So I'm in my mid 30s, living with my parents, I don't have a job, I'm autistic, and I've been looking back if I changed my decisions what would I been in a better situation.
No matter how many times I looked back on my life and the choices I made, I'm finding outside of investing into BTC when it was in the cents. There was nothing I could've done different without using future knowledge that could've gotten me in a better situation. And then, even if I did invest into something like BTC when it was in the cents. It realistically wouldn't changed my life until last year.
Like I wanted to go into the military when I was in HS, but I wanted to go in as an officer. So I ended up getting 4 degrees (aerospace, general IT, network, and a higher network degree with a focus on cyber security). Through my time getting them I did the learn to code crap, I tried to start my own companies, I tried to find love but couldn't and only found a ton of catfish, and so on. I found out later that the military doesn't accept autistic people, companies generally stay away autistic people to the point in some cities it is estimated we are about 60% of the homeless and we have a stupid high unemployment rate. I've tried building up contacts and all of them ended up ghosting me or not doing what they promised me. I found the demand for workers was BS back then and even today it is BS unless if you go for min wage jobs. On top of all that I tried the inventing and licensing, and nothing came from that.
I thought about if I went for other degrees. At first I started thinking about accounting, but I almost failed things like micro economics and had to beg my teacher to allow me to pass. College and general school was horrible to the point where I had to only take 2 classes at a time. So anything with a even higher degree wouldn't be possible anyways. I worked in manufacturing in a few places and got fired for being different. But even before then, I was harassed to high hell and back, and I got extremely suicidal during that time. Plus I hated the work to an extreme.
The only jobs that might accept me is low end min wage or near min wage jobs. Stuff you don't get retirement and you have no idea what your schedule is week by week. I would still end up being stuck living with my parents because the other option is working 3 to 4 jobs to pay for the basics. And while some might say I should do that, if that is what my life will be then I might as well end it.
And then even if I took the BTC path, as I mention it wouldn't of seriously paid off until last year. My granddad died last year. He was honestly my favorite person in the world. He dealt with extreme poverty and I would've loved to helped him live more a happy life and spent more time with him.
It just pisses me off that there wasn't any non-forced errors I made outside of the BTC thing. And again, that would've only paid off last year. That I did what society told me to. I stay out of trouble, I went to school, I learned about new tech, and so on.
No matter how many times I looked back on my life and the choices I made, I'm finding outside of investing into BTC when it was in the cents. There was nothing I could've done different without using future knowledge that could've gotten me in a better situation. And then, even if I did invest into something like BTC when it was in the cents. It realistically wouldn't changed my life until last year.
Like I wanted to go into the military when I was in HS, but I wanted to go in as an officer. So I ended up getting 4 degrees (aerospace, general IT, network, and a higher network degree with a focus on cyber security). Through my time getting them I did the learn to code crap, I tried to start my own companies, I tried to find love but couldn't and only found a ton of catfish, and so on. I found out later that the military doesn't accept autistic people, companies generally stay away autistic people to the point in some cities it is estimated we are about 60% of the homeless and we have a stupid high unemployment rate. I've tried building up contacts and all of them ended up ghosting me or not doing what they promised me. I found the demand for workers was BS back then and even today it is BS unless if you go for min wage jobs. On top of all that I tried the inventing and licensing, and nothing came from that.
I thought about if I went for other degrees. At first I started thinking about accounting, but I almost failed things like micro economics and had to beg my teacher to allow me to pass. College and general school was horrible to the point where I had to only take 2 classes at a time. So anything with a even higher degree wouldn't be possible anyways. I worked in manufacturing in a few places and got fired for being different. But even before then, I was harassed to high hell and back, and I got extremely suicidal during that time. Plus I hated the work to an extreme.
The only jobs that might accept me is low end min wage or near min wage jobs. Stuff you don't get retirement and you have no idea what your schedule is week by week. I would still end up being stuck living with my parents because the other option is working 3 to 4 jobs to pay for the basics. And while some might say I should do that, if that is what my life will be then I might as well end it.
And then even if I took the BTC path, as I mention it wouldn't of seriously paid off until last year. My granddad died last year. He was honestly my favorite person in the world. He dealt with extreme poverty and I would've loved to helped him live more a happy life and spent more time with him.
It just pisses me off that there wasn't any non-forced errors I made outside of the BTC thing. And again, that would've only paid off last year. That I did what society told me to. I stay out of trouble, I went to school, I learned about new tech, and so on.
