Siamese Believe
Member
- Dec 8, 2025
- 30
Does it differ from neurotypicals? I can only speak for myself, I know as a level 2 I've always struggled with keeping my feelings to myself, I don't like doing it. I want to feel seen, I want to be understood.
The more isolated I became, the more I considered suicide as an exit from this. And suicide never leaves my mind.
I've had to grow to repress the urge to vent or make jokes about my pain to my family Because otherwise they only ignore me more, saying I'm too negative all the time. Funnily enough this only makes me even more isolated and suicidal.
It's like slowly falling deeper into a hole and the harder you try to escape, you slip deeper and deeper until you get swallowed whole.
The more isolated I became, the more I considered suicide as an exit from this. And suicide never leaves my mind.
I've had to grow to repress the urge to vent or make jokes about my pain to my family Because otherwise they only ignore me more, saying I'm too negative all the time. Funnily enough this only makes me even more isolated and suicidal.
It's like slowly falling deeper into a hole and the harder you try to escape, you slip deeper and deeper until you get swallowed whole.
