what can i use from a chemistry lab to ctb?

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i keep coming back to this thread even tho im in "recovery" and wanted to stop making ctb plans. there r about 10-14 days left till i get my keys for work. i still didnt have the opportunity to check out the lab but i might as well do that when i get my keys and then ctb on a sunday bc no one will be in the building then. i have therapy tmrw idk how honest i want to be. my problems arent solvable. no matter how many ppl im surrounded or how many friends i have there is this hole that nothing fills. im sorry for venting under this thread i just genuinely have no one to talk to. i dont remember the last time anyone ever rlly hugged me except for my mother a couple of months ago.