FlREWORK
New Member
- Nov 16, 2024
- 1
Hi,
I have been contemplating death and suicide for a long time now, basically since I'm a teenager. I'm still unsure about all of it. It also seems like I can't make my "perfect death" happen and because of that, I can't seem to actually commit. But this is not the reason I am writting this.
I'll say this though, I am sure that I will commit suicide someday and that someday is becoming sooner and sooner as life is becoming harder and harder without any hope in sight.
I fear a lot for my partner and for my parents. I promised them multiples times I would never try again and I want to make it easier for them, I want to reduce to a minimal the pain I will give them by killing myself. I feel like writting some sort of suicide letter might answer questions but it really hurt and stresses me to know the pain I will be causing, I can't help but feel this is not enough, I have to leave them more before I go but I do not know what and how.
Anyone have some similar thoughts? Any idea on how to ease the pain I will cause on them ?
I have been contemplating death and suicide for a long time now, basically since I'm a teenager. I'm still unsure about all of it. It also seems like I can't make my "perfect death" happen and because of that, I can't seem to actually commit. But this is not the reason I am writting this.
I'll say this though, I am sure that I will commit suicide someday and that someday is becoming sooner and sooner as life is becoming harder and harder without any hope in sight.
I fear a lot for my partner and for my parents. I promised them multiples times I would never try again and I want to make it easier for them, I want to reduce to a minimal the pain I will give them by killing myself. I feel like writting some sort of suicide letter might answer questions but it really hurt and stresses me to know the pain I will be causing, I can't help but feel this is not enough, I have to leave them more before I go but I do not know what and how.
Anyone have some similar thoughts? Any idea on how to ease the pain I will cause on them ?