Discussion What are your ways to go more insane?

[Doemu]

I wonder what are you doing in porpoise to lower your mental health so CTB would be easier.

Mines are:
1. No sex
2. Isolation
3. Self sabotaging
4. Insane media stimulation

And yours?

 

[Adûnâi]

I'd kill myself precisely because I will never have sex or any kind of socialisation or humanoid touching. What media are you watching? Probably some anime cartoons, judging by the avatar?

 

[Dliena]

Being cooped up inside. For some reason I've been finding myself wanting to go out more like the escapist in me just wants to get as far away from anyone and anywhere
as possible.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

1. On SaSu for hours looking at methods, being hyper focused on death
2. starving self
3. SH
4. Substances (alcohol, nicotine, etc.)
5. Also self sabotaging :'>
6. self isolation

 

[onbekend]

Just living any longer is making me go more insane. I'm losing my mind more and more everyday.

 

[Doemu]

1. On SaSu for hours looking at methods, being hyper focused on death
2. starving self
3. SH
4. Substances (alcohol, nicotine, etc.)
5. Also self sabotaging :'>
6. self isolation

Need to implement the 1 and the 2 for me too

 

[SexyIncél]

• Longterm committed relationships with disrespectful buffoons. They can turn you into a shell of yourself
• Lacking intense passion
• Working in a workplace

 

[Doemu]

I'd kill myself precisely because I will never have sex or any kind of socialisation or humanoid touching. What media are you watching? Probably some anime cartoons, judging by the avatar?

Any type, anime, songs, gore, what ever that I could say is an apology of insanity.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

Any type, anime, songs, gore, what ever that I could say is an apology of insanity.

I've meant to mention this for quite a while now but I absolutely love your sayaka pfp Madoka magica is one of my favorite things ever (◕w◕)♡

 

[The Schizoid]

What do you mean by insane media stimulation? Like weird porn and gore?

 

[hikikomorizombie]

self harm, never being sober, scrollingscrollingscrolling, watching suicide vids, forcing myself to remember & think abt things i don't want to

 

[PrisonPlanetBreak]

Diving deep in conspiracy theories propagated on /r/Aliens, stating that the american government has already made contact with extraterrestrials, and it's keeping anti-gravity and free energy under wraps such that it doesn't kill the fossil-based industry (which is the cow they love to milk for money most), or worse, to weaponize the technology... I don't even call it a conspiracy theory anymore, I have kind of come to believe it too, and this plays a large role in me wanting to CTB. Imagine having the potential to flourish as a civilization, but tucking the technology away because it kills the dominating economy and the world's current superpowers...​

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Diving deep in conspiracy theories propagated on /r/Aliens, stating that the american government has already made contact with extraterrestrials, and it's keeping anti-gravity and free energy under wraps such that it doesn't kill the fossil-based industry (which is the cow they love to milk for money most), or worse, to weaponize the technology... I don't even call it a conspiracy theory anymore, I have kind of come to believe it too, and this plays a large role in me wanting to CTB. Imagine having the potential to flourish as a civilization, but tucking the technology away because it kills the dominating economy and the world's current superpowers...​

Did you watch the SOL foundations videos and whistleblower testimonies?

All these aerospace companies and government hiding this shit under wraps, apparently most countries know about this through the Five Eyes alliance.

Typical, life changing technologies and a mind bending change to our outlook on the universe is being suppressed by greed to keep power and control, we are destroying the planet like angry apes and we probably could have been in a much different world if the events during the 40s and 50s were different and disclosed for the world and academia.

Mind, knowing humans i can imagine it'd lead to more control.

 

[PrisonPlanetBreak]

@The_spooky_name_guy Yeah, I am familiar with the videos and testimonies, it is the core foundation of the subreddit right now. Unfortunately, although I am aware that European countries are likely involved as well, news about this has not gained any traction over here, at least not in the third world country I live. And indeed that's been on my mind too... disclosure is bound to happen, even if I won't live to see it. But there's a chance that if free energy is real, the government will somehow find means to monetize it... which of course will be a huge red flag to any other civilizations out there, and as such we might end up failures of the galaxy (if we aren't already).​

 

[sserafim]

Thinking about all of the suffering in the world and how everyone is born just to be a slave to capitalism and society until they eventually die. Thinking about how everyone is enslaved for most of their adult life by work and their jobs/"careers". Thinking about how people have to work until they die, unfortunately, that's just the sad, depressing reality.

 

[cryone]

browsing sasu to keep my suicide ideation fresh, ghosting people i care abt, adopting a fucked sleep schedule so i can be alone n more disassociated w/ society.

 

[timeless001]

Letting the world know about all my shameful secrets.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

@The_spooky_name_guy Yeah, I am familiar with the videos and testimonies, it is the core foundation of the subreddit right now. Unfortunately, although I am aware that European countries are likely involved as well, news about this has not gained any traction over here, at least not in the third world country I live. And indeed that's been on my mind too... disclosure is bound to happen, even if I won't live to see it. But there's a chance that if free energy is real, the government will somehow find means to monetize it... which of course will be a huge red flag to any other civilizations out there, and as such we might end up failures of the galaxy (if we aren't already).​

Same dude, i'm in the UK and no one has even heard anything so it seems, though most are trying to survive over here since our country is fuckkked,

I personally believe in this timeline, we just die off like a fart in the wind, humanity in my eyes need a spiritual future but good luck with that rofl
Keep the bread and circus rolling on i guess.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

1. Getting too drunk
2. Social media stimulation
3. Being awake for days on end
4. Fantasizing about suicide and death all day

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I go insane just from living. I don't want to intentionally make myself go insane as that just isn't what I want. I want peace, not insanity

 

[BlessedBeTheFlame]

Every time I came close, I saw something that started triggering a depersonalization episode. I compulsively look at things about how I'm worthless scum and sometimes I see something so intense, that for the next few hours I can't break out of an episode. I bought some bottles of beer in hopes it will help ease my SI (I'm straight-edge, so this is unusual for me), but the last time I tried with my plan, I just called my mom instead. It's too scary to do on demand, but if I'm done, I might go online and look through everything showing why I should CTB.

 

[Umacon]

I wonder what are you doing in porpoise to lower your mental health so CTB would be easier.

Mines are:
1. No sex
2. Isolation
3. Self sabotaging
4. Insane media stimulation

And yours?

Exactly the same here!

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Play Smash Ultimate online.

 

[rollingthunder]

thinking about how we're all cogs in the capitalist machine

looking at my ex-bf's and ex-friends' profiles to see what they're up to

smoking too much weed

eating too little

when not working or sleeping, just laying in bed browsing my laptop/phone for hours on end

pondering the future

 

[4everDone]

Being an NPC.

 

[acidbit]

learning about every atrocity the CIA has ever committed is a good way to make myself feel worse. it feels worse knowing no one gives a shit

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

• Browsing SS (semi)regularly
• Not responding to/distancing myself from friends and family, realizing they can't help me
• Being neurodivergent in a world that is made for neurotypicals and slowly kills those who don't fit that mold
• Working a schedule that makes it impossible to maintain relationships or make new ones
• Commuting into the city where there are scores of homeless people, who have been abandoned by society writ large
• Thinking/reading about how the measures in place to "help" people are just to make them get back to slaving away under capitalism
• Knowing that full societal/economic/ecological collapse is underway and it's far too late to reverse track
• Knowing that attempts to fight back or change the world have been mostly fruitless thus far, and we're spiraling towards collapse anyway
• Living in my past where I had a semblance of happiness, knowing that I will never have anything like that again

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Oh yeah, sometimes I go over all the messages I exchanged with the woman from this site who abandoned me in 2020 (still don't blame her for that btw). It's excruciating to read through but once I start I can't look away from all these painful memories that started out so happy and later became so tragic when she just gave up on me like that. We only messaged each other for like five days but those five days were really intense and in those moments they were really the closest I ever got to being in a relationship and finally shedding my incel label once and for all but I guess it wasn't meant to be. She may have deleted her Discord account but I copied every message into a Google doc for archive purposes and it turns out that it's 165 pages.