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Area Man
Student
- Mar 31, 2021
- 124
Suffice to say I am not a pedo and have not sought out to harm anyone, I'm just a bullied loser with too many issues and a lack of social skills. I find it too stimulating around people and get overwhelmed by anxiety. Now I'm too old for anyone to really have any sympathy and most people call me a weird pervert and want me dead. A lot of this is fuelled by my appearance and my OCD. I can't say this to anyone anymore though, they're just sick of it and creeped out and I'm fucked.
Over the past few years I've bit by bit lost more parts of the person I used to be and failed to launch due to mounting self-destructive anxieties and fallen short of expectations. It's in the past few months that shit has really hit the fan and my life has been destroyed and I've been piled on and accused of shit like what I mentioned in this title above. And the people who did this are people with power and position too. And they bent the rules to screw over me. Seems the situation is really beyond help at this point and I'm not emotionally cut out for this sort of life if I've already been a recluse for the past five years. I'm feeling so dead.
Over the past few years I've bit by bit lost more parts of the person I used to be and failed to launch due to mounting self-destructive anxieties and fallen short of expectations. It's in the past few months that shit has really hit the fan and my life has been destroyed and I've been piled on and accused of shit like what I mentioned in this title above. And the people who did this are people with power and position too. And they bent the rules to screw over me. Seems the situation is really beyond help at this point and I'm not emotionally cut out for this sort of life if I've already been a recluse for the past five years. I'm feeling so dead.