Discussion What are your thoughts on making videos/photos while CTB

[LastOrder]

I saw a tiktok the other day with slide photos from a girl who (i guessed) was around 16 years old, that went viral and i cant stop thinking about it. I feel indifferent about the whole thing.
Her CTB method was (i think) jumping off a highway bridge and the first photo was her with the caption '1 hour before' , then a picture of the bridge and the next few slides were her in a hospital bed and showing off the whole needles and tube situation followed by a few slides saying the whole 'people around you love you' thing.
Most of the comments expressed being happy she lived and how strong she is, but a few mentioned it was odd she took so many photos. Some said it was probably in case she survived, which just all feels off... idk.

The reason i feel indifferent about it because while currently planning my CTB i want to leave videos for my loved ones instead of a note, because it would be easier for me to express my feelings, since my writing isnt that good. I also do streaming and youtube full time and i am debating making a thank you video to everyone, because my followers are the absolute sweetest and i am so grateful for them. Id upload it and schedule it for the day after, just to make sure. Nothing graphic ofcourse, just expressing my appreciation for everyones support, how i loved making the videos and interacting etc. And that i wont be posting anymore. I just dont know if in the end it is any different from posting a slideshow on tiktok. I dont even know why it matters but its just been on my mind.

Another side of this is people on SS livestreaming their CTB, the infamous SN videocall, and people discussing doing it on a private discord call. This also feels different because i completely understand why you would do this. People here understand, they dont waver you off and we all know what its REALLY like. I dont want to be alone either so i think ill have my favorite movie up. I know you come in this world alone and you die alone, but having people who are alike by your side when it happens must be one hell of a relieve.

So with that being my question; what do you think about documenting your journey? For the people who are planning to CTB, is this also part of your plan or what are you planning to leave behind?

 

[Georg]

I saw a tiktok the other day

I knew this thread would start like this....

My thoughts on making videos/photos while CTB:

 

[FuneralCry]

The tiktok thing just sounds like someone attention seeking, isn't that website just for bored kids anyway. But if people want to make a video then that's fine for them, as long as doing something like that doesn't cause other people to interfere in their ctb plans, I never really understand the desire to be remembred, I would rather pass away in peace far away from other people and just be forgotten about.

 

[AkaRed]

I actually think documenting your journey is insanely interesting, and if I get worse- it's something I'm choosing to pursue. I'm tired of people being so willfully ignorant all the time, even when you reach out as hard as you can. Since we're truly alone on this planet, no matter what, I might as well let people know what the fuck they missed.
I don't know about live-streaming CTB, but I can't fault people for the methods they choose. Mental health needs to be taken more seriously, and people need to start seeing the reality that they ignore on a daily basis.
<3

 

[Death is my goal]

it's stupid and unnecessary, if you gonna die just die

 

[Housefly]

In my mind, the process of dying fluctuates between being a violent and gruesome self inflicted end where I feel physically what I feel mentally about myself. Other times it's more romantic and soothing as if to give myself the gentlest push to sleep. My death is my business and it would be wrong to put that on people who don't/will never feel what I feel. People shouldn't know how horrible it is. I watch because I want to and I feel vicarious pleasure but that's not for normies.

 

[Rocket]

LastOrder, you're a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your information and thoughts on this.

Many in the family here have been talking about video lately. Hadn't looked at YouTube's current policies, they are extensive. Guidelines are at https://support.google.com/youtube/answer/2802245?hl=en and thought it might be helpful to post some of it so people know what would take a video down:

"This Community Guidelines policy applies to videos, video descriptions, comments, live streams, and any other YouTube product or feature.Keep in mind that this isn't a complete list. Please note these policies also apply to external links in your content. This can include clickable URLs, verbally directing users to other sites in video, as well as other forms.

Don't post the following content:

• Content promoting or glorifying suicide, self-harm, or eating disorders
• Instructions on how to die by suicide, engage in self-harm, or engage in eating disorders (including how to conceal them)
• Content related to suicide, self-harm, or eating disorders that is targeted at minors
• Graphic images of self-harm
• Visuals of bodies of suicide victims unless blurred or covered so they are fully obscured
• Videos showing the lead-up to a suicide, or suicide attempts and suicide rescue footage without sufficient context
• Content showing participation in or instructions for suicide and self-harm challenges (e.g. Blue Whale or Momo challenges)
• Suicide notes or letters without sufficient context
• Content that features weight-based bullying in the context of eating disorders

In some cases we may restrict, rather than remove, suicide, self-harm, or eating disorder content if it meets one or more of the following criteria (for example, by placing an age-restriction, a warning, or a Crisis Resource Panel on the video). Please note this is not a complete list:

• Content that is meant to be educational, documentary, scientific, or artistic
• Content that is of public interest
• Graphic content that is sufficiently blurred
• Dramatizations or scripted content, which includes but is not limited to animations, video games, music videos, and clips from movies and shows
• Detailed discussion of suicide or self-harm methods, locations and hotspots
• Graphic descriptions of self-harm or suicide
• Eating disorder recovery content that includes details which may be triggering to at-risk viewers

Best practices for creators posting content about suicide, self-harm, or eating disorders
We recommend using these best practices in content related to suicide or self-harm to protect your viewers from harm and distress:

• Avoid showing the person who died by suicide, and respect their, and their families', privacy. Learn more.
• Use wording that is positive and supportive, and focuses on recovery, prevention, and stories of hope.
• Include information and resources for suicide and self-harm prevention and coping strategies. Try to include it in both the video itself and the description of the video.
• Do not use sensationalist language or dramatic visuals.
• Provide context, but avoid discussing how the victim died by suicide. Do not mention the methods or locations.
• Blur content that contains images of suicide victims. You can blur your video with the Editor in YouTube Studio. Learn more.

Anonymous video uploading sites like Anonfiles are much less restrictive. In my opinion, the YouTube guidelines are harsh, but it's their site so their rules. In many ways, following these best practices provide the best chance to have a video stay live. It's an intensely personal decision and I respect people's freedom of choice.

 

[cherrysquick]

i want to leave as much stuff as i can after i cbt because i deeply fear about getting forgotten. letters, belongings etc just to make sure people still remember me for a while, which sounds pathetic now that i think about it LOL id also love to livestream my cbt and wouldnt mind my video being shared around online or whatever since, yknow, attention. sucks to think my family and friends would probably watch it though

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

I don't want to traumatize more people so I do not fancy the idea of it.

 

[henry22]

the infamous SN videocall

Can you link to this or provide more info?

 

[unnormal9]

Fucking stupid. Suicide a private thing, not a public display of attention.

 

[CentreMid]

I saw a tiktok the other day with slide photos from a girl who (i guessed) was around 16 years old, that went viral and i cant stop thinking about it. I feel indifferent about the whole thing.
Her CTB method was (i think) jumping off a highway bridge and the first photo was her with the caption '1 hour before' , then a picture of the bridge and the next few slides were her in a hospital bed and showing off the whole needles and tube situation followed by a few slides saying the whole 'people around you love you' thing.
Most of the comments expressed being happy she lived and how strong she is, but a few mentioned it was odd she took so many photos. Some said it was probably in case she survived, which just all feels off... idk.

The reason i feel indifferent about it because while currently planning my CTB i want to leave videos for my loved ones instead of a note, because it would be easier for me to express my feelings, since my writing isnt that good. I also do streaming and youtube full time and i am debating making a thank you video to everyone, because my followers are the absolute sweetest and i am so grateful for them. Id upload it and schedule it for the day after, just to make sure. Nothing graphic ofcourse, just expressing my appreciation for everyones support, how i loved making the videos and interacting etc. And that i wont be posting anymore. I just dont know if in the end it is any different from posting a slideshow on tiktok. I dont even know why it matters but its just been on my mind.

Another side of this is people on SS livestreaming their CTB, the infamous SN videocall, and people discussing doing it on a private discord call. This also feels different because i completely understand why you would do this. People here understand, they dont waver you off and we all know what its REALLY like. I dont want to be alone either so i think ill have my favorite movie up. I know you come in this world alone and you die alone, but having people who are alike by your side when it happens must be one hell of a relieve.

So with that being my question; what do you think about documenting your journey? For the people who are planning to CTB, is this also part of your plan or what are you planning to leave behind?

Personally, I wouldn't document things for myself. I was gonna leave a note for my (ex) partner but we're no longer together so I feel no obligation to leave anything behind.

 

[glitterypearls]

some people want to be heard and understood one last time. they feel unloved, neglected and dismissed which one of the most common reasons young people choose to CTB so they just want to be remembered, feel loved and understood. I remember this extremely young girl who did livestreams even one for when she died by hanging. she was neglected and unloved this is why she did it and I bet its why other would do it too

 

[Das Nichts]

Only to prove a given method works. To give confidence to other users.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Narcissistic bullshit

 

[meowmeowkitty]

I saw a tiktok the other day with slide photos from a girl who (i guessed) was around 16 years old, that went viral and i cant stop thinking about it. I feel indifferent about the whole thing.
Her CTB method was (i think) jumping off a highway bridge and the first photo was her with the caption '1 hour before' , then a picture of the bridge and the next few slides were her in a hospital bed and showing off the whole needles and tube situation followed by a few slides saying the whole 'people around you love you' thing.
Most of the comments expressed being happy she lived and how strong she is, but a few mentioned it was odd she took so many photos. Some said it was probably in case she survived, which just all feels off... idk.

The reason i feel indifferent about it because while currently planning my CTB i want to leave videos for my loved ones instead of a note, because it would be easier for me to express my feelings, since my writing isnt that good. I also do streaming and youtube full time and i am debating making a thank you video to everyone, because my followers are the absolute sweetest and i am so grateful for them. Id upload it and schedule it for the day after, just to make sure. Nothing graphic ofcourse, just expressing my appreciation for everyones support, how i loved making the videos and interacting etc. And that i wont be posting anymore. I just dont know if in the end it is any different from posting a slideshow on tiktok. I dont even know why it matters but its just been on my mind.

Another side of this is people on SS livestreaming their CTB, the infamous SN videocall, and people discussing doing it on a private discord call. This also feels different because i completely understand why you would do this. People here understand, they dont waver you off and we all know what its REALLY like. I dont want to be alone either so i think ill have my favorite movie up. I know you come in this world alone and you die alone, but having people who are alike by your side when it happens must be one hell of a relieve.

So with that being my question; what do you think about documenting your journey? For the people who are planning to CTB, is this also part of your plan or what are you planning to leave behind?

i actually appreciate documenting the process, it helps me to see how certain methods may effect me, helps me visualize the methods better, helps me get a better grasp of death and the process of death and best of all :) helps me feel more confident for my decision in ctb

 

[I_want_to_sleep]

I would not want to risk failing it while streaming it live, the consequences are not worth it.

If I successfully CTB I don't care what happens afterwards in this world, I will have gotten my wish, nothing else matters.