Well, I don’t have cancer

[its-about-time]

I'm massively disappointed. I was very hopeful given the doctor's concerns. But no evidence of malignancy in the CT scan.

At least I didn't go around telling people about all this. Now I don't have to pretend to be relieved or anything. Really I just want to cry. I was so hopeful.

Discovered I have PCOS though. Which is just a low blow. In the last few years I've been really wanting to have a kid. The infertility rate is 70-80% in PCOS. Having a kid with my ongoing issues probably wouldn't have been a good idea anyways. But sucks to learn it's probably not even possible. Whatever I guess. Just whatever. Can't have kids if you're dead, I shouldn't get hung up on it.

There goes my perfect solution. Boo. I'm actually pretty upset.

 

[Anónimo]

I'm so sorry about this.

 

[Rational man]

Are CT scans reliable in detection ?.

i had CT, scopes, camera s and the doctors were looking in,the wrong place. I.had symptoms in the place they we re looking but the cause was microscopic!

 

[FuneralCry]

It is understandable wanting to get a disease that would kill you, as we live in a world where suicide is so difficult. Cancer does sound like a horrible disease though. I'm sorry that things did not go the way you want them to. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[LookieLou]

I don't understand the "I want to die, I wish I could have kids" thing.

 

[its-about-time]

I don't understand the "I want to die, I wish I could have kids" thing.

More of a "having kids is one of those goals I have in life but don't feel capable of reaching due to my issues" among many other things I want but am incapable of obtaining… learning I'm probably infertile anyways is just sort of a little kick while I'm down, or maybe just confirmation it isn't in the stars for me.

Are CT scans reliable in detection ?.

i had CT, scopes, camera s and the doctors were looking in,the wrong place. I.had symptoms in the place they we re looking but the cause was microscopic!

I don't know. The doctor seems satisfied with not finding any masses or enlarged lymph nodes. Could still have cancer elsewhere or in my blood I suppose. I have been suspicious of chronic leukemia for months but didn't bring it up, the doc brought cancer up on his own so I just ran with his ideas of there being a mass somewhere in my abdomen, which we now know isn't the case. Maybe there's still hope. What was the microscopic cause for you? Did they eventually discover cancer or something else?

 

[Freedomindeath4me]

My condolences.

 

[its-about-time]

My condolences.

I'm sorry but that made me laugh. It's just so backwards to what society expects. I really appreciate this forum. People get it.

 

[Worndown]

More of a "having kids is one of those goals I have in life but don't feel capable of reaching due to my issues" among many other things I want but am incapable of obtaining… learning I'm probably infertile anyways is just sort of a little kick while I'm down, or maybe just confirmation it isn't in the stars for me.

I don't know. The doctor seems satisfied with not finding any masses or enlarged lymph nodes. Could still have cancer elsewhere or in my blood I suppose. I have been suspicious of chronic leukemia for months but didn't bring it up, the doc brought cancer up on his own so I just ran with his ideas of there being a mass somewhere in my abdomen, which we now know isn't the case. Maybe there's still hope. What was the microscopic cause for you? Did they eventually discover cancer or something else?

Bad news...leukemia will not always kill you. I am surviving a year after treatment.

 

[its-about-time]

Bad news...leukemia will not always kill you. I am surviving a year after treatment.

I wouldn't treat it. Just treat symptoms for comfort until it gets too rough, then CTB with SN.

 

[Worndown]

It is likely an infection would get you in the hospital a few days before it would kill you. Then they cure the infection.

 

[its-about-time]

It is likely an infection would get you in the hospital a few days before it would kill you. Then they cure the infection.

Well god damn.

 

[lostmylove]

Looks like I'm due to get the all clear on Monday too shame. Oh well there's always the chance of getting hiv instead

 

[SofterSoftest]

I'm massively disappointed. I was very hopeful given the doctor's concerns. But no evidence of malignancy in the CT scan.

At least I didn't go around telling people about all this. Now I don't have to pretend to be relieved or anything. Really I just want to cry. I was so hopeful.

Discovered I have PCOS though. Which is just a low blow. In the last few years I've been really wanting to have a kid. The infertility rate is 70-80% in PCOS. Having a kid with my ongoing issues probably wouldn't have been a good idea anyways. But sucks to learn it's probably not even possible. Whatever I guess. Just whatever. Can't have kids if you're dead, I shouldn't get hung up on it.

There goes my perfect solution. Boo. I'm actually pretty upset.

I feel you. Ten years ago, I had a whole set of symptoms that led even specialists to outwardly suggest to me I likely have cancer. Well, it turned out that instead of cancer, I had this exceptionally rare chronic illness that is horrible to live with but doesn't in any way affect life expectancy. Fortunately, things did look up for me for some time since this period, but then my life took other massive nosedives that eventually led me here.

 

[Worndown]

Looks like I'm due to get the all clear on Monday too shame. Oh well there's always the chance of getting hiv instead

Bad news...HIV is not a death sentence anymore.

 

[Rational man]

More of a "having kids is one of those goals I have in life but don't feel capable of reaching due to my issues" among many other things I want but am incapable of obtaining… learning I'm probably infertile anyways is just sort of a little kick while I'm down, or maybe just confirmation it isn't in the stars for me.

I don't know. The doctor seems satisfied with not finding any masses or enlarged lymph nodes. Could still have cancer elsewhere or in my blood I suppose. I have been suspicious of chronic leukemia for months but didn't bring it up, the doc brought cancer up on his own so I just ran with his ideas of there being a mass somewhere in my abdomen, which we now know isn't the case. Maybe there's still hope. What was the microscopic cause for you? Did they eventually discover cancer or something else?

microscopic is a disease process where conventional scans and scopes are unable to detective a process that is seen by the doctor. Macroscopic would be gross pathology like mass of cancer. Degenerative and neurological dysfunctional processes may come under the umbrella of micro. Perhaps detected under the microscope or blood tests, etc. My disease process is probably degenerating processes but will kill me,

Looks like I'm due to get the all clear on Monday too shame. Oh well there's always the chance of getting hiv instead

HIV is awful. Ive seen a man die from AIDS 18 Years ago. He looked like a Belson victim in the holocaust. HIV can be treated but theres no cure. He came out of remission.