That it exists, I see existence as being a horrific and tragic mistake in the first place, it's absolutely disgusting how so much unnecessary suffering has been experienced all throughout history, I despise existence because of the extreme amounts of torture it has created. And then despite this, it's replusive how delusional humans force more life into this hell and ban peaceful ways to leave, it's just bad enough that life exists but it's even worse how humans want to make existence into a prison where one cannot easily free themselves. There are no amount of words that can describe how much I despise existence, there should just be nothingness instead, to me only nothingness is acceptable, existence repulses me.