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- Aug 18, 2020
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Today is the 27th day of death of Kurt Cobain. I am around that age and might actually commit suicide when I am 27. Personally I don't want to be associated with the "Club 27". It feels immature for me wanting to die at this age just to be counted as member of this club. For me suicide is way too serious for such a consideration. However, maybe people would only see it as some sort of coincidence. I don't know how people actually think of the club 27. As some sort of a death cult with peer pressure? Simple coincidence? Maybe this age group is confronted with similar dillemas. People are realizing they don't get any better. This would be similar to my life. I got a grasp of adult life and I completely hate it. I am a complete failure who will face mental torture probably every single day till I die. The brain development as far as I know is mostly done with 25. People say but there are still miracles happening. I think it would be more realistic that I win the lottery instead of a life without suicidal thoughts. I don't want to wait for a miracle. I cannot endure this hell many more decades. I don't know when I will die. If I felt really awful I would ctb when I am 27 no matter whether I am counted to this club. Mostly I am apathetic towards it.
What about you?
What about you?