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What do you hope happens after we die?


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TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
My own personal heaven or creator of my own reality. My own personal heaven/my reality would be a world in which I were forever young. I would be a young adult forever, and I would never get old. I would never have to be a real adult or truly enter adulthood. I would be in my early 20s forever. I would have no responsibilities, demands, or obligations, and I wouldn't need to eventually work for a living. Existence wouldn't cost money, and I wouldn't have to pay to exist. There would be no such thing as bills or taxes. There would be no concept of money, and everything would be free. I would have freedom to do whatever I wanted and I wouldn't be tied down to the costs of existence. I would never have to be chained to a job.

I would be an eternal student, and learn as much as there is to learn. I would learn everything about everything in the world and in the universe. I would be in a beautiful dark academia-style college forever, gaining knowledge, reading and studying in its library. I would never have to eventually enter the workforce or working world. My dog would be there with me (he would never age either, he would be forever young), and I would eat steak and other delicious food. I would see beautiful sunsets every day, listen to music, drink coffee and tea, play video games, and read books. I would never have to eventually work or enter the real world, I would live the college life forever. I would just study, chill and vibe. I would be able to sleep in and be well-rested, it would be acceptable for me to spend the whole day sleeping. I would never feel tired again.

I would also be able to travel the world and visit all the countries and places I wanted to go to, as well as travel through space and time, and visit other planets and galaxies. I would know the mysteries and secrets of the universe. I would also be able to go to parallel worlds and alternate realities. I would be able to go back in time as well as into the future.
Dang. I feel like we would've been great friends IRL if we weren't about to die.

I'm in college for physics. That basically tells you I wanted to learn all the same things.

I love libraries and I love my dog.

If the afterlife exists, we've gotta meet.
 
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Gleysson

Hey, you. You're finally awake
Oct 10, 2023
74
I'd love to live in the Harry Potter world, it would be so cool if magic were real.
Man. So much. But I think I would rather have a Muggle born experience than a wizard born. No idea about the magical world whatsoever until the letter came. My parents would be absolutely skeptical and thinking it came from some predator, just when some cat turns into a whole fucking woman and she shows magic. The bliss of entering the halls... When I was misdiagnosed schizophrenic and took AntiPsychotics, I had no emotions, so music (basically the most important thing in my life) made no sense. So I just listened to the HP series on audible back to back.

Maybe I've though about it for too long hahahaha
 
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Monique696

Monique696

Member
Aug 31, 2021
82
--- Edit: If you chose "My own personal heaven" please describe it ---

This isn't asking what you expect, but what you prefer. You could expect nothingness but hope for a heaven.

Personally, I've been really into Near-Death Experiences lately, and their main thing is that we're all fractals of the same Divine being; one with unlimited power and is overflowing with love and peace. The scientists studying them also are having a really difficult time refuting them, many believing the NDE experiencers are correct, since there's nothing physical going on in their brain that could explain what they're experiencing. It would be wonderful if all that were true.

I'm also okay with nothing. Can't feel anything negative if I don't exist.
As far as ive understood it we go to a great collective where we can meet with anyone weve met this as well as past lifetimes.
We simply know people we had connections and "contracts" with.
Like one big family reunion.
Yet we still get our personal piece of "heaven" of sorts. If someone needs a break they often enjoy their afterlife with animals. Especially when they encountered lots of trauma in this lifetime.
They have guides that help one transition and review the life. Regardless of how hard it was or how hard we made it for others.
Matt Fraser the medium has wonderful videos on what spirit has told him from his countless readings.
People who ended themselves as well as thode who went naturally or those who have been ended violently all end up in the same place at the end. Some just need some adjustments before. All with love and no judgement. Yet it is impossible to cross over with too much baggage and bad emotions. Thats what we are supposed to work out during life review as far as ive understood it.
Its funny ive tried to "summon" or rather connect with the other side based on matts description on how to connect with the other side and once channeled my dad. He was standing there eating a meatball and laughed when he noticed that I could see him 😅
If he was able to end up in his personal paradise after all the crap he pulled and experienced then there is hope for all of us.
Truly it is hard to know what awaits us.
But since we all go there it cant be all that bad.
My personal heaven would be with a great isolation. A wonderful piece of all types of nature with lots of animals. Awesome food as well as a bit of "silly smoke" here and there as Matt likes to call it😆
Who knows what will happen.
Looking forward to find out one day. And to meet some friends ive lost along the way as well as to reconnect with long lost families.
Oh and of course you can assist your loved ones and can haunt them to your liking.
(out of a place of love of course but it still counts in my book)
So overall nothing bad.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,577
Man. So much. But I think I would rather have a Muggle born experience than a wizard born. No idea about the magical world whatsoever until the letter came. My parents would be absolutely skeptical and thinking it came from some predator, just when some cat turns into a whole fucking woman and she shows magic. The bliss of entering the halls... When I was misdiagnosed schizophrenic and took AntiPsychotics, I had no emotions, so music (basically the most important thing in my life) made no sense. So I just listened to the HP series on audible back to back.

Maybe I've though about it for too long hahahaha
Omg McGonagall. That would be a great introduction to the wizarding world, seeing her turn into a human from a cat. It would be so cool to find out that magic existed and be introduced to this whole new world. Ikr, it would be so cool to actually go to Hogwarts! I'd love to study there and learn about magic. Transfiguration would be so cool, I could finally be an actual cat. I'd also love to learn charms and potions. Potions is basically just the chemistry of the wizarding world. I'd also love to learn alchemy, but they didn't teach it at Hogwarts. Btw what house would you be in? And what would your wand and patronus be?
As far as ive understood it we go to a great collective where we can meet with anyone weve met this as well as past lifetimes.
We simply know people we had connections and "contracts" with.
Like one big family reunion.
Yet we still get our personal piece of "heaven" of sorts. If someone needs a break they often enjoy their afterlife with animals. Especially when they encountered lots of trauma in this lifetime.
They have guides that help one transition and review the life. Regardless of how hard it was or how hard we made it for others.
Matt Fraser the medium has wonderful videos on what spirit has told him from his countless readings.
People who ended themselves as well as thode who went naturally or those who have been ended violently all end up in the same place at the end. Some just need some adjustments before. All with love and no judgement. Yet it is impossible to cross over with too much baggage and bad emotions. Thats what we are supposed to work out during life review as far as ive understood it.
Its funny ive tried to "summon" or rather connect with the other side based on matts description on how to connect with the other side and once channeled my dad. He was standing there eating a meatball and laughed when he noticed that I could see him 😅
If he was able to end up in his personal paradise after all the crap he pulled and experienced then there is hope for all of us.
Truly it is hard to know what awaits us.
But since we all go there it cant be all that bad.
My personal heaven would be with a great isolation. A wonderful piece of all types of nature with lots of animals. Awesome food as well as a bit of "silly smoke" here and there as Matt likes to call it😆
Who knows what will happen.
Looking forward to find out one day. And to meet some friends ive lost along the way as well as to reconnect with long lost families.
Oh and of course you can assist your loved ones and can haunt them to your liking.
(out of a place of love of course but it still counts in my book)
So overall nothing bad.
Can you meet your past pets as well? I'd love to see my bird and hamsters again. I wonder if the heaven for animals can cross over to that of humans…
 
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Gleysson

Hey, you. You're finally awake
Oct 10, 2023
74
Omg McGonagall. That would be a great introduction to the wizarding world, seeing her turn into a human from a cat. It would be so cool to find out that magic existed and be introduced to this whole new world. Ikr, it would be so cool to actually go to Hogwarts! I'd love to study there and learn about magic. Transfiguration would be so cool, I could finally be an actual cat. I'd also love to learn charms and potions. Potions is basically just the chemistry of the wizarding world. I'd also love to learn alchemy, but they didn't teach it at Hogwarts. Btw what house would you be in? And what would your wand and patronus be?
I don't know how to quote properly here. But anyways. It would be SO AWESOME. My thing is probably defence against the dark arts or transfiguration. It's such a powerful area of magic. Some twisted dude comes attacking you? Boom. Turn him into a wheelbarrow, send him to work the farms to be a dung carrier. Potions is so intriguing, the intricacies, precision and possibilities. I'm kinda clumsy, so maybe I'd Neville it hard. But it would be very much fun. Maybe I'd like care for magical creatures though, live on a farm, take in endangered magic animals. That solo life, or maybe with someone like minded. Sounds like a good life.

And I feel you so much. CTB wouldn't even be a thought. Things are hard? Turn into a fucking cat and go live in a filthy rich lady's house. Get pampered, cause mayhem and just vibe!

My house is Ravenclaw, but I have a lot of Hufflepuff in me. I think my wand would be something big and unwielding. Dragon heartstring. Unreliable but very very powerful. I wish my patronus was something like a bear, I like them. But the Wizarding World site told my it was a ferret (not much my personality, but an awesome animal as well, very sly).

What about you?
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,577
I don't know how to quote properly here. But anyways. It would be SO AWESOME. My thing is probably defence against the dark arts or transfiguration. It's such a powerful area of magic. Some twisted dude comes attacking you? Boom. Turn him into a wheelbarrow, send him to work the farms to be a dung carrier. Potions is so intriguing, the intricacies, precision and possibilities. I'm kinda clumsy, so maybe I'd Neville it hard. But it would be very much fun. Maybe I'd like care for magical creatures though, live on a farm, take in endangered magic animals. That solo life, or maybe with someone like minded. Sounds like a good life.

And I feel you so much. CTB wouldn't even be a thought. Things are hard? Turn into a fucking cat and go live in a filthy rich lady's house. Get pampered, cause mayhem and just vibe!

My house is Ravenclaw, but I have a lot of Hufflepuff in me. I think my wand would be something big and unwielding. Dragon heartstring. Unreliable but very very powerful. I wish my patronus was something like a bear, I like them. But the Wizarding World site told my it was a ferret (not much my personality, but an awesome animal as well, very sly).

What about you?
Omg I forgot about DADA! I'd love to learn it as well. It would be cool to learn all of the spells, as well as how to defend yourself. I know right, it would be super powerful magic. Transfiguration is fascinating, it's so cool that you could change one thing into another, and you could change people into things as well. My house is Ravenclaw but I also have Slytherin in me as well (back when I used to be ambitious). People don't like Slytherins though so I just say I'm a Ravenclaw. I forgot what wood my wand is, but the core is phoenix feather. I think my patronus is some kind of cat, maybe a leopardess? I'm not sure, I forgot…
 
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Gleysson

Hey, you. You're finally awake
Oct 10, 2023
74
Omg I forgot about DADA! I'd love to learn it as well. My house is Ravenclaw but I also have Slytherin in me as well (back when I used to be ambitious). People don't like Slytherins though so I just say I'm a Ravenclaw. I forgot what wood my wand is, but the core is phoenix feather. I think my patronus is some kind of cat, maybe a leopardess? I'm not sure, I forgot
A leopardess is a badass patronus. And don't deny your Slytheriness. People judge all the time. Slughorn was Slytherin. Snape (even though I don't like him very much in the books) is also Slytherin, and he had a love so strong he died for it. Hell is what you make of it. And if you want to be a bad Slytherin, do it.

As a wise friend once said: be gay, do crime, evade taxes
 
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wannabeasuperhero

wannabeasuperhero

treading water
Oct 2, 2023
9
I believe in an atheist sort of reincarnation. when someone dies, their components are broken down into their environment and resurface in new organisms down the food chain. maybe one day a carbon atom that was once a part of your skeleton will appear in the shell of a turtle that ate a snail that ate a leaf that was fertilized by the decay of your body. It comforts me to think that nothing is ever really gone, that way.
 
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TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
As far as ive understood...
It seems as though we've come to the same conclusion.

Its funny ive tried to "summon" or rather connect with the other side based on matts description on how to connect with the other side and once channeled my dad. He was standing there eating a meatball and laughed when he noticed that I could see him 😅
Could you post a link, please? I've been trying for a while, but I have no luck. It seems that most do it through meditation, but I can't quiet my mind for more than 30 seconds or so (which is actually a huge improvement).
Can you meet your past pets as well? I'd love to see my bird and hamsters again. I wonder if the heaven for animals can cross over to that of humans…
If I learned about the same things they were talking about (and it seems like I did), your animals will absolutely be there if you want them to.
 
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wurr

wurr

If you want, you can talk to me about anything
Jul 17, 2023
40
Hm. Reincarnation may be nice, but no guarantee that my life will be better and not worse than it is now. What probably will happen is nothing. Our consciousness will disappear and we would cese to exist. But the idea of not existing just feels so… unreal. Like, it's very very hard to imagine not existing, since I have existed the entirety of my life. It is also a little scary i'd say.

If I were to pick what would happen to me after death, than I'd want to live my current life, but with all the bad stuff being replaced with good stuff.
 
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StellaSomnus

StellaSomnus

Dormies sicut stellae luceant
Aug 18, 2023
76
Nothingness would be nice. That's the most realistic option.

However, if I were to be a 'creator of my own reality' or 'personal heaven', I want it to be like Puella Magi Madoka Magica style, particularly the 3rd movie, Rebellion.

In the movie, following the somewhat dark end of the anime, the magical girls are doing their usual witch hunting stuff in a happy manner. However, the reality is, Akemi Homura (or her consciousness) is being placed in an artificial world where she would be happy carrying on her duties as a magical girl. However, she was not satisfied with her relationship with Madoka and came to a realization that her world was not 'real' and that everyone around her is just Madoka's projection of them to keep Homura happy.

Honestly, I would be happy to permanently live in my own world surrounded by the people that I love and loves me back. May not be satisfactory that these people are just projections from my own consciousness, but ignorance is a bliss and a happy reality is what I would want.
 
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hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
Personally, I've been really into Near-Death Experiences lately, and their main thing is that we're all fractals of the same Divine being; one with unlimited power and is overflowing with love and peace.
This is essentially what I believe in and also hope for. I don't want to be reincarnated. I don't want catholic heaven. I want to return to The Fullness. (Pleroma)
It's also one of the few reasons I am still hesitant to CTB. I don't want to return to material reality after I die. I want to go back to source. And it seems like taking yourself out of the game would invalidate any ability of achieving Gnosis while I'm still here
 
Chr0nicAnhedonic

Chr0nicAnhedonic

poisoned to my rotten core
Oct 1, 2023
57
I know and I accept that there's nothing after death.

That being said...

The personal heaven/own reality options really appeal to me. I have a pretty vivid imagination and I spend a lot of time daydreaming, so being able to live in the world(s) I created in my head would be wonderful. Of course I'd like complete control over it, but honestly I'd be happy even if I was just a character in it. I think my worlds are much more interesting and more hopeful than this one is, at least.
 
purple417

purple417

Member
Sep 17, 2023
19
i rly wish its nothing bc if theres something else that happens i feel like theres no point in me ctbing. its also what makes most sense to me anyways. i just dont wanna exist anymore. continuing to exist would mean continuing to have to deal with all my shit and i cant rly imagine existing wo having to deal with all that so
 
Nanako

Nanako

Experienced
Dec 24, 2018
284
All I know is that I want an escape from this life and only death will provide that. I'll worry about what comes next later.
 
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LonelyFerret

LonelyFerret

Member
Oct 9, 2023
19
Nothing. Literally nothing. Consensus as a whole is the root to all suffering. That's how I see it anyways.
 
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Monique696

Monique696

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Aug 31, 2021
82
It seems as though we've come to the same conclusion.


Could you post a link, please? I've been trying for a while, but I have no luck. It seems that most do it through meditation, but I can't quiet my mind for more than 30 seconds or so (which is actually a huge improvement).

If I learned about the same things they were talking about (and it seems like I did), your animals will absolutely be there if you want them to.
I think it's this one but i am not 100% sure. He has a couple of videos in his live section about how to connect etc.

 
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gap

I'm Italian, but there is google translate🙂
Apr 28, 2023
43
I hope nothing
 
cardboard_house

cardboard_house

he/him | i'm so tired. so, so tired.
Sep 17, 2023
49
I rlly just hope that my energy n my being returns to the earth in all aspects n i can just become one with nature agn. dnt have to wrry abt all this stuff with living, thinking, being conscious. jst wnna be one with the land that raised me.
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
576
Hopefully nothing.
 
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Kali319

Kali319

Member
Sep 30, 2023
15
I'd love to wake up and realize that this life has been nothing but a passing dream. All is forgiven, all is okay. It's over and done with.

When I wake up, I want to feel love and warmth: like drinking hot cocoa in front of a fire place with the person I love. Yeah, something like that would be nice.
 
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TheSuicidalLlama

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Oct 10, 2023
20
nothing, as if i've never existed, as it was before my father came inside my mother's vagina.
 
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Lostandlooking

In limbo
Jul 23, 2020
431
I secretly wish I could haunt certain people for a few years after my death. Not very nice I know. I guess I'm bitter and angry about certain things. I would try to mess with their reality, make them doubt themselves. Get them to make mistakes and get them into embarressing situations. Stress the hell out of them. At a certain point I guess I'd just call it a day and fuck off into nothingness.

I can't really picture a personal heaven and I can't really picture myself happy, you would have to erase some memory and bring the consciousness level down quite a bit. At that point, am I still me? I guess my second hope is just nothingness.
 
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sanlcx

sanlcx

Member
Oct 21, 2023
84
I'll have my own harem of beautiful waifus
 
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oddetoad

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2023
497
I'll have my own harem of beautiful waifus
i have the same thoughts actually . to finally be with girls that are normal and not controlled by some evil demonic force
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,123
Unlike most the idea of nothingness and ethernal black void just makes me uneasy. What gives me comfort is the reality of most near death experiences. I have been making my self busy watching those NDE testimony videos. Returning to the divin source to be embraced with infinite love and peace, the possibility of that beautiful reality awaiting me is what puts my mind at ease and I will hold on to that till my last moment
 
Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Less than a human being.
Feb 24, 2023
226
Nothingness is ok,If fate doesn't favor me enough to make me able to choose to live in the kind of world I'd want my vessel to be in , so my soul doesn't have to strand further out of it.


i have a feelings fate won't favor me.
 

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