tasmaka
Neutral good
- Feb 14, 2026
- 39
Ive been forced into church and its events since I was placed in a baptist academy, now a catholic school.
I have no interest or belief in god, only a fear.
The concept of "forgiving all" never sits right for me. Reason: In my classes Ive had numerous teachers who say that god would forgive american school shooters and repeat sexual offenders (specifically pedophiles) because "god forgives all"
And with the concept of forgiveness I struggle to understand why the only unforgiving act is the taking of your own life, not taking others, or crushing their souls, but only yourself. Being mentally ill isnt their problem, self degradation isnt their issue either, but to participate in self harm and even speak the words of suicide is.
Im not one to say its "my only way out", but Ive felt it and tried maybe 5 times now, and just with that, I know its real, and for some people its how it ends, so how can religious members be so critical for the one group of people whos severe struggle is from Themselves.
Allssoooo Recently I was on another forced retreat and suffered a lung collapse (I have severe asthma, the burning of smoke and scents hurt me in church), and I told the teacher I was with and she didnt care, her words "well, you need to be here for god, we can pray about it.."
Hey so thats not how it works lolll
But for me the more I think about how the church I've always been in functions and thinks, I find it feels very blue pilled, and delusional. Everyone in the room believes a man who exists in a spiritual plain will save us all if we worship him for all our years. And even though the world is a horrible place, its "not our problem" as we will live in the eternal kingdom with god himselves. Just now, I feel like it all is just peoples way to not think about the pain of being alive and processing their existence and how you really will die one day.
But thats me lol
Disclaimer: Im not intending to persuade or direct hate towards any religion and its practices, I support the right of religious freedom.
Whats your stance on religion and its connection to suicide, or in general?
I have no interest or belief in god, only a fear.
The concept of "forgiving all" never sits right for me. Reason: In my classes Ive had numerous teachers who say that god would forgive american school shooters and repeat sexual offenders (specifically pedophiles) because "god forgives all"
And with the concept of forgiveness I struggle to understand why the only unforgiving act is the taking of your own life, not taking others, or crushing their souls, but only yourself. Being mentally ill isnt their problem, self degradation isnt their issue either, but to participate in self harm and even speak the words of suicide is.
Im not one to say its "my only way out", but Ive felt it and tried maybe 5 times now, and just with that, I know its real, and for some people its how it ends, so how can religious members be so critical for the one group of people whos severe struggle is from Themselves.
Allssoooo Recently I was on another forced retreat and suffered a lung collapse (I have severe asthma, the burning of smoke and scents hurt me in church), and I told the teacher I was with and she didnt care, her words "well, you need to be here for god, we can pray about it.."
Hey so thats not how it works lolll
But for me the more I think about how the church I've always been in functions and thinks, I find it feels very blue pilled, and delusional. Everyone in the room believes a man who exists in a spiritual plain will save us all if we worship him for all our years. And even though the world is a horrible place, its "not our problem" as we will live in the eternal kingdom with god himselves. Just now, I feel like it all is just peoples way to not think about the pain of being alive and processing their existence and how you really will die one day.
But thats me lol
Disclaimer: Im not intending to persuade or direct hate towards any religion and its practices, I support the right of religious freedom.
Whats your stance on religion and its connection to suicide, or in general?