What do you do when you feel terrible x 1000?

[venin]

I usually eat junkfood, go for really long walks, watch the blue sky and imagine I am one with it and there's no more suffering, drink a lot of coffee, search the news for suicide cases, fantesize about being free from all of this. Happy. At peace.

What's your go to when you feel you just can't put up with it anymore?

 

[savoytruffle]

put on headphones, go up to the roof to look at the planes overhead to search them on flightradar and imagine myself being up there in those flights, just going away to wherever they go

 

[venin]

put on headphones, go up to the roof to look at the planes overhead to search them on flightradar and imagine myself being up there in those flights, just going away to wherever they go

That sounds awesome. Thank you for sharing

 

[Hodius]

Take Benzos and Alcohol

 

[venin]

Take Benzos and Alcohol

Fare enough

 

[WonderingSoul]

Music, but it's starting to get worse, so nowadays I just daydream about performing CTB properly.

 

[venin]

Music, but it's starting to get worse, so nowadays I just daydream about performing CTB properly.

Lately it's been a disaster for me also. Daydreaming about CTB is kinda the only thing that keeps me from not CTB-ing that instant, actually.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is simply no choice but to suffer in my case, as long as one exists they cannot find relief and escape from themselves, only the thought of eternal non-existence is close to comforting but sadly that still feels like a distance away. It's truly so terrible how existing makes people suffer so much but I see this as being the harsh, harmful reality, to me peace could never exist in this world but I see sleeping as the best way to pass the time if one is able to sleep as it's the closest thing to not-existing.

 

[アホペンギン]

I used to listen to music but that doesn't help anymore, unfortunately. Now, what I do is daydream about ctb, for hours each day.

 

[Bluebunnysky]

Drugs

 

[CTB Fella]

Overdose.

 

[venin]

I used to listen to music but that doesn't help anymore, unfortunately. Now, what I do is daydream about ctb, for hours each day.

Me2

 

[AbsurdCapybara]

I eat junk food and drink lots of coffee too, I love it, barely feel any guilt at all lol. I do something small that gives me control of a positive outcome like grooming my dogs or cleaning some part of my house or tending to my houseplants. Being out in nature helps me too. Sometimes I have a good cry and after I'm done doing that I have a fair chance of feeling a tad better and might look for something else to do. Or just cry myself to sleep. Sleep is nice, as close to being dead and it's comforting.

 

[The depresionator]

Take Benzos and Alcohol

Yup bottle of vodka and bunch of xanax. Hope it'll be the time you black out forever but you never do.

 

[lostmeaning]

There's nothing I can do anymore. Nothing makes me feel better. I am truly done but I don't have a gun.

 

[venin]

Yup bottle of vodka and bunch of xanax. Hope it'll be the time you black out forever but you never do.

How is it, in comparison to just being drunk?

There's nothing I can do anymore. Nothing makes me feel better. I am truly done but I don't have a gun.

I think I'm slowly getting there

 

[The depresionator]

How is it, in comparison to just being drunk?

Dangerous. You take a few with some booze and you won't care about anything or anyone. Eventually as you keep hitting it hard you black out and whole days or more can disappear, and in the meantime you were still awake doing things.

Only really something to be done if you don't give a fuck. Check r/bartardstories on reddit to give you an idea of what can happen.

 

[venin]

I eat junk food and drink lots of coffee too, I love it, barely feel any guilt at all lol. I do something small that gives me control of a positive outcome like grooming my dogs or cleaning some part of my house or tending to my houseplants. Being out in nature helps me too. Sometimes I have a good cry and after I'm done doing that I have a fair chance of feeling a tad better and might look for something else to do. Or just cry myself to sleep. Sleep is nice, as close to being dead and it's comforting.

Yeah, I think we fear death a little too much.

There was a saying that made me feel way better about death, in a rational way:

"The cradle rocks above an abyss, and common sense tells us that our existence is but a brief crack of light between two eternities of darkness. Although the two are identical twins, man, as a rule, views the prenatal abyss with more calm than the one he is heading for (at some forty-five hundred heartbeats an hour)."

Vladimir Nabokov

Dangerous. You take a few with some booze and you won't care about anything or anyone. Eventually as you keep hitting it hard you black out and whole days or more can disappear, and in the meantime you were still awake doing things.

Only really something to be done if you don't give a fuck. Check r/bartardstories on reddit to give you an idea of what can happen.

Ty