- Apr 2, 2023
It feels like no matter what I do my issues are brushed off. When I first started to self harm people treated it like it was a phase, when I relapsed my parents just got mad at me, when I relapsed again my parents barely Even reacted. When I told my parents I was suicidal they accused me of just trying to avoid responsibilities. When I ran away from home in middle school no one acknowledged that i was crying for help, I just got in trouble instead. Whenever I cried, my parents told me I was manipulative. When I finally go into therapy my parents got mad because I wasn’t talking about what they wanted me to talk about. When my therapist tried to explain to my parents that I needed farther treatment and wanted to get me tested, my parents made me stop seeing that therapist. My parents never believed me whenever I told them I was struggling, they just thought I was lazy. They would threaten to take me to a mental hospital as a punishment, but when I told them to take me there because I didn’t know what else to do they just said that was for people who actually needed it, not me. When I had a panic attack my dad got frustrated with me because the breathing techniques weren’t working and my mom, who caused it, said it was my fault and I was doing it to myself. my parents got frustrated with me for barely being able to do the bare minimum and having no motivation or passion instead of seeing that I desperately needed help. Every diagnosis that was brought up as a possibility was dismissed. Adhd According to them Just doesn’t exist. I couldn’t be depressed because I didn’t seem depressed to them. I couldn’t have anxiety because everyone gets anxious and if my mom can deal with her anxiety disorder I should be able to as well. I didn’t even bring it up to them when I was told I might have autism and/or a personality disorder, I knew it wouldn’t go well.