To me suicide is the way to avoid everything as it's the permanent relief and escape from all suffering, it's the way to take control over the inevitable. And this is why I see suicide as being self care as nobody can be harmed by not existing, I see existence as being something so pointless and repulsive, it's a horrific mistake to me, so to die would solve what I see as being the true problem which is existence itself.
I just think it's something so terrible having the ability to exist in this world filled with endless harm where chance so cruelly determines everything where we are destined for nothing but to be tortured by old age. I see non-existence as being true peace.