draekmir
I rate life 0 stars
- Sep 9, 2023
- 82
I personally don't see it as a last resort as most would call it as much as what I've wanted all along.
I can't speak for other countries but I've tried to do everything the "right way" here in the US by seeking therapists and psychiatry and even admitting myself into multiple mental hospitals just to be told "you're suffering from PTSD from being sexually assaulted as a child" over and over again, yet I've had these thoughts and feelings of hating this life and not wanting to be here long before that.
I find no pleasure in life and never wished to be here, as far back as I can remember all I've wanted was for this painful world to end or something interesting to happen like me getting hit by a bus or something but everyone just wants to blame it on depression or PTSD. I don't see it as that. I don't see it as a mental illness or a last resort, I see it as maybe I just wasn't meant for this world and there wouldn't be anything wrong with that.
I can't speak for other countries but I've tried to do everything the "right way" here in the US by seeking therapists and psychiatry and even admitting myself into multiple mental hospitals just to be told "you're suffering from PTSD from being sexually assaulted as a child" over and over again, yet I've had these thoughts and feelings of hating this life and not wanting to be here long before that.
I find no pleasure in life and never wished to be here, as far back as I can remember all I've wanted was for this painful world to end or something interesting to happen like me getting hit by a bus or something but everyone just wants to blame it on depression or PTSD. I don't see it as that. I don't see it as a mental illness or a last resort, I see it as maybe I just wasn't meant for this world and there wouldn't be anything wrong with that.