Discussion What are you going to do before CTB?

[LivingHellonearth]

I'm going to CTB in a couple of months and I have been thinking of the last things that I want to do before I CTB. I will go to fish for the last time, I'm going to eat something expensive like surf and turf then drink some wine, try something new then CTB. What about you?

 

[som1]

I don't care to do anything, ill just go to the supermarket and get lollipops to suck after drinking sn.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Well besides making the actual preparations to CTB I also plan to make sure my note is finished and secure in a place people can find it, to finish creating a scribbly comic to further explain why I need to be removed, and maybe do some audio recordings in case I can't make my brain write down everything that needs to be said or at least use my horrible sounding voice to helpfully remind people that their ears can finally rejoice.

 

[slushy]

Log online and say goodbye to my internet friends Let them know where I am going. I don't want them to think I've abandoned them or that I don't like them anymore. We've been friends for years; I genuinely care about them a lot

 

[LivingHellonearth]

Well besides making the actual preparations to CTB I also plan to make sure my note is finished and secure in a place people can find it, to finish creating a scribbly comic to further explain why I need to be removed, and maybe do some audio recordings in case I can't make my brain write down everything that needs to be said or at least use my horrible sounding voice to helpfully remind people that their ears can finally rejoice.

Yes me too I need to start writing my note, and prepare the method for CTB.

 

[ClownMe]

Not too sure. I doubt it'll be much.

 

[headwood]

Enact some sort of revenge and lasting trauma on the person responsible for traumatizing me.

 

[Fairyy]

I don't drink, but before that, I think I'd like to do it and relax. Turn on the music and write what's what. I don't want them to think that this is something spontaneous. I've been living with this for a lot of years and I have a lot to tell.

 

[LivingHellonearth]

Enact some sort of revenge and lasting trauma on the person responsible for traumatizing me.

I will CTB for someone that traumatized me too, I wish there is something I can do about it.

I don't drink, but before that, I think I'd like to do it and relax. Turn on the music and write what's what. I don't want them to think that this is something spontaneous. I've been living with this for a lot of years and I have a lot to tell.

Me too this is something that I have thinking of for years now

 

[PrawnCocktail]

You can't feel any regret when you're dead, so I'm just going to live my life like usual until then. I wouldn't want to do something reckless and have the chance of my attempt failing and being forced to deal with the consequences of that action.

 

[Akerblad]

i was thinking in go with a prostitute because i don't want to die virgin, but i'm a jobless neet without money, but i'm still have my hands and internet

 

[cocainenosejobs]

Cuddle my kitten, give him to my best friend
delete all my social media and messages, put my house keys under the mat
Sign off my notes with a date

Print out photos of my pets/family, go to a five star hotel, order dessert and a nice lunch and have some alcohol, watch my favorite shows, log into here to post a goodbye and thank you note
Lay down and take my N while looking at the photos I printed out

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Cuddle my kitten, give him to my best friend
delete all my social media and messages, put my house keys under the mat
Sign off my notes with a date

Print out photos of my pets/family, go to a five star hotel, order dessert and a nice lunch and have some alcohol, watch my favorite shows, log into here to post a goodbye and thank you note
Lay down and take my N while looking at the photos I printed out

I dont want photos Incase it brings out some deep emotional attachment I didn't know existed. But I can see how that might be comforting for some.

 

[Parnate]

Download and listen to all my favorite songs

 

[FuneralCry]

There is nothing that I want to do, I just want to leave this world and be free from all suffering. I want to make sure that the ctb plans do not fail, I wish there was an euthanasia option available, as if there was that would be a relief. I deserve to exit this world in a peaceful and reliable way, it is cruel how the society expects people to suffer for decades.

 

[Sherri]

When my time comes, I'm spending all my money, live like a queen for my last 48 hours, I do sure hope if I decide to ctb that it works otherwise I will have creditors knocking at my door,

 

[Squalo]

I carry my mp3 player with me, and take a long walk with my favorite music.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Nothing. Making a good bye post here

 

[anxious_depressive]

I'll probably have a cup of coffee and smoke a cigarette...

 

[OldDrummer]

Go out on my hotel balcony, smoke a cigarette or three. Watch an Irish sunset.

Give planet earth a big wave goodbye for this life and forgive anyone in my life that's hurt me intentionally.

Have my favourite music queued up on YouTube (I swear to Christ I'll be pissed off if I had to watch ads before it!)

Make sure my letters are arranged on the nightstand just-so and most importantly an warning to the EMT/Responders about the safe disposal of any toxic artefacts found at the scene.

Arrange a few framed pictures around that are important to me.

Fall asleep.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I'm going to CTB in a couple of months and I have been thinking of the last things that I want to do before I CTB. I will go to fish for the last time, I'm going to eat something expensive like surf and turf then drink some wine, try something new then CTB. What about you?

Pet my friend's dogs, watch some shows I like, post here. Maybe I'll try to chat with a friend. Last time I tried to ctb I was at a hotel, and I started feeling lonely as the time drew near. Take the Valium, and other prep work. Make sure to sign off from this site.

 

[Graytaichi]

Pet my friend's dogs, watch some shows I like, post here. Maybe I'll try to chat with a friend. Last time I tried to ctb I was at a hotel, and I started feeling lonely as the time drew near. Take the Valium, and other prep work. Make sure to sign off from this site.

Seems logical. Very well thought. I prob rent lord of the rings to see if i can pass out with my SN at tye end of the show bedore i tske my 2nd dose.

 

[KimKevorkian]

i was thinking in go with a prostitute because i don't want to die virgin, but i'm a jobless neet without money, but i'm still have my hands and internet

Good question: To fap, or not to fa?. that is the question. I think I'll go through a bunch of old family photos and letters from my mom, listen to some special music, read some caustic, hilarious critiques of jackass American culture the night before ( www.joebageant.org ), read some SS posts, and then decide to fap or not...hmmm. Damn. Undecided about that one.

 

[Graytaichi]

i was thinking in go with a prostitute because i don't want to die virgin, but i'm a jobless neet without money, but i'm still have my hands and internet

Really,its nightmare for the protitute

 

[s66]

Honestly, I'm too depress to do anything. I just want out of this life, IDK what happens after you die but I'm not coming back here. I don't get why we're here at a ll

 

[LivingHellonearth]

Go out on my hotel balcony, smoke a cigarette or three. Watch an Irish sunset.

Give planet earth a big wave goodbye for this life and forgive anyone in my life that's hurt me intentionally.

Have my favourite music queued up on YouTube (I swear to Christ I'll be pissed off if I had to watch ads before it!)

Make sure my letters are arranged on the nightstand just-so and most importantly an warning to the EMT/Responders about the safe disposal of any toxic artefacts found at the scene.

Arrange a few framed pictures around that are important to me.

Fall asleep.

I will CTB because someone traumatized me and I can't live like this anymore, am I wrong if I blame that person for my CTB on my Suicide letter" forgive anyone that hurts me" doesn't seem to apply for me. I had a great future and he literally destroyed it, he literally killed me, am I in the wrong if I blame him?

 

[M Berry M]

Eat all my favorite foods spend a day with the person I love hug my dogs have lots and lots of sex and watch all my favorite shows

 

[jimmy7754]

Listening to nick drake and dying in a field during the spring.. hopefully overdosing..

 

[orange]

cry probs

 

[Hurt]

I am impulsive. I don't know what I'm gonna do before. I could be having fun and then ctb. Mood changes.