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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
455
The world is to fucked up - I was born as Autistic and yet once you're an adult - There is no support for us. Even though I heavily rely on support no where has any. So I have been in my bedroom pretty much since August 2019. I know the pandemic happened but even if it didn't, I would have no where to go or do so I would still be in my bedroom. Social care doesn't care about the quality of life - they just care about themselves and the money.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,447
For me it's because life is pointless, we exist only to replicate and then die.

I can't be doing with decades more of this crap.

I have a good job, home, car, family etc but deep down I know its all for nothing.
 
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SelmaJezkova10

SelmaJezkova10

Amorphous and useless thing
May 24, 2021
88
I am totally convinced that the best thing for me is death, bad things have always happened and as much as I try to improve and "fight", literally everything goes down. And basically, I lost the meaning of life.
 
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Busticket

Busticket

Student
May 18, 2021
185
I am poor and don't want to work.
I wish I was rich and didn't have to work then I would be happy and wouldn't want to ctb.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
My reason apparently keeps getting threads that other people made about the same topic shut down while I'm asleep. :pfff:

But to be serious though, I've just run out of hope and so far nothing I've experienced or want to experience can restore it. And even if I do get my hope back and go on living I deeply fear what kind of monster I would be if allowed to continue to wreak havoc on the world. I'm doing this to save people from dealing with my bullshit before it escalates.
Now you've got me curious, what's the topic? (If you don't mind me asking.)
 
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suicidesheep31

Specialist
Jun 27, 2020
348
I just don't read first the replies from members to not be biased. I will do it after replying.
Best reasons...
I struggle with my relationships. I am always wondering if they will laugh at me, or reject me or abandon me.
When i get close to someone, I feel vulnerable.
I cannot trust men due to abuse.
But really would like to be with someone.
I am quite old now and I don't know anymore how it feels to love someone.

I have a strabismus, my tooth are not straight and I am at the limit of overweight. I don't know if I want children because I think that my DNA is not worth to exist any more. So, what's the point for being here. Also, when I am with people in real life, I am there but not there at the same time. I see them happy and just don't understand how they can be.

Also have pain related complains because I did lots of sport during my young age. I see myself ageing and don't like it.
I also struggle at this moment of anxiety when I go outside. The light, the sounds, the traffic. I can't deal with it. Maybe that's due to the decrease of meds. But still annoying. I can't even run for 30 min in a park :(

So, to resume, I think that I want to give up because I have difficulties on a daily basis: relationships, anxiety, and a lack of purpose in life.
 
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Deleted member 8579

Enlightened
Apr 28, 2021
1,323
I know that your intentions are not malignant, but this kind of thinking is wrong.
Suicide is in no need of justification; thinking that it is is the unfortunate consequence of the pro-life propaganda we're all fed by society.
After all, no one asks parents to justify procreating.
Besides, there is no best reason to commit suicide; having any reason at all is sufficient, even if it is a reason some might deem trivial.
People are permitted to have children for the most trivial reasons as well.
It is your life and you may do with it whatever you please.
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
Do you really need a reason to ctb? Coming up with arbitrary justifications to placate society just goes to show how much we are programmed and brainwashed by institutional powers.

Whatever personal reasons you have to ctb is valid and enough. Funny how even in death you have to satisfy society under the threat of shame and guilt.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,249
No human being is obliged to stay alive, we did not ask to exist in the first place. I do not need to justify it. My reasons are that I was born with neurological disorders that made it hard for me to cope with life.
I just see existing as pointless, boring and it does not interest me. I want to die as that is our purpose as humans. I have physical health problems which have taken away my quality of life, such as damaged ears. The root of all my problems is consciousness and when I die that will end.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,391
Now you've got me curious, what's the topic? (If you don't mind me asking.)
Just being a loner kissless incel virgin. I was sort of joking back then because multiple threads made by other Incels got shut down after I joined the discussion or was about to say something related to it. I'm sure threads about being alone aren't enough to get banned.
 
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ConfusedAndWeird

Member
Apr 12, 2021
48
I have sooooooo many reasons I would want to CTB. So many that they would probably fit inside of a book. But just for starters, the fact that there is no ethical consumption in our world. The clothes we wear are made in sweatshops and our technology is made from materials gathered by exploited miners in Africa. As long as we live, and consume things, we will be exploiting those less fortunate than us and contributing to their oppression. CTB would be the best way to protest and fight against this. But that's just one reason and I agree in general that I shouldn't have to justify my choices that I make with my own life and my own body to people, even though they feel like I couldn't even begin to justify it no matter how many good reasons there are to want to go through with it.
 
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yive

yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
695
Do you really need a reason to ctb? Coming up with arbitrary justifications to placate society just goes to show how much we are programmed and brainwashed by institutional powers.

Whatever personal reasons you have to ctb is valid and enough. Funny how even in death you have to satisfy society under the threat of shame and guilt.
this
No human being is obliged to stay alive, we did not ask to exist in the first place. I do not need to justify it.
and this. we didn't ask to be born!
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
-so many I can't write out but...-
I have sooooooo many reasons I would want to CTB. So many that they would probably fit inside of a book. But just for starters, the fact that there is no ethical consumption in our world. The clothes we wear are made in sweatshops and our technology is made from materials gathered by exploited miners in Africa. As long as we live, and consume things, we will be exploiting those less fortunate than us and contributing to their oppression. CTB would be the best way to protest and fight against this. But that's just one reason and I agree in general that I shouldn't have to justify my choices that I make with my own life and my own body to people, even though they feel like I couldn't even begin to justify it no matter how many good reasons there are to want to go through with it.
wow I really like what you typed here. I have my personal reasons for wanting to CTB, however, in the case of humanitarian causes I agree it's a direct rejection of the current society.
 
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Bullit

Bullit

Mage
May 6, 2021
504
Thoughts: A) A lot of suffering out there. Diseases,accidents,unloving parents,sex abuse,addiction,divorce... Its very sad that so many people have such burdens.

...B) Me? I think hard,very hard,about ctb. I am vYery alone,feel like an utter failure in what Life wanted me to do. I wrecked my life. I only hope I get the nerve to ctb,as much as I hate it.
 
Sans

Sans

Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
350
Nobody should have to "justify" their suicide, nor should anyone be required to have any sort of "reason" to take their lives. Death is as much of a human right as life is.

That's not to say I don't have my reasons though... because I sure do.

I've been depressed for a while now, I think the first time I seriously felt symptoms of it was when I was fifteen years old, and it hasn't gotten much better since. It's deteriorated to the point where I don't enjoy anything in life in more. Should I make it to my 21st birthday, I really hope I'll be able to drink alcohol and smoke weed because I'm seriously considering turning to drugs in a last ditch effort to feel any sort of emotion that isn't sadness or melancholy or frustration or anger.

Like mentioned by the poster before me... I feel like a failure in life. Actually, no. I don't feel like one. I am one. Yes, I had a huge disadvantage because of the way I was born, but society never considers disadvantages when judging people, people assume the world is completely fair and just. I could have possibly overcome my challenges, but I couldn't. And I don't want to live knowing that I failed my family as well as myself.

Lastly, the loneliness. It kills me. And it could possibly kill me literally one day, or at least contribute to it. I used to have a few friends in high school, but I barely ever saw them again after I graduated. And with regards to romantic relationships... well, I have never been in one, I've always imagined that if I had found just one person who loves me for who I am and actually cares about me, then my life would have some meaning and the opinions of hundreds of others who don't care for me won't matter. But that's just a pipe dream. And this is real life, where pipe dreams don't come true. Guess I'm doomed to die alone. At least that's one less person who will be affected when the time comes.





 
Water-Lily

Water-Lily

Enlightened
Dec 26, 2020
1,203
Is it ok to come back to this and make an update? If not, I apologize and will delete my post promptly if this is the case. But I wanted to say something

My main reason to commit suicide is to alleviate my guilt. No matter what anyone says, I am not a good person. I am a self loathing, resistant, stubborn, unhealthy, bratty, and disrespectful human being. I know some people may have seen my "nice" side. But it is just that. A side.
Not too long ago something happened. I take full responsibility for what happened and I believe it was my fault. And because it's my fault, I deserve pain. Look, this will be to the betterment of everyone. Imagine never having to deal with my crap. Never having to deal with my shitty ass behavior. For once, you can be free of me! Never having to deal with an attitude or one kind of flare up. I know I can be a pain

Anyways, that's my reason. I think my suicide might do more good than harm.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,447
Because fundamentally life is a waste of time and is completely pointless.

As for justification, its my life, I don't need to justify ending it to anyone.
 
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lonewandere92

lonewandere92

New Member
May 28, 2021
3
-i m antisocial through my childhood trauma
- my mother gave up on me early as primary school
-im ugly as hell and people show me that i am belive me
-i have no job anymore and will not get any because of how ugly i am
- my whole family lied to me every day of my life and they want me dead
-alway felt not welcome in this world
-i embarrast myself and in the most idotic way it got filmed i think
-i am a coward and i hate myself for it
-im not very intelligent that makes almost every job unnecessary difficult for me
 
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akana

Student
Mar 21, 2022
184
in order, from bad to worst: autism, OCD, depression with anhedonia, psychogenic dyspnea, thought disorder, misophonia
The one that's driving me to suicide is misophonia which worsens the effects of all others.
^^^^^^
 
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