What do you do with your life when you know you will be dead within the next couple months

[cosmosis]

I am getting all of my arrangements in order to CTB on my birthday on the 19th of November this year. I have been planning this for months now and will continue to make sure I get everything prepared in the following months until then.

I was curious what you guys would do if you knew you only had a few months left? I don't have much of a bucket list, and no money to travel or do anything truly meaningful or enjoyable, but I was wondering if there were small things I could be doing to spend my time while I am waiting and preparing. Any ideas?

 

[deep-sleeper]

I think I would slowly sell/donate/give to friends all my possessions and write letters to people I think at least deserve a explanation. Otherwise it would live normally

 

[FuneralCry]

If I knew the suffering would be ending in that amount of time then I'd just be relieved that I'll be free from all future unnecessary suffering in this torturous, futile existence that to me is just waiting for death and try to sleep for as long as possible as after all sleeping is the closest to not existing and all I want is to never exist ever again, I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from the abomination of existence, I just hope and wish for no more suffering.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Enjoy every second of it. Whatever there is to enjoy in this current world. Make peace with what my life was, and accept it for all its good, bad, shortcomings, triumphs, troubles, and joys. Delight in the fact that I will not be here to see the future of the post-COVID world. It may be good, but I'm not seeing that anytime soon. And slowly walk myself up to the moment I catch the bus. I won't be remembered. I don't need to write a note nor a memoir (as if I'm that important to any of these people.) I will die alone, and that is my intent. I'd die alone anyway, even if I were surrounded by so-called "loved ones." My method is going to be a little uncomfortable, but that's the price I'm willing to pay in order to leave this hellscape. I fully accept and embrace what comes after this, good or bad. I bring myself to serenity.

 

[quietwoods]

I think I would slowly sell/donate/give to friends all my possessions and write letters to people I think at least deserve an explanation. Otherwise it would live normally

Not recommended. More than one person on here has given away their possessions only to survive and then either have nothing or go through the extremely awkward process of asking for stuff back.

Always plan for failure.

And that's assuming that suddenly giving a lot of your stuff away doesn't raise alarm bells.

Just leave a will and designate stuff there.

I am getting all of my arrangements in order to CTB on my birthday on the 19th of November this year. I have been planning this for months now and will continue to make sure I get everything prepared in the following months until then.

I was curious what you guys would do if you knew you only had a few months left? I don't have much of a bucket list, and no money to travel or do anything truly meaningful or enjoyable, but I was wondering if there were small things I could be doing to spend my time while I am waiting and preparing. Any ideas?

Catch up on my reading list, get my affairs in order, write a note, quit job and enjoy freedom, watch my favorite movies, do some final traveling.

 

[deep-sleeper]

Not recommended. More than one person on here has given away their possessions only to survive and then either have nothing or go through the extremely awkward process of asking for stuff back.

Always plan for failure.

And that's assuming that suddenly giving a lot of your stuff away doesn't raise alarm bells.

Just leave a will and designate stuff there.

True…

 

[kcon1243]

I'd get my fuck on even more than I already am, use a shit ton of drugs and probably do some traveling... probably to south America on a quest for nembutal to go out with a peaceful bang.

 

[Alias Pluto]

Don't get pregnant or get anyone pregnant

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Make the most of it, tie up loose ends, and maybe finish Fire Emblem: Three Houses.

 

[bloominghopelessne]

I don't know if I will die in the coming months, although I sincerely want it, but even the thought of another attempt brings on terrible anxiety. At the same time, I feel impulses and plans in my head that could be carried out. Over the years I've realized it's better not to plan every single detail too precisely, because it drains you no matter how much you want it. There will always be hours, maybe even days, of suffering and fear, unless you have something at home that can quickly do what needs to be done, leaving no time to change your mind. I thought about working for a while to get a license for a gun and then buying one, leaving the rest of the money for funeral services and gifts for loved ones. In the near future, I wanted to literally get rid of all personal belongings through throwing things away, selling, or donating. Right now, though, the likelihood of that is low, and all the methods feel unusually difficult and stressful for me. I don't know what to do, I'm stuck. I don't want anything. Maybe I would eat some food I don't often let myself have pizza, soda, sushi. I would keep a diary and go for walks when I had the physical and emotional strength, not only in the forest but also in parks, to fully affirm my decision while observing society.

 

[Dejected 55]

I'm not doing much of anything because nothing is of interest for me to do.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

I'd be thinking of it as a show or a movie, just thinking about the credits scene, of all the events that transpired before, and what lays ahead

 

[Rockman]

Growing marijuana seems perfect for a few months.

 

[Eriktf]

i was convicted at a point that i would die so i didnt care about debt so i toke out a few loans like littery credited pizza delivery or any ting i could then i survived my attempt and was left with a lot to pay still not recoverd from paying back all my pizza orders

 

[usernamesarehard]

Hey! Another November baby. My birthday is on the 14th.

Anyway, if I was going to wait for my birthday to ctb, I'd probably do what I'm doing now. Going to work, doing things I like at home, buying shit I don't really need, but I think is cool and isn't too expensive. I do have money saved up so I could go traveling, but I'd rather my mom have the money. I'll be dead and won't remember the experiences anyway. Maybe I'll walk around the city.

Things you could do:
If you like puzzles that might be an option. I love doing puzzles and you can find plenty for cheap.
Revisit favorite media (movies, books, tv shows, videogames, etc.).
Maybe art?
If you're able to get to one, maybe volunteer at an animal shelter (assuming you don't already have pets and want to be around animals)?

 

[somewhatdeadly]

pretty much same shit,why would i want to do anything?

 

[Dejected 55]

Hey! Another November baby. My birthday is on the 14th.

Weirdly random, but that's the birthday of the woman that I love... who doesn't love me... the randomest reminders of her keep creeping into my life even though I don't go looking for them anymore.

 

[Busridin'26]

Nov birthdays ftw.

I'd personally like to be super laxed and chill. Tho thats the opposite of my natural state. I'd love to just be chillin/eating/reading/watching whatever... doing whatever. Not entirely that dif from what I do now but with a a peace of the end would be greattttt.

I've given up on the big like bucket list type shit like travelling. Money sucks. I just want some peace. Hoping to be gone by the end of this yr. On/by my birthday would actually be nice...

 

[eggsausagerice]

living while waiting for a planned date to come really sucks. there's hardly anything to look forward to, even if you find fun stuff to do. knowing that everything i'm doing until my date comes just makes me feel like there's no point in anything. i feel like i'm too boring and sad for anyone to want to hang out with me anymore. i don't have transportation or the money to do anything fun. i think that i could fall off the face of the earth and no one would notice.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Make a list of all the things you want to try and do before you die. O: