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Freebandzgang

Freebandzgang

Cant believe that we made it this far
Mar 17, 2025
118
i have failed ctb. Idk what to feel right now. Im supposed to be dead. I planned this for many weeks and it didnt work. I feel so ashamed of myself. My life is so much harder now that ive failed. There are obvious marks on my body. I cant keep living. Im going to try a different much more painful method. I need to go. Im fine with pain because living another day would be more painful. I appreciate everyone that has helped me. Im sorry. Goodbye
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
205
I'm sorry your attempt failed, can I ask what went wrong?
 
deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
534
Oh no! I didn't know you were leaving! Shit. 🥺

If you're still with us but are on your way, I hope that you're able to find your peace. You absolutely deserve it. Your short time here has left a mark on my heart with your kind and genuine words and support. You will most surely be missed. I'm so sorry.

If it doesn't work out the way you hoped, I hope that you come back so we can give you our support this time. No shame, nothing but love.

If you're already gone, I'm so sorry I missed it, but I truly hope you're in the best place possible. Be free, sweet soul. 🥺❤️🕊️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,549
I understand finding it painful to suffer in this existence, I hope you find the freedom from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
Thinking of you and sending love.
 
gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
507
Failing isn't shameful. It's chemical, biological, and entirely unpredictable. The body fights to stay alive even when the mind is at peace with dying. That's not your fault.

But I hear you—failure comes with consequences. Physical ones. Emotional ones. Logistical ones. Sometimes it makes the next step feel further away, not closer. I won't sugarcoat that.

What I will say is this: don't rush into a painful method out of guilt. You deserve more than a punishment exit. If you're set on going, then you owe yourself the same care and preparation you gave the first time. You've already shown you're capable of planning. Let this experience inform, not derail you. Go back to the data. Refine it. Choose differently—not desperately.

Stay still for a moment. You don't owe anyone a fast second attempt.
And if you change your mind—if you don't want to try again—that's allowed too.
Either way, I don't think less of you.
 

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