What do you feel like when you just wake up?

[Lost Magic]

After 8 o'clock at night, I feel a little sense of peace. Everything is quiet, my mind settles down and I can rest. I do take meds and kratom tea so I know they help too.
However, when I wake up (no matter what time) I feel a sense of dread and confusion. My mind is all muddled and I feel hopeless. I have this strong feeling that I don't belong here. Then I just think about the night and waiting till the day ends.

How do you feel when you wake up? Are you okay with it or are you more of a night owl type person like me?

 

[EternalShore]

When I wake up, I just feel groggy but usually at least somewhat happy :) I start feeling really terrible after 8 pm and before 5 am tho~

 

[Lost Magic]

When I wake up, I just feel groggy but usually at least somewhat happy :) I start feeling really terrible after 8 pm and before 5 am tho~

Ah, just the opposite of me then, thanks for sharing.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I always feel at peace for a brief moment upon waking up.
Then a few seconds later I get a terrible feeling of anxiety in my stomach, and a feeling of utter dread that I'm still here to suffer yet another day of living death.

 

[DesolateSouls]

When I wake up I feel exactly the same way as you. I'm not really functional until I get some caffeine in me, chug some water, and then I take kratom throughout the day to get me through. I have a feeling that we may be quite similar people, however the meds I take haven't seemed to help too much :(

 

[Lost Magic]

When I wake up I feel exactly the same way as you. I'm not really functional until I get some caffeine in me, chug some water, and then I take kratom throughout the day to get me through. I have a feeling that we may be quite similar people, however the meds I take haven't seemed to help too much :(

Good to hear from a fellow kratom drinker and night person haha. Yeah, I know what you mean when it comes to meds. It can be trial and error. I just take them anyway.

 

[strawb12]

usually pretty good for a few seconds, & then I remember all my problems & all the work I have to do & I feel like shit. Then I usually decide to either, get up if I'm feeling productive, lay in bed & do nothing if I'm depressed, or go on SaSu if I'm somewhere in the middle.

 

[RedHates]

When I wake up, I feel like Im being ripped from my perfect dream world into the shithole reality. When i realize im waking up, all i feel like doing is going back to sleep. I dont ever want to be awake. Depending on the day, ill begrudgingly get up. On days I have to work, I wake up in Anxiety attacks that last hours and are very painful. They wake me up super early too so im tired by the time i actually get to work.

 

[Darkover]

a sense of dread and constant state of feeling uneasy

 

[mia.wallace]

I sympathize and can relate. The evenings are the only time when the turmoil inside my head eases and I'm able to relax a bit. Mornings are god awful. The feelings of despair and doom hit me like a freight train upon waking, and then I just try to make it to another sunset.

 

[alonely]

depressed and suicidal to wake up to another day of this mindless unending unchanging pain and suffering

 

[Victim.Of.Life]

When I wake up, the first 2 seconds I'm unaware of anything, still half sleepy.
Then I take a look to my left, the other side of the bed is empty, no girlfriend anymore.
I try to sleep some more, so i have to be awake and concious for a bit less long.
Most of the time i get out of my bed at 2PM.
Then it's just daydreaming of ctb, till i go to sleep at around 5AM.

I miss her so much, i cant take it anymore.

 

[jacrispy]

When I wake up, the first 2 seconds I'm unaware of anything, still half sleepy.
Then I take a look to my left, the other side of the bed is empty, no girlfriend anymore.
I try to sleep some more, so i have to be awake and concious for a bit less long.
Most of the time i get out of my bed at 2PM. T
hen it's just daydreaming of ctb, till i go to sleep at around 5AM.

I miss her so much, i cant take it anymore.

can't put into words how much I relate to this. the one person who keeps you holding on isn't there anymore and it's just a feeling of dread.

 

[Foxy]

I just feel like shit. I stay up all night sometimes and just sort of crash during the day. It's not until someone calls me that I wake up and kind of feel utterly dissapointed. To be frank I juat really fuckin hate the world and it's people. I can't take advantage of them in any way it feels like 'cause their fuckin stupid or too intelligent and catch on to what I'm trying to do. In a nutshell I'm just dissapointed in people for not being like me. They deserve to suffer and contemplate their end in great detail for me. Fuck them. Thanks for asking the question.

 

[ringo99]

Disappointed that I'm still alive

 

[jemetire]

I felt very dizzy, and then I was about to lose consciousness and pass out.

 

[Techef]

I've become very sensitive to noise, light, and heat as far as physical pain goes. These days when I wake up, it usually means my pain meds are wearing off and/or it's abnormally warm that time of the day. So a sense of dread kicks in, as well as panic, since I have to hurry and take care of as much as possible while the drowsiness/grogginess keeps the full force of pain away. The sense of dread is also generally related to the passing of time, as I get sicker, weaker, and poorer with each coming day. I'm running out of time to CTB while I still have a roof over my head, some level of functionality, and whatever access to credit I have.

 

[Dindurnatha]

groggy, bc I'm chronically sleep-deprived, and after that I'm incredibly annoyed that I once again am Awake and Required To Do Work For Money.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I just think to myself, Great, another shitty day.

 

[ares0027]

Hopeful for a second or two then i realize nothing has changed since yesterday* and extremely sad from that point on

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

When I wake up, there is a feeling of happiness, but that happiness always turns into depression, anger, jealousy, and stress at least thirty seconds after waking up.

 

[bluebird16]

''Here we go again.'' I can't do this anymore. I feel like shit.

 

[soontobedone]

"Oh crap,I'm still here. "

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I immediately say 'I wish I was dead' every morning these days. And I do.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Sad and disappointed because I woke up again.

 

[Kerrtu]

Disappointed that I'm still alive

Me too.

I wake up and I think "no…"

 

[AnxietyHangover]

Sad and disappointed because I woke up again.

Was going to write the same thing. Waking up realizing I'm still alive has become very frustrating.

 

[vitbar]

It really depends. My mental health is episodic. Go through months where the anxiety follows me into my dreams and is there when I wake.

Other times I wake feeling light only for the weight of reality to lower itself into my shoulders.

Then there are good days where things either feel hopeful or sad things don't even come to mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly think it's such a dreadful thing to wake up and realise that I'm still trapped here in this hellish world, there really is no relief from suffering in existing and I find existing tiring as we are stuck with our own thoughts in the prison that is consciousness until we finally cease existing and each second is one second closer to death. I see existing as just being a process of waiting around to die, death is finally freedom from everything.