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Mendex

Mendex

The Sleep of reason produces monsters
Jan 9, 2021
193
My personal reason to commit suicide is I'm indifference with myself and doesn't find a objective difference between waiting my own death and accelerate it.
In other words. Suicide is just putting the things in his respective place.
 
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LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
368
Terrible past and tragically no future for me. Also I don't wanna grow old. I don't really justify it to be honest. I feel like I don't need to justify it to other and things are already made up in my mind.
 
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bad luck

bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
Depression and chronic anxiety. Job insecurity despite having degrees. Traumatic divorce. See how the world has been going to shit for decades.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,801
Future bad.
 
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elfgyoza

elfgyoza

Cursed
Aug 5, 2019
326
Never asked to be born, don't see why I should be forced to stay
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,049
I didn't justify it because I don't feel I have to. I want to die because I don't enjoy life.
 
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FreeAngel

FreeAngel

Student
Mar 3, 2021
111
My best friend has Ctb I want to be with her

Here in this world I feel so alone
 
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LittleBabyNothing

LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
Being me isn't compatible with living.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
Too much suffering, not enough joy.
 
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booray

Can’t do this anymore
Jan 28, 2021
394
Severe depression and anxiety, unemployment with no prospect of ever finding a good job again, self-loathing and regret over past mistakes, anhedonia and aboulia, etc. I justify my desire to end my life because my situation is hopeless and I will only become more bitter with age the longer I stick around.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,391
My reason apparently keeps getting threads that other people made about the same topic shut down while I'm asleep. :pfff:

But to be serious though, I've just run out of hope and so far nothing I've experienced or want to experience can restore it. And even if I do get my hope back and go on living I deeply fear what kind of monster I would be if allowed to continue to wreak havoc on the world. I'm doing this to save people from dealing with my bullshit before it escalates.
 
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Some1's_Wasted_Fetus

Student
Mar 20, 2021
174
Constant depression, anxiety, inability to secure a job after graduation, loss of passion to do hardwork, inability to enjoy or find pleasure in anything anymore, (food doesn't even taste good to me anymore so I barely eat). My inceldom and inability to both find love and love the thing I see looking back at me when I look in the mirror. Inconsiderate and judgmental parents that will never understand how it's like to be me or how inadequate I feel as a son and member of Western society. Tired of Western society telling me I am inadequate just the way I am. Constant rejection. Never ending cycle of drowning in the worries of this corporate world everyday with no way out
 
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ClairyFairy

ClairyFairy

Wizard
Jan 22, 2021
622
I have a shitty awful life and my misery spreads through and infects people. My ex is psychotic and I can't keep dealing with it after 22 years! I think that speaks for itself and also why should anyone have to justify it? Other people will say its not that bad you'll get through, nothing lasts forever well I'm getting as close to forever as I can bear
 
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shijsrzh

shijsrzh

Deluded Moron
Dec 2, 2020
99
in order, from bad to worst: autism, OCD, depression with anhedonia, psychogenic dyspnea, thought disorder, misophonia
The one that's driving me to suicide is misophonia which worsens the effects of all others.
 
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Water-Lily

Water-Lily

Enlightened
Dec 26, 2020
1,203
Childhood trauma and continued abuse throughout my life. I am left in so much pain I would rather die to escape it.
 
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StringPuppet

StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
579
I guess I'm just not really interested in the usual things people claim give their lives meaning like having a career, starting a family, traveling, helping others, religion , etc. For most people life also offers plenty of distractions from constant existential dread such as movies, games, romance, hobbies, socializing, learning, and so on but thanks to my depression I either don't enjoy these things like I used to or don't even feel like obtaining them. I basically have a blank resume and poor hygine thanks to years of neglect so even if I did decide I want to be normal I'd have to struggle severely to fix my mistakes.

My life's pretty much one big blah so I figure it'd be better to kill myself at some point than prolong my misery, or even worse cause others to be more miserable trying to help me.
 
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SmellyRat

SmellyRat

Arcanist
Nov 5, 2018
479
Ptsd
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
diseases, my body is too damaged beyond repair and that doesn't let me enjoy life at all, just suffer. All the positives and happiness/joy from my life was erased by that injury and now all I have is suffering and grief :(
also trauma from abuse
 
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BornofDust

BornofDust

Student
Dec 11, 2020
132
The world is based on pain and suffering, form the very fabric of Nature( deer forced to feel pain as its eaten alive, antelopes being chased down and killed while the rest is forced to feel paranoia for the rest of their) as well as the fabric of society. Most countries managed to becomes countries due to literal Genocide(French through killing the Cathars, Germany through Genocide in Africa, America with the Native Americans). As well as Realpolitik which is based on looking for ones National Interest and seeing humanity as beast and that everything and anything is justified. Genocide, assasinations, massacre's, propaganda, everything. Even killing their own citizens if it means reaching their goals. The ruthless always get their way, always escaping justice while everyone else has to suffer the consequences for their actions. The world is inherently based on scheming and manipulation, with even simple things like dating, with people always having " back-ups.' as if people are just pawns. Parents using their kids for their own ambitions The ruthless prosper and survive and everyone else suffers. Why the hell do I want to stay in a world like that. This world guarantees pain and suffering at every level

My personal reason are my parents basically neglecting, yelling, screaming, and beating at me, telling me I should have never been born and raising my cousins as surrogate children instead of me. Plus I have no freinds because I'm known as a freak, weirdo and loser. As well as being emotionally fragile and mentally retarded that my psychologist reminded me is so severe that my job prospects are slim. Especially since I'm unemployed. I'm known to most people as mentally unstable as well as the freak that constantly screw things up and an overall creep. My reputation was so bad that whenever someone wanted to be my freind simply like that, someone would whisper something to my ear and they would now look at me with disgust. People literally threatened my life and no one care, not one bit, even blaming me for what happen. I was never meant to be in this world. People like me are not suppose to last long. Especially this world is not designed for the likes of me. People don't see me as a human being, only a waste of space that screws everything up. Society is based on efficiency, which is something I constantly ruin, hence my firing from my job. I have no intention of lasting long in this Earth. It was not made for me, I'm not made for it.
 
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Into The Void

Into The Void

Student
Mar 10, 2021
196
Mine is waiting until I can't go any further. Having tried everything I can to get better. Which is what I'm doing.
 
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
689
-I can't enjoy anything or have normal feelings because of trauma.

-I live with a narcissist and pedophile, my family pretends the abuse & neglect doesn't exist.

-I'm mentally impaired/disabled from trauma symptoms and I also have Fibromyalgia & Carpal.

-There's no help for someone like me and no one gives a shit if you're disabled. There's only poverty and suffering in my future.

-The world is a circus and humans are sociopathic clowns.
 
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shush

shush

can you find me space inside your bleeding heart?
Aug 16, 2020
29
severe social anxiety, clinical depression, ocd, abusive parents. i dropped school at 14 bc of my mental health so i have no future, only pain.
 
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ansiedad

ansiedad

Alone
Dec 29, 2020
127
Anxiety, depression, lonely, no future for me, pain.
Im insane, not made to live.
 
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sparkie

sparkie

Student
Mar 14, 2021
175
Best reason- I was born
Justification- don't require any
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,729
1. I don't want to live anymore, and my opinion is the one that matters.

After reading through that unemployed MD's post and all the cringey-AF replies to them (including my own) I realized that the justifiability of one's suicide doesn't really matter. The only thing that matters is that you have a right to live and to die - full stop. No matter how petty your reasons, it's up to you.

I could CTB because I stepped in bubblegum tomorrow. Really. Who gives a flip? It's my life, and maybe my Air Jordans were just barely holding my marbles together for me. It is no one's business but my own.
 
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lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,470
Social anxiety, severe depression, a voice in my head telling me how shit i am almost 24/7, paranoia, low self-esteem, bpd, ocd tendencies that revv up my ctb thoughts, low intelligence, no ambition, eating disorders that will plague me till i die, and i can't connect with anyone. I've been depressed since 6 and have always felt that I don't belong in this world. Shit, I was already thinking about what my funeral would be like and ready to become a kind ghost at that age. If that doesn't tell you I didn't want to go on living in this world from the beginning I don't know what will.
 
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W’ren

W’ren

Worthless
Oct 28, 2020
557
So many reasons; many mental illness diagnoses; a history of abuse, physical, mental, emotional; many physical chronic illnesses that have drastically altered and limited my life; pain; car crash ruined my career; i'm poor, i haven't got enough money to support myself; i'm afraid i'll be homeless later in life; i'm a burden to my family and friends- and my government and also a drain on all of them too-
I was bullied pretty much all my life; I serve no purpose; my brother & his wife shut me out of their family... i hardly ever get to see my nieces... :/
I have nightmares every night- while i'm awake nothing brings me pleasure... an

These are many of my reasons- probably not all of them..

Justification? It's my life to end. No one gets to end it but me...

I don't feel i have to justify it to anyone. I just have to be sure of myself-

And no one who gives a crap knows of my Plans... and no one who knows wants to stop me. Lolzz. Drs don't care... they know i'm going to ctb and they don't care- it just proves i am worthless in society....

Anyhow. Those are many of my reasons and my opinion on justification.
 
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Pen>Sword

Pen>Sword

Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam
Jan 13, 2021
465
For me, I'm afraid that my past or future mistake will define me. There's no point on staying if life is such a torture.

There's a lot of philosophical answers here. I'm going to steal some of these for my suicide letter if y'all don't mind.
 
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doge

doge

Member
Feb 23, 2021
8
Social anxiety, depression, loneliness are all problems that i had all of my life, its getting kinda hard to cope with them. Also, i fear that if i dont end my own life, i could hurt others...
 
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insanedoomer

insanedoomer

Zé"HaZarD
Jan 10, 2021
244
i am not good at living
 
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