Discussion what are some Dreams that will die with you?

[Fragile]

some dreams are possible, others are impossible. especially for a suicidal person.

i figured many of us have buried some dreams along the way, feel free to share them in this thread.

 

[wendydong1]

Sering my dog die peacefully after living a really good life

 

[ralphnol]

I wish I could've been happy. You know, have a good family, a good job. Have found a good girlfriend and spouse. Have my own house, my own place. Nowadays this seems like hell in some people´s experience. But I always thought this was a bliss. I wish I could´ve had my own money. To live in a good place. There may have been other dreams that got lost in the way. I wanted to be a writer for a while (not a huge one, like Stephen King, but a minor, like Ligotti). I wish I could've been a public intellectual figure. Other than that, I wish I couldve had sex with beautiful women. But that was in the past. Nowadays, the only dream I have, the one left. Its to find houses and care for some stray cats in my neighborhood (I cant take them in cause I live with my parents and they dont like animals in the house). And maybe to create some sort of place to care for stray cats. Thats about it. Other than that, I want a peaceful death.

 

[Fragile]

I wish I could've been happy. You know, have a good family, a good job. Have found a good girlfriend and spouse. Have my own house, my own place. Nowadays this seems like hell in some people´s experience. But I always thought this was a bliss. I wish I could´ve had my own money. To live in a good place. There may have been other dreams that got lost in the way. I wanted to be a writer for a while (not a huge one, like Stephen King, but a minor, like Ligotti). I wish I could've been a public intellectual figure. Other than that, I wish I couldve had sex with beautiful women. But that was in the past. Nowadays, the only dream I have, the one left. Its to find houses and care for some stray cats in my neighborhood (I cant take them in cause I live with my parents). And maybe have created some sort of place to care for stray cats. Thats about it. Other than that, I want a peaceful death.

i can relate to a lot of that, happiness in such way was always one of my dreams. i've always wondered, what if i was a little bit happier? not in a perfect life but at least to the point where i can actually achieve something creative or an altruistic endeavor. maybe everything would've been so much better.

 

[Wayfaerer]

My dreams were:

1.) to be in peak physical condition
2.) to have a Ph.D in the field that I am currently studying
3.) get gf/wife

Then I would've been set. All are now practically impossible and my heart has been torn into pieces. All I can do now is try to engage in as much hedonism as possible before I catch the bus as all long-term goals are now moot. At best I can lose virginity to an escort and if I really push myself, finish my B.S. I'm very close but saved the hardest math and physics course for last and I really, really don't think I'll have the mental fortitude for them in this state. To me it would be functionally useless but it would serve as a trophy and nothing more.

 

[BPD_LE]

Dreams that will die with me include having a career where I can help and influence people, being with the love of my life, having children and making a difference by spreading love and understanding.

 

[93.c]

Travelling the world (vagabond style, with only me, some essentials, and the road wherever it may lead). Experiencing adulthood with my friends. Meeting and living near or with my boyfriend who is across the country. Old career ambitions. Recovering from my drug abuse and self harm. Becoming the person I've always hoped to become.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Creating digital music & DJing, finding the love of my life, opening a home for orphan girls, learning how to do advanced break dance moves, learning Spanish...

 

[nzdarkshark]

Making fursuits for a living, moving to Canada, seeing a wolf in real life, owning a dog of my own, going to the states.

 

[Bathsheba]

I won't finish my degree and I always had a dream to write a book, but it won't happen now.

 

[PaYo]

Draw a comic book, make my own universe and own heroes. Create own language. Write a book. Became famous. Travel a world, finding a future mother of my kids.

Most of us want a happy life. Most of us want to have some person in this life. I think its normal for us for not being alone.

 

[Mr2005]

That I wasn't able to fix anything

 

[woxihuanni]

I wanted to publish all my work and art. There is piles of both neglected now.

I wanted to go to the wild places we loved, again, and to new ones we were planning to go.

I wanted to see Santorini.

I wanted to dance well enough.

I wanted to be there for the thing we were organising in two years' time.

I wanted to see Nantes again together.

I wanted so many fucking things.

 

[iiii5555]

Dreams? You mean conditioned delusions? Ha!

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

becoming a novelist

 

[Sweet emotion]

I got sick at a very young age so I have no idea what love feels like. So basically never having a life of my own. There are so many things I have wanted to do but have been physically unable. I'm 34 but I died inside at 20. That's when everything stopped and I got sick with complex regional pain syndrome.

 

[k75]

In another life, my best friend and I were planning on traveling to Japan together.

I was going to become a translator.

I was going to grow my jewelry and art business.

I really wanted to see the Aurora Borealis in person.

I wanted to travel somewhere far away from all the light pollution and really see the sky at night.

 

[CozyTime]

Zoo Keeper, I always loved animals and spent a lot of my childhood reading on animals, watching documentaries etc. My dream was to work at a zoo meant for endangered species then finding "the one" and living out the rest of my days like that.

But that dream was buried quite early on around 13-14, I've had things that I've wanted to do since but never anything even remotely close to how passionate I felt about that dream. Even if suicide wasn't on my mind my mental illness has already destroyed that dream for good.

At most now what I want is a person I can wake up next to whenever I suffer nightmares.

 

[Nameless Monster]

Aprende a nadar y enamorarte, como una persona normal, debido al abuso sexual que he sufrido, nunca me sentiré cómodo con otras personas, el amor me enferma, realmente desearía poder experimentar lo que es estar en una relación y no tenga un ataque de pánico cuando me toquen o me abracen. También mire a mis hermanitos crecer, ¿serán felices? ¿Serán exitosos? ¿Serán personas decentes? ¿Todavía me amarán? Nunca lo sabré.

 

[Fragile]

Aprende a nadar y enamorarte, como una persona normal, debido al abuso sexual que he sufrido, nunca me sentiré cómodo con otras personas, el amor me enferma, realmente desearía poder experimentar lo que es estar en una relación y no tenga un ataque de pánico cuando me toquen o me abracen. También mire a mis hermanitos crecer, ¿serán felices? ¿Serán exitosos? ¿Serán personas decentes? ¿Todavía me amarán? Nunca lo sabré.

te entiendo, por razones similares yo tambien desearia haber experimentado una relacion normal como lo hacen las otras personas.

y lo de mis hermanitos tambien me duele, me gustaria mucho verlos crecer y ser las personas que quieren ser, pero no creo que yo pueda vivir lo suficiente para eso.

 

[Erin Inari]

Becoming an aerospace engineer, and finding love

 

[Jean4]

My dream has always been wanting to be a wife and mother. Call me old fashioned. I never wanted to work. I am now 51, single with a hysterectomy. I always thought arranged marriages were good unless the other person was an abuser.

 

[Emily123]

There is no dream . I just want to die . shit to this world that I don't even have a freedom to end my miserable life . The only dream that I have is watching my death body

 

[Stan]

Being a family man

 

[Pony]

Having a body that im comfortable in

 

[Fallen_From_Grace]

To become a therapist so I can help people not suffer like I did.
To release my own video game
Or combine those two dreams and make a video game that could help people overcome their problems or help people realize what problems there are in regards to mental health.
To be happy.
To be in a happy marriage.
Have a Pomeranian and a tortoiseshell cat.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

I wish I could have been pretty, I wish I could have been skinny and had a normal matabolism, I wish I could have been a successful graphic designer and gotten a condo or apartmet at meadowbrook park by my house. I wish I could have done an aerial cartwheel and a back-handspring step-out. I wish I could have gotten my punch front, and learned more skills on bars(I only know 2). I wish I could have gone to lunch with my past teachers; Mrs.Allen, Mrs.Brun, Mrs. D, Mrs.Dziadosz, Mrs.Lillis and Mrs.Morgan. I wish for justice against my enemies. I wish people would know my story and accept me and my flaws. But Alace, none of that will ever happen. Not one of my "dreams" are going to come true. I gave things time to work out and I just don't see anything happening for me. I'm done; done with everything and soon I'll be fading away with no awareness that I ever existed.

 

[changelingchild]

some dreams are possible, others are impossible. especially for a suicidal person.

i figured many of us have buried some dreams along the way, feel free to share them in this thread.

Not sure if this is how to reply, it's my first post here... wanted to own a business with my friend and live in my own house with a couple of cats and maybe a dog if my depression ever lifted... turns out my friend doesn't care about me at all after 10 years of me following her around and losing everything else in my life

 

[m9q2As2$IG]

Not sure if this is how to reply, it's my first post here... wanted to own a business with my friend and live in my own house with a couple of cats and maybe a dog if my depression ever lifted... turns out my friend doesn't care about me at all after 10 years of me following her around and losing everything else in my life

You don't need to quote unless you are replying to something that is not the OP's question or original thread reason. So for this case the quotes weren't necessary, but that's okay, it's your first post :).

Hope to see you around!

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To also answer OP, my only dream has ever been to feel at peace and in rest. I some time ago felt that with a girl I was in love with, but the heartache that followed was so strong that it trumped those dreams. Of course people will say "you will find someone one day". I don't feel at liberty waiting for an uncertainty that could bring an uncertain positive (or extremely negative) impact in my life.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

1. Becoming a comic artist
2. Having a normal family -- wife and kids and our dogs
3. Being an independent, normal adult