Discussion What are the factors which you consider to be most important in your method?

[Trashcan]

Certainty. Currently I'm planning to use a gun because it's instant and I can do it at any time, also impossible to revive me if I hit the brain stem. I've failed too many times which is why I need something like this... once I pull the trigger, there's no going back. And I need to do it in a moment of desperation to overcome the survival instinct. So doing something in a hotel or waiting until I won't be found for X amount of time won't cut it.

I know it's selfish. But I just need it to work this time. I promised myself if I try again, I'll succeed this time.

 

[Morning Angel]

Peacefulness and certainty are priority for me, because I know I could never have the balls to blow my head off or jump. For personal reasons, hanging is out of the question. And I am not impulsive enough to try mixing random meds together, or stick myself with a drug, and "hope for the best." I already fucked my life up badly enough, there is no need to trap myself further.

I don't know one person who has ever survived by N which is very reassuring. If I didn't have N, I'd still spend all the time in the world watching my life get worse while I hunt and scrape together cash for N.

 

[SamK]

Peacefulness is important to me, which is why i'm using the CO method
The way the body looks is also fairly important to me: well, it wont be pleasant for whoever finds me but after CO poisoning your appearance isn't too bad.
Certainty is definitely important, i've been using half assed attempts in the longer term, say about ten years trying to rid myself. I've just ended up in wheelchairs, in high dependency units and psych wards and i regret each and every time i came close and failed. This time i'm totally done and need to be sure it will work, for sure. It's been exhausting planning it out and prepping but like morning angel says it would just be a case of watching life fall apart further.

 

[Jovaras]

(1) Certainty;
(2) peacefulness;
(3) time;
(4) availability; and
(5) how the body looks.

the same

 

[sumbumedguy]

I want
peaceful - enough not to undo
unique - so it's like news worthy so I don't have my friends harassed by cops by leavin a note
available - I'm a broke broke teen
oh I also don't want permenant dammage if it goes wrong

 

[sumbumedguy]

i'd still spend all the time in the world watching my life get worse while I hunt and scrape together cash for N.

I feel like ppl who sell N are trying to profit off of deaths I mean it is pretty risky shipping it but 500 dollars for half a leather dose. . ....

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Reliable and effective, which implies also painless. Because pain is our body ways of avoiding things, so i avoid painful methods not because of the pain, but because my body reactions may ruin the attempt. If i had a guaranteed method that involves clicking a button, then some pain but 100% guaranteed suicide i'd do it.

 

[millefeui]

Reliability.

I can endure the pain.

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Reliability.

I can endure the pain.

Easy then with tools at your disposal, burning is very reliable for instance.

 

[millefeui]

Easy then with tools at your disposal, burning is very reliable for instance.

Just because I can endure the pain it doesn't mean I am an idiot. If there are easy methods such as hanging, why would I set myself on fire?

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Just because I can endure the pain it doesn't mean I am an idiot. If there are easy methods such as hanging, why would I set myself on fire?

Not everybody has the tools to hang himself, for instance there is 0 anchor in my house, i looked everywhere and there is just 0.

 

[RubySimon]

1:mess, I don't want to cause too much distress to my family or whoever finds me when I go.

2: Simplicity, I have a learning disability so the more complex the more likely I would duck it up and fail. So it has to be simple.

3:Painless, my pain tolerance is low and I am very anxious towards pain of any kind but especially new unknown pain. I don't want any survival instinct kicking in.

4: Quick, same as above but add in a phobia of hospitals.

5: Easy enough to get.l, I live with my parents in an attic room So it needs to be easy enough to sneak it in and out without detection and be discreet as possible. My parents are nosey.

 

[millefeui]

Not everybody has the tools to hang himself, for instance there is 0 anchor in my house, i looked everywhere and there is just 0.

I don't remember ever saying everyone has the tools to hang themselves.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

Certainty and Neatness are often at odds with one another, as are Certainty and Peacefulness.

If I could make it look like an accident, that would be lovely. It would just be something unfortunate, the whims of chance, and that was it. This would spare people from having to consider my emotional pain, which would only be compounded by the stigma against suicide. I think I would sacrifice Peacefulness for that.

 

[Trashcan]

Certainty. Currently I'm planning to use a gun because it's instant and I can do it at any time, also impossible to revive me if I hit the brain stem. I've failed too many times which is why I need something like this... once I pull the trigger, there's no going back. And I need to do it in a moment of desperation to overcome the survival instinct. So doing something in a hotel or waiting until I won't be found for X amount of time won't cut it.

I know it's selfish. But I just need it to work this time. I promised myself if I try again, I'll succeed this time.

After reading other replies, I've changed it to reliability, nothing traumatizing, and peacefulness would also be nice. But I can withstand some suffering, just not severe pain (have a pathetically low pain tolerance). So I've decided SN just before bed combined with some medications that would put me in a deep sleep would be best. The gun is a last resort if the SN fails to do the job. But I'm taking measures and doing research so that the SN will most likely work.