damnatio memoriae

damnatio memoriae

i like the color green.
Feb 24, 2023
69
I wake up around 11am, sometimes bit later, rarely before that.
And then boring stuff happens. Most days I smoke a pack on my computer until I sleep. Sometimes I eat
That's about it
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,445
Practice guitar. Shitpost on forums.
 
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$crim

$crim

skincarver
Feb 12, 2023
96
at anywhere from 10am to 3pm i go upstairs, get a monster zero and take my meds, then spend my time on the computer until im too tired and then just lay in bed and watch yt shorts til im ready to get on my pc again. and the cycle continues throughout the day til its anywhere from 1 to 6am and i get to do it all again the next day
 
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Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
463
Try to deal with the fatigue from my brain injury. Do university work as much as I can.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

šŸŽµ Be all, end all šŸŽµ
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Jump from website to website
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
1,070
When not browsing Sasu, I mostly sleep, or stare at the walls.
I often curl up in a ball and cry, needing to die on a regular basis.
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
Oct 26, 2019
851
I start drinking alcohol and get on the computer... eventually I'll pass out and repeat the process... except I'll actually go to sleep for a long extended period of time. Sometimes I'll go on walks. I want to buy an electric guitar I just can't get the money together at the moment...
 
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Green Destiny

Green Destiny

Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
861
Depends on if I work that day and also if my Family needs help with dogs or yardwork etc. But most of the time I play video games and then go on the computer or vise versa.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,078
Existing is just a process of slowly dying, I just do whatever I feel the need to do in order to pass the time until I eventually fall asleep, and this cycle will repeat until I inevitably cease existing. I'm wishing to be gone pretty much every waking moment, existing certainly is so dreadful and futile.
 
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Duochrome-Seahorse

Duochrome-Seahorse

I hope I start rotting in my sleep
Feb 23, 2023
60
I watch a ton of anime, I read at least a volume of manga each day so I have art inspo. Just watching everything I want until my time comes! My fav anime rn is oshi no ko.
 
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Aesthetic guy

Aesthetic guy

Just hanging around...
Dec 13, 2022
120
i work 12h a day, so not much time... I've lost all my friends... the only options is movies and youtube...
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
Twice a week l go to a Airsoft Site and once a week l attend a 50+ Mental health support group and chat shit to some other messed up Nuts'!
 
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Dead Horse

Dead Horse

Hopeless, but literally
Nov 14, 2018
150
I'm on my PC all day. It's not just laziness. It's an inability to deal with my reality, so I distract myself 24/7.
 
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SuicidalOrganism

SuicidalOrganism

Experienced
May 31, 2023
223
i work 12h a day, so not much time... I've lost all my friends... the only options is movies and youtube...
Damn thats rough, just wondering, what do you work as?
 
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neurotic

neurotic

šˆ š­š”š¢š§š¤ šˆ'š¦ š¢š§ š„šØšÆšž /// šŸ’œšŸ’ššŸ’™
May 24, 2023
80
Listen to music and drive. I'm almost always in my car. It helps me forget anything that has been bothering me and I can recuperate my thoughts after any inconvenience.
 
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crimsonpool

crimsonpool

hikikomori
May 15, 2023
96
wake up, take meds, kill time watching tv or reading or going on twitter. sometimes write or draw but not much because it makes me mad. struggle to fall asleep then repeat
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
Wake up. Play video games. Read manga. Mindlessly browse online. The inescapable mind numbing boredom and banality of life is one thing that will finally push me to CTB. There's no point to anything.
 
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justwantpeace520

Member
Jun 1, 2023
20
Now that I'm single, I wake up, lay there for a bit, drive to work, work, go back into my car, find a spot and fall asleep as I'm living out of my car at the moment.

Non work days, I literally just sit there, and wonder if I could have done anything different, or if I could get her back at any point.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

šŸŽµ Be all, end all šŸŽµ
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Feel bad about myself and read and look for something meaningful to do online
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,761
I usually sleep during daylight because i like the night better, i get up, take a shower, eat something, watch something, daydream about how my life could be, sometimes i go for a walk... it's tedious.
 
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charlotte_

charlotte_

Arcanist
Mar 12, 2023
435
Doing nothing useful to my life, literally
 
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its you i miss

its you i miss

let it out
Jun 3, 2023
4
listen to music, try to talk to my friends if they respond
 
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catastrophix

catastrophix

and my nightmares will have nightmares every night
Feb 20, 2023
94
wake up, take meds, eat breakfast, take more meds, eat a snack, more meds, dinner, more meds. in between that, i take naps, exercise, draw, and write. a lot of the time i end up dissociating and staring at the walls for a long time too. as upsetting as dissociating is, it at least makes time go by faster.
 
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picklemick

Specialist
Jun 28, 2022
304
3 weeks ago. Work. Workout every day. Golf. Spend time with my girlfriend.

Today. Sleep 20-22 hours a day. Not shower. Make rude comments to people trying to help me. Push people away. Not eat. Quit my job. Think about how, and try to ctb constantly.
3 weeks ago. Work. Workout every day. Golf. Spend time with my girlfriend.

Today. Sleep 20-22 hours a day. Not shower. Make rude comments to people trying to help me. Push people away. Not eat. Quit my job. Think about how, and try to ctb constantly.
Oh yea. As previous poster mentioned. Mostly meds all day.
 
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unrest

unrest

Member
Jun 3, 2023
70
wake up, journal a lot, play pc or ps games until i remember to eat, will crochet and draw here and there, listen to music, sleep.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
1,070
Now that I'm single, I wake up, lay there for a bit, drive to work, work, go back into my car, find a spot and fall asleep as I'm living out of my car at the moment.

Non work days, I literally just sit there, and wonder if I could have done anything different, or if I could get her back at any point.
I'm living in my car too. I ended up having to take all the back seats out, and make a plywood base for a small camping mattress.
It's still rough though doing this.
How are you coping with it ?
I do absolutely nothing nowadays, except exist.
I stopped living a long time ago.
Absolutely nothing interests me anymore.
 
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justwantpeace520

Member
Jun 1, 2023
20
I'm living in my car too. I ended up having to take all the back seats out, and make a plywood base for a small camping mattress.
It's still rough though doing this.
How are you coping with it ?
I do absolutely nothing nowadays, except exist.
I stopped living a long time ago.
Absolutely nothing interests me anymo

I can't remove the back seats at the moment as I got this car a few years back when things were a bit better, however, I'm in the midst of lemon lawing it due too various issues with it. Once that completes, I'm planing on getting something like a 08 Blazer to do that with.

It has it positives, i was doing okay with it because I had someone that was there for me, and now, that I don't, it's tough. I've taken sleep aids to sleep my off days away since the break up.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,445
what forums do you browse apart from this? :)
thegearpage
progarchives
neets.net

The last one is the primary forum i post on.
 
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ngossia

Member
Jan 4, 2023
58
thegearpage
progarchives
neets.net

The last one is the primary forum i post on.
Thanks for replying. I used to browse progarchives for new releases but alas i couldn't get into progmetal (for which i intitally went to that site). Discovered many new 2020-21 progrock bands though. :)
 
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