My requests for help were always ignored. Nobody cares if you look bad. People just want you not to be a problem for them. All my problems were caused by my own mother. My mother has some type of neurological disorder, she is a selfish and cruel narcissistic person, she hates everyone, she has no friends, she can't have social relationships, everything she does is based on instinct, she doesn't care about anyone's feelings, She's not happy for anyone, she seems to have some type of autism, she lives in her own world. My father is also a bad guy, but he knows what he is doing, he has full awareness and intelligence to play with people, he is a very intelligent person. My family are a bunch of narcissists, self-interested and fake. Everyone knew since my mother was a child that she had some mental disorder, they came to tell my father about it. Since I was born, my mother has always said that she hates me, persecuted me and was cruel to me in every way, I was left with scars. I tried to seek help from my family, my father, everyone knew and no one did anything. I suffered episodes of rape by other people several times, when I had the courage to tell them, no one did anything, no one helped me. I started mutilating myself when I was raped at 17, no one helped me, my mother said she was going to put me in the asylum and that I would be raped there. I got scared and stopped. I had health problems that no one took care of, and when I became an adult and started working, they became serious. Nobody had mercy on me. Everyone thinks and says openly that I take several medications and am always having surgeries to solve my health problems because I want to. As if I forced the doctors to operate on me. And now that my mother is elderly. It was up to me to take care of the person who ended my life. Because I feel so sorry for her. Even though she was a horrible person, who forbade me to talk to anyone. It ended my childhood and adolescence. I still feel sorry for her. No one has ever given me a loving hug, no one has ever held my hand to help me. I'm tired. I have several health problems. Therapists, they look at it as if it wasn't their problem. He has no empathy. I just want to end it all.
