Discussion What do you hope to get out of CTBing?

[dogemn]

If what you're hoping for is non-existence, that's kind of incoherent because our minds can't actually imagine non-existence. And things like relief, peace, or rest all require you to still be alive to feel them. So if it's not that, what is it you actually want out of death?

 

[Dawns]

what appeals to me is that i will no longer be on this planet suffering emotionally, financially, mentally, etc. Also just being so tired and burnt out yet i barely work or do anything, because im so depressed. Also not to mention masking emotions everyday . And the future ain't looking great either. years of suicidal ideation with no improvement is pushing me closer and closer to blowing my brains out

 

[scordatura]

To rid both me and others of the burden of myself.

 

[apearl]

peace, I hope whatever is next is peaceful

 

[qewpie]

just dont want to experience this dam body anymore

 

[cloud;.]

Peace....

 

[jinmaopoison]

Someone else said eternal non-existence and thats pretty much it. Just seems more peaceful

 

[itsgone2]

Peace. Release from all this pain.

 

[Irisse]

I want to be free of my paranoia and traumatic memories.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

If what you're hoping for is non-existence, that's kind of incoherent because our minds can't actually imagine non-existence.

That's the gist of it, isn't it? We cannot experience non-existence, but we can experience the pain, the suffering, and the unfortunate circumstances that have led to us making the decision to end our lives. We won't be able to experience love or happiness, but that becomes no more than a trade-off. I cannot know my death, I only have the experience of life, and I know I've lost the will to live. I'm only concerned about what I will feel in my final moments. Will I experience relief? Or will I experience panic? Anything past that does not concern me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could ever hope for, I just want to be permanently unconscious, I just want to be free from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and to never suffer again is just all I see as desirable.

For me non-existence is all that's positive, I just wish and hope to be free from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence that was always an abomination to me in the first place, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.

 

[Unrequitedlife]

To be rid of the constant urge to leave this plane of existence