Discussion What are you going to do in preperation for CTB?

[terminalending]

Clean your room? Write letters? Give away stuff? Or are you afraid it will make your plan of suicide too obvious for those around you? I'm curious of what others will do because I'm myself quiet unsure of what I want/need to do.

 

[cherrysquick]

all of my previous attempts have been really impulsive and i didnt prepare anything in regards to them but if i end up going through with my decision to cbt this summer i want to finish my letters, apologize to people ive hurt (for some reason cbting while being on bad terms with anyone makes me feel horrible lol), give away or sell some of my stuff and honestly deep cleaning my room seems like a good idea. giving away my items wont be too suspicious since ive done it a couple of times already without the intent to cbt and im gonna mention the more suspicious stuff in the letters (ex. "please take x after my death" "give x this item") oh also definitely getting rid of weird shit in my computer and phone i wouldnt want anyone to look at. i plan on giving all my passwords to my friends, probably gonna mention them in the letters, so they can post about my passing and stuff. right before im gonna disable my phone and computer passwords for easy access to those.
still not sure if i want to leave handwritten or online letters though but if i decide on the first one i obviously need to get them ready

 

[thecolourgold]

I really wanted to sell and give away all my stuff to pay back the person who's been financing my living but I don't have time.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think the only true important thing is succeeding in the attempt as once one has left this world then nothing is capable of mattering to them. I personally would avoid doing anything that could potentially make other people suspicious as if other people found out about plans then it would certainly just make things worse and could cause them to interfere.

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

For now, my preparations is to donate pretty much most of my belongs to the people I've loved and trusted the most. I would leave them to my siblings but to be honest, I do not know if they have much interest in the same things that I had, so I want to donate to some very close friends.

Along with that, if I have enough funds when I CTB, I might donate half of it to a charity of my choice. and the other half to my family, and maybe leave a small portion to those close friends if they need travel expenses.

I also plan to make a whole document on who I was, and my experiences, my former goals for the future, the interests I had, the things I loved and disliked, sort of like an autobiography and personality description of sorts. I at least hope that that would inspire some people to take up any of the goals or interests I had or give them inspiration on what they can create, I just believe I myself don't deserve to have that joy, but still at least want at least a portion of myself to be survived someway.

I want to leave my password for my password manager to my siblings, so that they may access any account that I used to make purchases or contains any inportant files.

Maybe write some letters appreciating those that have helped me feel joy and to comfort them about my decision, letting them know to not blame anyone but me, I was responsible for what lead to this.

Oh most importantly, this would probably all be done postmortem, as I would most likely leave behind an automated message behind.

 

[Archness]

Quite minimal.
Some cleaning of my physical space.
Complete wipe (and possibly outright destruction) of my computer devices.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I've sold most of my possessions, have only a few basic clothes, basic laptop and a bed.

The money is being held in my account, i'm going to do my will soon and get a plan for cremation, i have the money to do it all right now thankfully.
I don't wish to be a burden in death to my family, they've always been great.

 

[ejt]

I made a to-do list: write out plans for the care of my animals, clean, pay bills, and write letters to the important people in my life.

 

[SoftWorries]

I've been doing 80 hour water fasts every week because I don't want to CTB until I reach my goal weight. Holding out a small hope that it might make me happy.

 

[Das Nichts]

Sold my apartment and all the stuff that is not of anz practical use.

I've written will, letters and instructions for my online stuff. So I'm pretty much finished.

 

[notanexperiment]

I previously thought about writing letters to my whole family and friends, making a will, deep cleaning all my stuff...but I honestly don't think I have the willpower to do all that stuff. I'm just gonna write one note and be done with it.

 

[thisiswhoiam-]

lose all my money health and sanity