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boxofdollpartz

boxofdollpartz

sleepyhead
Sep 1, 2025
17
for me, there's a few little things that are important to me.

i have to be cremated; my ashes buried in a cemetery - and id like my comfort item, a plush polar bear, to be buried in a box with me.

id like my snowglobe collection to be split among my loved ones - in specific, leaving my disney cinderella one for my mom, as she bought it for me when i was 3 and it begun the collection, it is one of my last remaining childhood belongings.

i dont want a traditional funeral. i dont have any religious views so i dont want it in a church. id like everyone at the service to wear yellow, even if thats a little bit selfish to wish for. its my favorite color.

what are the little details like that that you daydream about?
 
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deep-sleeper

deep-sleeper

Member
Aug 16, 2025
94
I wish to be thrown in a ditch

And give all my stuff to my best friend
 
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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
457
i wanted my body to be donated to science so you dont need to have a burial, but sadly people are poor and they all already signed up for it and now there are too many cadavers. so no funeral for me scatter ashes and go. money to my best friend and thats all.
 
westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

Thought I had moved on, life decided otherwise
Aug 13, 2025
204
Cremate my body and scatter my ashes in the estuary where I used to sail. No grave or memorial, just the sound of the wind, waves and gulls.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,158
For me I just want to be forgotten about like I never suffered at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase this existence as I just never should had been burdened with this torturous, futile existence at all, existence to me always feels like a mistake and all I want is peace from the abomination of existence, I just want for all to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again.
 
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Lost_In_A_Nightmare

New Member
Sep 1, 2025
4
I want to be eaten by wild animals, because it makes me feel useful and kind of special, like I'm actually doing something worthwhile.
 
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boxofdollpartz

boxofdollpartz

sleepyhead
Sep 1, 2025
17
For me I just want to be forgotten about like I never suffered at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase this existence as I just never should had been burdened with this torturous, futile existence at all, existence to me always feels like a mistake and all I want is peace from the abomination of existence, I just want for all to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again.
i was writing about this last night while thinking of the subject for this question. i feel very similarly. the things i mentioned in this post are only because of the several deaths within my family this year, specifically in planning my dads funeral service right now. we're trying to figure out how to honor him, so i was wondering how id be honored when i go.

it reminds me of how my mother told me this year that if i kill myself, that she'd also do it.

in the ultimate fairytale reality, when i kill myself, the entirety of my digital footprint dating back to 2005 when i first started using it, all my belongings, my body, my spot in anybody's memories, all of my writing and art, would immediately vanish with it. my mother would be assigned another kid and in her memory id have never been her child at all, just to spare her that.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
I don't care what happens because i will cease to exist forever 1 micro second after my brain dies. nothing will matter Afer Death because i won't exist ever again.

the only reason i can worry , or anything could matter , any concern can happen to me is because i'm alive and my brain is still working and conscious.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
I'll tell what I don't want.

I don't want people to feel bad about it. I want to be remembered in a positive light. I do not want people to suffer in the world. I don't want people to get the wrong idea.

I do want my body to be treated respectfully and buried.
 
tapetum_lucidum

tapetum_lucidum

Member
Mar 12, 2023
57
I think I want to be cremated and have my ashes distributed amongst my loved ones. I want to stay here long enough to see my cat pass but I don't know if I'm strong enough for that, so I'd want her to be taken care of if she's still alive. I'd want some of my belongings to go to friends and the rest be kept in a storage locker somewhere. I'm attached to my stuff even in death. I want people to be happy my suffering is finally over.
 
auniqueusername!

auniqueusername!

Member
Jul 17, 2025
10
I really would love for everybody to just forget about me. I wish I could do a method where my body couldn't be found.
 
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fallingbehind

fallingbehind

Passed down like folk songs
Mar 22, 2025
152
No funeral, no news reports, no morons posting me pretending to give a shit and throw all my things away.

Hopefully my immediate family arent too affected, but its not as if im leaving them with any positive memories. Except for my mother though, she a bible thumper that once made fun of a neighbour who killed himself, calling him weak. I hope that all her Christian friends scorn her for birthing a "weak, cowardly child thats burning in hell for the sin of suicide", just like she scorned that kid. That would be enough karmaic justice for me.
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
For my body to never be found.

But it's impossible with my circumstance so maybe for people to quickly forget about me I guess.
 
fallendevil

fallendevil

Horrible Woman
Oct 6, 2024
779
- I'd also like to be cremated and I'd like my ashes scattered in specific places

- I'd like to write a memoir and give life advice to other losers like me going through a hard time

- I'd want someone to inherit my fortunes and properties
 
Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
717
I hope people don't go all sob and start crying at my funeral. That'll be embarrassing.
 
Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I want to be cremated and I don't want an obituary or celebration of life or anything like that. Ideally I'd erase myself from existence completely so that my family doesn't have to suffer.
 
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Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
226
Factory reset all of the hardware stuff in my room if anyone wants that. If you don't mind that half of my belongings smell like cigarettes you can have those too, I'll be kind of too dead to care anyway.


I don't care about anything else enough.
 
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UglyLife82

UglyLife82

Member
Feb 25, 2025
42
Cremation, sprinkled somewhere nice. No particular place means very much to me, so maybe just somewhere with a nice view
 
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Galam

Student
Aug 19, 2025
114
My after-death wish is to be not found, nobody should touch my body especially not men because many of them are necrophiles and create pictures of corpses. Pickmes are also very dirty 'humans'

My ideal version is I want to just be a rotting corpse in the woods (I take a nap and die). The animals and plants, mushrooms eat me or use me as home, so my body finds a home in the forest. Maybe in Iceland while the polar lights flow above. I wish I could have a suicide partner too who is beside me.

I think it isn't realistic sadly, it is more common that I just are killed or maybe I get my cardiac arrest in my room alone. And then they put my stinky corpse where all the others are and burn it. But it could also be that they traffic my healthy organs before they burn me (I don't want this but such people don't care). What Assholes.
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
691
I don't plan on doing anything until my cat is gone, and the only thing I know for sure I'll leave in a note to ask is to be buried with his ashes, or at least mixed with them if I get cremated.

To be honest, I don't care about anything else for the most part, but I'm dead serious about wanting this to happen. If there's a small chance of an afterlife or something good after this, I just want to make sure I'm with him.
 
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dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
348
I'm not really bothered would be nice to be eaten by animals thus giving something back
 
SparkleWater

SparkleWater

Student
Oct 13, 2020
115
gather up all the art you can of mine and put it on the internet archive. doesnt matter what ive done. just compile and upload. Even if it isnt finished.
for as much as I dont want to live being forgotten sounds scary. even if nobody looks at the upload on there at least all my stuff is in one location
 
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thedarkdog

Member
Aug 25, 2025
52
I want to not exist anymore. I believe that's the most likely case, certainly don't believe in any religious stuff but you never know... we could be in a computer simulation by some sadistic fuck who will punish you for trying to get out of the suffering he created for you in the first place.

Otherwise I wish that my family support each other in their loss and they don't fall apart. It'll devastate them and I feel sorry for that but I'm selfish enough that ending my own pain takes precedence.
 
ssUser34

ssUser34

Heart is hurting
Apr 12, 2025
25
I hope the friends that left me think about me for at least a little bit. And I want my ex-boyfriend to take anything he wants from my things.
 
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LettinGooo

Member
Sep 22, 2025
92
Cremated and ashes scattered to the wind.

Buried without embalming or anything else to preserve me in nothing but a hole in the ground with a seed for a tree ala a Benegeseriet funeral.
 
qwert3948

qwert3948

Student
Apr 24, 2023
147
i want to be forgotten as if i never existed
 
Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
265
The utmost mental and physical torment upon my parents, but this is basically fantasy, I could care less about anything else.
 
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