What are my options?

[fisbp]

SN and N are illegal here, and even if I can obtain N through D, I cannot afford it.

I tried partial hanging many times but because of SI I kept failing.

I don't know what my options are now.

Life is meaningless to me and I want to leave this world.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't think anyone here would tell you how to go about killing yourself. Your option is to do a LOT of posting on SS, so that the search function opens up to you, and discovering another way yourself in the many threads here. Do a lot of reading. Ask specific questions on whatever method(s) you discover. Those questions will get answered most likely. I think you need to post a bit about yourself and your story so people get an idea of who you are and what brought you here. People need to feel comfortable with you first. Sorry for being so curt.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see being alive as being so pointless, there is nothing here for me in this world and more than anything I wish that it was easier to leave. I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult.

We all deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, it is cruel how the society expects us to suffer for decades against our wishes. I have never attempted hanging personally as it sounds like such a difficult and risky method but what I plan to do, is to look at the resources to reduce the chance of the method failing and maybe eventually I will get desperate enough to leave. I feel like only you can decide what method is best for yourself. I wish you the best in whatever happens.