Discussion What do you even say in a suicide note?

[somedayillbefree]

I'm trying to write notes to the people who deserve an explanation but I don't know what or how much to say. Whenever I start drafting a note I end up spilling years worth of incoherent pent up emotions onto the page, and while I would personally like a chance to express some of those feelings before I go, I'll be fucking dead so who gives a shit what I want. My notes should focus on giving my family/friends some closure but I'm too worn out to write anything even vaguely hopeful or gracious. I used to be able to act, I used to be kind, I used to be a good fucking writer and now the brain rot of mental illness has robbed me of all of that too.

 

[siray]

You could continue writing incoherently and spilling emotions, write pages upon pages all you want, and then edit it with regard to what feelings you plan on inducing in your loved ones.

Try not to hold anyone accountable for your decision to ctb, so as to spare them the illusion that they could have saved your life. I plan on explaining in my suicide note how I lost $2000 dollars in a bad investment, and that my life had been miserable for 10+ years, no one could have alleviated my sorrow and made life bearable for me.

I was planning on writing my note with a clear head, after my morning breakfast and coffee. But now I've decided I don't want to write more than a few sentences. I won't even describe my suffering, choose cold words, to make them believe I was already numb and half-dead when alive.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it can be difficult writing a note. My note will act as a form of closure. I think the main points that I want to get across are, 'that there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace, free from my suffering. The aim of mine is to avoid them being left with unanswered questions and maybe help the grieving process. I think how much to write depends on the individual, but I think mine will explain a bit why I have chosen to do this, but it will mostly focus on the points that I have mentioned above.

 

[Anonymous_A]

I only plan on leaving my dad a note. The thing I've done is just write in notes on my phone, randomly writing things on my mind as to why I chose to ctb. Along with other random things.
I guess this way it will give an idea of how/what I think/feel and such.

 

[ItsTimeToExit]

Search for the "sos handbook". It's a PDF that explains how the bereaved can come to terms with a suicide.

From page 8 it explains the stages of grief and the emotions the bereaved will go through. Using this as a basis, the notes I have written are guided by the stages and the questions that the bereaved will ask themselves. My notes are pre-empting the questions they will eventually ask themselves and giving the answers up front.

 

[Walkingcorpse123]

I'm trying to write notes to the people who deserve an explanation but I don't know what or how much to say. Whenever I start drafting a note I end up spilling years worth of incoherent pent up emotions onto the page, and while I would personally like a chance to express some of those feelings before I go, I'll be fucking dead so who gives a shit what I want. My notes should focus on giving my family/friends some closure but I'm too worn out to write anything even vaguely hopeful or gracious. I used to be able to act, I used to be kind, I used to be a good fucking writer and now the brain rot of mental illness has robbed me of all of that too.

Use that you just wrote here :D

 

[deadverysoon]

i have written some letters to some people who where important to me.

and i have a big "fuck you" - gift for my government for the things they did.

they didnt want to listen :)

 

[Raminiki]

You're right, you'll be dead so it doesn't really matter what you say. My advice would be to make it practical. Explain your method, make sure to say that it was your decision alone and nobody else was involved, and leave instructions for funeral, will and cleanup.

Anything further than that is going to be an emotional mess and is superfluous stress you don't need. In the end, this is a nihilistic universe. What you say doesn't matter and you will cease to exist, don't spend long hours trying to figure out how to phrase things. The more concise the note, the better for everyone involved. It makes things clear and simple.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I don't know if this will help, but try typing the note first in a stream of consciousness. This will make the process much faster and then you can rewrite the final note / letter based on it.

 

[deadverysoon]

You're right, you'll be dead so it doesn't really matter what you say. My advice would be to make it practical. Explain your method, make sure to say that it was your decision alone and nobody else was involved, and leave instructions for funeral, will and cleanup.

Anything further than that is going to be an emotional mess and is superfluous stress you don't need. In the end, this is a nihilistic universe. What you say doesn't matter and you will cease to exist, don't spend long hours trying to figure out how to phrase things. The more concise the note, the better for everyone involved. It makes things clear and simple.

wish i could say it was just my decision. i was put under so much preassure and was abused that much that i just can say:

i am forced to ctb 100% - i never wanted.

but SS was near to give my life a second chance. thats what i want to say very clear. its the only place where i was able to put suicidal thoughts without a judgement. and this is what can really save people. not talking about sucide or creating a big drama makes it even worse for someone who is already suffering.

 

[summers]

I'm keeping it simple. To a very few select people - "I love you, and thank you for being in my life."