What are you ashamed of?

[themisfit]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself. A LOT

For example: living with my parents at 35, my self-harm scars, being addicted to pornography...

But, above all, I'm ashamed of never having had a relationship, never having had a girlfriend

This, together with its implications, is such a burden for me to carry, that it makes me want to die

It's not that I don't feel like I'm a man. I just don't feel like I'm a human being

What about you, folks: what are you ashamed of?

What are you so ashamed of, it makes you want not to wake up and look at people in the eyes?

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

I'm ashamed of not being able to live on for people that want me to live.

I'm ashamed of benefitting from my family's resources - housing, food, treatment etc. when I know I am still going to CTB.

I'm ashamed of wasting my potential.

 

[thelostautistic]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things too. But overall I just feel ashamed about existing and taking up space in the world. I truly don't know why.

 

[raincandy_v]

I'm ashamed of being born. Ashamed of how I look, feel; everything. I wish most days I could vanish as if I had never existed.

 

[Quietist]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself. A LOT

For example: living with my parents at 35, my self-harm scars, being addicted to pornography...

But, above all, I'm ashamed of never having had a relationship, never having had a girlfriend

This, together with its implications, is such a burden for me to carry, that it makes me want to die

It's not that I don't feel like I'm a man. I just don't feel like I'm a human being

What about you, folks: what are you ashamed of?

What are you so ashamed of, it makes you want not to wake up and look at people in the eyes?

Same boat. I'm ashamed of all of that and a lot worse.

 

[itsgone2]

I'm ashamed of everything I did the past 15 years. More mistakes than I can list.
I can only blame mental illness so much.
I'm surprised the regret hasn't killed me

 

[darksouls]

I am ashamed to be a human being,
I am indifferent to other people,
but it makes me not want to look myself in the eyes

 

[dragonofenvy]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself. A LOT

For example: living with my parents at 35, my self-harm scars, being addicted to pornography...

But, above all, I'm ashamed of never having had a relationship, never having had a girlfriend

This, together with its implications, is such a burden for me to carry, that it makes me want to die

It's not that I don't feel like I'm a man. I just don't feel like I'm a human being

What about you, folks: what are you ashamed of?

What are you so ashamed of, it makes you want not to wake up and look at people in the eyes?

The exact same things, and knowing that most of it is my fault but I feel so powerless and useless to change.

 

[memo]

I'm ashamed of how much being sexually assaulted destroyed me

 

[iwkmsssb]

ashamed that i haven't accomplished anything in my life, ashamed of being a burden, ashamed of being a waste of space

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I'm ashamed of how much being sexually assaulted destroyed me

My biggest condolences to you. Surviving is not easy. Some days I ask myself if I am worthy of saying I am a survivor of it. It's not like an illness. But it does linger, and fester, and kill a part of you over time. It feels like a stain that cannot ever come out.
I stand with you in this.
Part of me is ashamed I didn't just say no or try to stop it.
Part of me is ashamed I let it eat at me and couldn't be stronger.
No-win game.

I'm ashamed of when my husband and I were dating and we broke up, I got with someone. It's not the same scenario as the assault, but I felt like I had no choice, I wanted some man to love me, so I put out. I still feel awful. I'll never get to undo that. I'll never be only my husband's.
It fucking kills me.

 

[Kokonoe]

my existence. i am so completely worthless. i've been worthless to everyone i've known, no matter what i've done. i've never been worth anything. i'm too useless to do anything right. i have no real value and my life is meaningless. i feel so much pain being reminded of my worthlessness every single day of my life. i feel completely subhuman. i feel alienated from everyone and everything because i feel so worthless and below everything that no one could understand what it's like to live life with inherent worthless you can't change.

 

[tomatobastard]

I'm ashamed of existing, i wish i could just be forgotten forever. I cringe at everything i've done in the past, doesn't matter if i was just a kid i should have known better..

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I'm ashamed of my entire life, to be honest.

 

[StarryEyed]

I'm ashamed of being molested millions of times by my father and raped thousands of times by him and brainwashed by him. And no one seems to give a flying fuck. I mean in the true sense of giving a flying fuck, like taking care of me beyond mere survival. Its all I'm worth is mere existence, level zero, barely getting by. I'm ashamed that the world doesn't think I deserve to be treated well. My life is a life sentence. I fucking hate my existence. I am so ashamed of how I am treated and of being me.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself. A LOT

For example: living with my parents at 35, my self-harm scars, being addicted to pornography...

But, above all, I'm ashamed of never having had a relationship, never having had a girlfriend

This, together with its implications, is such a burden for me to carry, that it makes me want to die

It's not that I don't feel like I'm a man. I just don't feel like I'm a human being

What about you, folks: what are you ashamed of?

What are you so ashamed of, it makes you want not to wake up and look at people in the eyes?

woow. Dude you beat a lot of my personal records

Im ashamed of making cute girls cry

I'm ashamed of when my husband and I were dating and we broke up, I got with someone. It's not the same scenario as the assault, but I felt like I had no choice, I wanted some man to love me, so I put out. I still feel awful. I'll never get to undo that. I'll never be only my husband's.
It fucking kills me.

This is triggering for me. I wish society stopped taking stuff like sex and purity so seriously

Ive been trying to change that part of my perception as well

Ppl fuck up, thats life, and concepts like those cause so much pain

 

[crossingtheriver]

I am deeply ashamed of my background, my birth.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

I'm ashamed of worrying my friends about my suicidal tendencies, and not being strong enough to even live.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I'm ashamed of worrying my friends about my suicidal tendencies, and not being strong enough to even live.

Dude thats basically an infinite loop

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

Dude thats basically an infinite loop

Unfortunately

woow. Dude you beat a lot of my personal records

Im ashamed of making cute girls cry


This is triggering for me. I wish society stopped taking stuff like sex and purity so seriously

Ive been trying to change that part of my perception as well

Ppl fuck up, thats life, and concepts like those cause so much pain

m8 yours is unfortunate too rip

 

[katatonix]

I feel shame for existing within my own my own body. I feel shame for things I have done in an episode, I ended up homeless solely because of my actions. I'm ashamed of who I'm turning out to be, not in all ways, but more than I'd ever have thought. Most of all I'm ashamed I can't find love like I'd thought, that their real life counterparts are not as they are in the figments of my imagination

 

[halfstay]

I'm ashamed of my entire existence and what my death is gonna do to my family. but I don't want these dirty hands to reach them ever again. Im filthy and disgusting and the world is going to be a better place when im not in it.

 

[delinquentsandwich]

ashamed of failing my past partners and all of my friends and loved ones
for letting them all down and only bringing bad memories for them

people are so important to me and yet I can't even do that right

ashamed that I will die a nuisance and be remembered as such
unloved and forgotten

 

[FoxSauce]

Im ashamed I haven't gotten far as much as I wanted

 

[Flymiamibro22]

I'm ashamed of all the potential I had and how I wasted all of it.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Feldsparc]

Ashamed of making the same terrible mistakes again and again...not learning not repenting, not valuing my family and being so foolish

 

[Bad Mojo]

How I treated my exes. That's not the deep dark root (because there are lots of roots), but it's what haunts me pretty much every day.

I think my family thinks I'm kind of benevolently insane but the masks slip more and more each day. Not because I wish them ill will, but because we're all tired.

Idk. I think it can't reasonably be long now. I'm so ashamed and I can't sleep at night and I can't pretend to be a good person anymore.

 

[scp4514]

I'm ashamed of my breasts. I'm a failed trans woman. I look hideous. Transitioning was a mistake because I'm so ugly. I wish I could be happy as a man. I wish I could have gotten a mastectomy.

 

[momentomori00]

I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself. A LOT

For example: living with my parents at 35, my self-harm scars, being addicted to pornography...

But, above all, I'm ashamed of never having had a relationship, never having had a girlfriend

This, together with its implications, is such a burden for me to carry, that it makes me want to die

It's not that I don't feel like I'm a man. I just don't feel like I'm a human being

What about you, folks: what are you ashamed of?

What are you so ashamed of, it makes you want not to wake up and look at people in the eyes?

My past actions, my lost potential, me burdening my mom with my MH issues. I've done things I can't even admit to myself