Most of us tried to die a few times. What is some of your past failed attempts and why didn't they work? Or do you even know why it didn't work?
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Last year, I took 100 sleeping pills and antidepressants with alcohol and was planning to hang myself (partial) after that.
However, the effect of the pills came so fast that I ended up passing out instantly.
Thus, I ended up in a coma for 2 days, 1 month in hospital and 5 months as a prisoner in my parents' house.
However, the effect of the pills came so fast that I ended up passing out instantly.
Thus, I ended up in a coma for 2 days, 1 month in hospital and 5 months as a prisoner in my parents' house.
As far as myself personally.
1. I tried lighting gas cans off next to my head. The idea was they would be a bomb. While I was able to light them, the fire never went below the mouth.
2. I drank a bunch of bug poison and weed killer. It hurt my throat pretty badly, but didn't do much anything else.
3. I tried setting a boat flare off in my mouth. Idk why that didn't work. To my guess the flares were old and bad.
4. I tried partially hanging, but I couldn't get it right. It kept hurting too bad.
5. I tried drowning, but the pain from that was some of the worst I felt in my life.
There is a few others but those are the big ones that come to mind. And there is a ton of failed attempts where I chicken out. Like death by car
1. I tried lighting gas cans off next to my head. The idea was they would be a bomb. While I was able to light them, the fire never went below the mouth.
2. I drank a bunch of bug poison and weed killer. It hurt my throat pretty badly, but didn't do much anything else.
3. I tried setting a boat flare off in my mouth. Idk why that didn't work. To my guess the flares were old and bad.
4. I tried partially hanging, but I couldn't get it right. It kept hurting too bad.
5. I tried drowning, but the pain from that was some of the worst I felt in my life.
There is a few others but those are the big ones that come to mind. And there is a ton of failed attempts where I chicken out. Like death by car
My dumbass thought antidepressants pills could actually kill me. Took a bunch. Never ended up in the hospital thank goodness but I did get sick for days. I told my mom it was stomach pain it sort of was but it was from all that pills. I vomited for days straight. Couldn't eat till the 3rd day. Couldn't breathe either. Coughed for days. I think I took some sleeping thing too. And the pills were expired so there was that too. I was hoping it would at least idk shut down my liver or something. It didn't. Just worsened my already chronic stomach pain. I'm such an idiot.
Scribble Fan
I'm out!
- May 30, 2019
- 815
I keep trying partial but I can't get it right, I have no idea what I'm doing wrong...
Bedrock48
Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
- Feb 1, 2021
- 540
Most of mine failed either because I a) lost the nerve or b) was interrupted. Some honourable mentions.
1) Found on a bridge by a random dude, couldn't bring myself to do it in front of him
2) Stashed a noose in my psych ward bathroom. Staff came in while it was in my hands, had a long tug of war session with it. Pretty funny now but not so funny at the time.
3) Bunch of od attempts, most recent should've worked but I miscalculated.
4) Also wandered around town a few months back working up the nerve to throw myself in front of a car. The one time I managed to I was just getting ready, looked up and noticed it was a police car. Got out of dodge real fast lol.
Sorry I cope by laughing about this stuff a lot. Hoping my next attempt will be my last.
1) Found on a bridge by a random dude, couldn't bring myself to do it in front of him
2) Stashed a noose in my psych ward bathroom. Staff came in while it was in my hands, had a long tug of war session with it. Pretty funny now but not so funny at the time.
3) Bunch of od attempts, most recent should've worked but I miscalculated.
4) Also wandered around town a few months back working up the nerve to throw myself in front of a car. The one time I managed to I was just getting ready, looked up and noticed it was a police car. Got out of dodge real fast lol.
Sorry I cope by laughing about this stuff a lot. Hoping my next attempt will be my last.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 42,468
I tried by putting a cord around my neck last year but it was really uncomfortable and I didn't know what I was doing really. It is really hard to die and I guess survival instinct gets in the way.
I'd sort of consider this an attempt. In the middle of the night, I snuck under a fence to a radio tower and climbed about 20 feet before turning around. I thought just climbing under the fence would be enough to get me to go through with it because at that point I would be completely visible to any cars passing by and I could get trespassing charges or be sent to a mental hospital. I climbed 20 feet and genuinely thought I was about to die, but then I made the mistake of looking up. Seeing how much farther I had to climb suddenly terrified me. I wasn't on a ladder either so the climb was even more intimidating. I turned around and a car came by, instead of continuing thinking that I couldn't turn back now, I dove into a ditch and turned my head away trying to minimize the chance of being spotted. I hadn't thought to wear black clothes because I wasn't expecting I'd turn around, to make matters worse I'm white and was wearing short sleeves and shorts laying down on grass. Somehow they didn't see me, that or they just ignored me. I think if I had access to a ledge from high enough and a clear enough view where I'd know I wouldn't hit anybody, I'd have been dead that night. I was 17 at the time and even though I have sn now it was much easier to get myself to attempt things back then, now death is way more intimidating.
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Largeletters
Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
- 640
Nearly a year ago, I attempted to overdose on some antibiotics that my dog was prescribed a while back in the past, but it was pitiful. Tried to hang myself a few times, but I got too scared and pulled myself up. Went to a 5-story parking garage several times planning to jump, but never did. Tried to slit my wrist numerous times, never worked out. Tried to OD on other pills too but those never would've killed me.
I'm so sorry to hear this.
Rayzieka
Not Really Here
- Apr 28, 2021
- 637
trying to overdose on things nearly impossible to overdose on when I was younger
and partial hanging
But if I don't exclude minor things that my doctors are calling OCD for some bizarre reason,
there's things like intentionally trying to get hit by a car or trying to hit an artery during self harm and so on.
I failed every major attempt because I didn't know what I was doing. Now that I do I'll probably peacefully leave when I'm ready.
and partial hanging
But if I don't exclude minor things that my doctors are calling OCD for some bizarre reason,
there's things like intentionally trying to get hit by a car or trying to hit an artery during self harm and so on.
I failed every major attempt because I didn't know what I was doing. Now that I do I'll probably peacefully leave when I'm ready.
Lack of information. Most information is banned and can't be reached. So it is a danger to become a vegetal from failure.
Querry1
life is unfair, ctb or get away
- Aug 16, 2018
- 180
Ob La Dee
Member
- Aug 4, 2021
- 76
I tried partial hanging with a nylon cellphone cord over a door last December. When I blacked out the cord snapped and I woke up dazed and confused on the floor. Will be going with SN this time around. Did a great deal of research into it (last December's attempt was impulsive) so hopefully it will work.
Rhaiyne
"To be - or not to be.... That is the question"
- Jul 4, 2021
- 107
Well... I had taken a massive overdose of heart tablets and others.... I ended up phoning a work colleague about work i hadn't completed that day. I'm not sure how she realised what I had done... but her and her husband called ambulance. They found me unconscious. I was in a coma on life support for a week... then sent to a psychiatric hospital.... not great.... was nearly gone... apparently I flat lined 3 times... damn defibrillators....!!!!!
I will list a few I can recall. What I class as an 'attempt' is probably not aligned to what you mean though but I have listed times I have come super close. I am 99% certain that I had gone through with it, all of these methods would have almost no chance of really being a 'failure' in the traditional sense. All were super lethal.
1) CO In a tent - Got it lit, glowing white hot etc - Family interrupted me at just the right moment (~15 years ago)
2) Drove down to Beachy Head to meet a person to jump off together- we walked along the edge, walked along the bottom and had a drink but too scary (~8 years ago)
3) I took supplies for H2S method and drove to a secluded spot in a very bad mental state - I don't know why I couldn't do it in the end (~9 years ago)
4) This one sounds nuts but it is true - I made a guillotine and a friend randomly turned up just at the moment to stop me (~20 years ago)
5) I mixed cyanide ready to drink but in the end I couldnt do it and got rid of it (~6 years ago)
I have not had a tradition fail as the methods I go for are like 99% certain ones, I like to take chances.
Not quite what you asked but an interesting question none the less.
1) CO In a tent - Got it lit, glowing white hot etc - Family interrupted me at just the right moment (~15 years ago)
2) Drove down to Beachy Head to meet a person to jump off together- we walked along the edge, walked along the bottom and had a drink but too scary (~8 years ago)
3) I took supplies for H2S method and drove to a secluded spot in a very bad mental state - I don't know why I couldn't do it in the end (~9 years ago)
4) This one sounds nuts but it is true - I made a guillotine and a friend randomly turned up just at the moment to stop me (~20 years ago)
5) I mixed cyanide ready to drink but in the end I couldnt do it and got rid of it (~6 years ago)
I have not had a tradition fail as the methods I go for are like 99% certain ones, I like to take chances.
Not quite what you asked but an interesting question none the less.
CoolGuy9
Mage
- Mar 5, 2019
- 524
I couldn't find my sweet spot when hanging. Hopefully my new method will work.
rejected
Being alive is ghetto
- Oct 13, 2022
- 28
My most recent attempt in july In the middle of the night I sealed myself in the bathroom with masking tape and a charcoal grill… lit it, woke up 5 hours later in a super smokey room feeling very alive and since I left a bunch of notification signs around my building for CO2 and it was touching morning work hours. I abandoned the attempt and put out the grill so nobody knew anything.
I've also tried with the exit bag method about 4 years ago believe I bought argon but never fully went through with it because the sound of the gas when I turned the knob for airflow completely caught me off guard and I thought I did something wrong and was afraid that I'd fail all together. I then wanted to try again but with meds that calmed my anxiety down and I thought I needed to be prescribed something so I very foolishly went to be seen and was forced to stay in the hospital for 3 days. N family got involved and they removed my whole set up have no idea what happened to it.
I've had a few od attempts when I was younger and I also tried drinking iodine but those were very uneducated attempts and also didn't work lol
I've also attempted getting drunk and partial hanging from a door knob but had the same sensation most mention of the head exploding feeling and my lips felt like they were gonna burst too. Would love to find the sweet spot in this method though. Or to try the exit bag again would have to round up all the supplies all over again though.
I've also tried with the exit bag method about 4 years ago believe I bought argon but never fully went through with it because the sound of the gas when I turned the knob for airflow completely caught me off guard and I thought I did something wrong and was afraid that I'd fail all together. I then wanted to try again but with meds that calmed my anxiety down and I thought I needed to be prescribed something so I very foolishly went to be seen and was forced to stay in the hospital for 3 days. N family got involved and they removed my whole set up have no idea what happened to it.
I've had a few od attempts when I was younger and I also tried drinking iodine but those were very uneducated attempts and also didn't work lol
I've also attempted getting drunk and partial hanging from a door knob but had the same sensation most mention of the head exploding feeling and my lips felt like they were gonna burst too. Would love to find the sweet spot in this method though. Or to try the exit bag again would have to round up all the supplies all over again though.
asadghostgirl
Member
- Oct 11, 2022
- 10
Tried to do CO2 poisoning with a gas generator in a car but it was too painful and burned my throat too much. Then wound up having to deal with all the 3 day forced hold. It sucked, my job fired me because of it even though I was at home and I was left with a $2000 bill for the stupid psych place. Just made my life worse and myself poorer.
rejected
Being alive is ghetto
- Oct 13, 2022
- 28
I'm sorry you've gone through that. I can relate! I tried the exit bag method but not fully and ended up on a 3 day hold they billed me $6000 lol I saw that as a joke. N most recently I've tried with a charcoal grill and sealing myself up in the bathroom don't really understand why that attempt failed but it did just glad no one ever found out about it.
sundown12
drama queen
- Oct 5, 2022
- 151
didn't know anything about proper ways to kill oneself, so i took a bunch of antidepressants and tried to sleep in hopes of passing peacefully...ended up freaking out and calling emergency, then straight to psych ward. good times lol.
TVtrays
Member
- May 6, 2019
- 99
Partial hanging, probably fifteen failed attempts. Pathetic, I know. Most attempts, I was only able to block my jugular, and two attempts would've worked if my survival instinct didn't kick in right before I passed out.
Tourniquet method, a few failed attempts for the same reason as before, as well as the pinching sensation on my neck that became too much to bear.
At one point, I had my sn dissolved in a cup. I stared at my reflection in the mirror with that cup of sn in my hand. I had done the whole antiemetic and antacid regimen. The mixture touched my lips, I got scared, I got upset with myself for being scared, self harmed rather gruesomely and went to bed.
My story is marked by cowardice.
Tourniquet method, a few failed attempts for the same reason as before, as well as the pinching sensation on my neck that became too much to bear.
At one point, I had my sn dissolved in a cup. I stared at my reflection in the mirror with that cup of sn in my hand. I had done the whole antiemetic and antacid regimen. The mixture touched my lips, I got scared, I got upset with myself for being scared, self harmed rather gruesomely and went to bed.
My story is marked by cowardice.
