others haven't appreciated it enough. Do what makes you feel good.
 
ecmnesia

ecmnesia

the only thing humans are equal in is death
Aug 30, 2020
766
many family's members will likely be ruined. many friends will probably have a hard time. i try not to thing about it much, tho.

their life's might be ruined. but why should I sacrifice myself for their sakes? i can't keep on suffering for them. it's selfish, but it is what it is. I'm too sick of this pain to stop myself because of them, it hurts me to think that they will suffer. but that's a sacrifice I'm willing to do.
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
I was told by both my parents that neither of them would live through it. So I don't know what to do. I'm so stuck. Also I was told by my sister she would spit on my grave if I ctb and would hate me forever.
Write in your note that you hate your sister
 
StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
Not much lol
There might be a few train delays but that's about it..
 
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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
I will be fine. I have no single friend neither girlfriend. Nobody will give a shit about me when I'll finally CTB.
 
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AutoTap

Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
885
Honestly my death would possibly ruin my parents and my little brothers lives. Not to mention my dogs. Other family members will be sad and stuff but I think they'll be fine.
 

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