I am in extreme emotional pain from a ruined wasted life I poured my soul into building only to end up broke and practically homeless unemployed 3 years at age 37.
I can not stop crying 24/7, like I mean eternal distress. They've tried every drug in the book on me and nothing helps.
The Dr just can't understand how the only thing I want is to die and nothing he prescribes makes a dent in it.
He even made me so a urine analysis because he didn't believe I wasn't using illicit drugs to make me this way - shocker it came back clean except for the klonopin he prescribed and NyQuil I took while extremely sick.
I really don't know what to do anymore - the pain is so extreme - but since my dr has taken me off almost everything - my motivation and lack of inhibition to commit suicide have subsided.
Shocker, antidepressants push people to the actual act of committing??? Don't tell big pharma!
I'm so trapped - I'm crawling out of my skin - I want to die so bad - but every time I go to start the process, my brain now shuts it down.
It's like being at the point of being the most miserable ever - my brain pushes the ability to commit away - almost like it enjoys the misery.
Idk what to do - I can't anymore - but I also can't commit.
I'm 100% atheist - but this is bringing me the closest to believing I may be wrong and I'm in hell - an eternal one I can't get myself out of.
I can not stop crying 24/7, like I mean eternal distress. They've tried every drug in the book on me and nothing helps.
The Dr just can't understand how the only thing I want is to die and nothing he prescribes makes a dent in it.
He even made me so a urine analysis because he didn't believe I wasn't using illicit drugs to make me this way - shocker it came back clean except for the klonopin he prescribed and NyQuil I took while extremely sick.
I really don't know what to do anymore - the pain is so extreme - but since my dr has taken me off almost everything - my motivation and lack of inhibition to commit suicide have subsided.
Shocker, antidepressants push people to the actual act of committing??? Don't tell big pharma!
I'm so trapped - I'm crawling out of my skin - I want to die so bad - but every time I go to start the process, my brain now shuts it down.
It's like being at the point of being the most miserable ever - my brain pushes the ability to commit away - almost like it enjoys the misery.
Idk what to do - I can't anymore - but I also can't commit.
I'm 100% atheist - but this is bringing me the closest to believing I may be wrong and I'm in hell - an eternal one I can't get myself out of.
